nottheoldme

I had surgery on tuesday. I was literally crashing on blood sugar. Called surgeon and he said to go full liquids but stay really light until the official full liquid date. Cream soup really thinned. And ad some protein powder to my broth. It has really made a difference. I have yet to get hungry not even head hungry. Food does not appeal to me at all. My hubby is shocked. He is a cancer patient so any calorie intake he can get is great. He walked by with a container of cake frosting and asked if i wanted a lick. I was LIKE NO. He was not being mean. I have already failed at lap band. I asked him to feel free to say whatever if he sees me screwing up. Today at lunch he noticed i was eating the soup to fast. He gently reminded me we could take as long as we needed for me to eat he was so tight. Hang in there we can do this!!

Thanks nursebarbie

You are all in my thoughts and prayers. Since i am a revision dr wants me last so he wont feel rushed. Great ideabut here i sit with anxiety ramping up. Doesnt help im in juarez mexico alone. I just keep breathing. I lost 9 pounds preop. Ive been through every emoyion from fear to excitement to thinking about packing up and leaving!!!! Im calm now. Just breathe.

June 25

I had thought about having this surgery about two years ago. I decided then i was almost 50 and just didnt care anymore. I have always been fat. I did lose 100 on the lapband but that still left me at just under 300. I fought depression my entire adult life and while i am not suicidal i just didn't care if the end came. Flash forward a year. Hubby has been diagnosed with terminal cancer. He's on chemo but this is not a fight we are going to win though we continue to fight. He has treated me like a princess for 25 years. Im so out of shape the process of buying groceries kills me. Recently we ran into a friend that was sleeved about the time hubby was diagnosed in September. She is now a size 4 down from a size 28/30. It made me start thinking. Before i just assumed if i died hubby would be there for kids and grandchild. Now I'm facing a life where i have to be it All and live along time. I just can't do it at my current weight and health. I have tried to imagine what i want my life to be like and i can't travel explore and go on adventures when i cant even buy groceries.

Im definetly an addict. I eat things i dont even particularly care for if thats all thats available. There are certain things i can absolutely not have in my house. Cookies crackers bacon cream cheese to name a few. I am also a carb junkie which was proved by weight watchers. I would stay under my points and never lose a pound because i ate all my points on carbs. I get sleeved next Monday i pray this is the tool that finally allows my win this war.

I am usung jose rodriquez in juarez. Ive used him before for my lapband. My revision is 7200.00

My date is june 25. I sm second day of preop diet.today was hard but i hung in there. I think weekends will be the worst of all. Anyone else going to Juarez during this time. Traveling alone and looking for a buddy Patty