I've been reading this site for a while now but had never posted anything and today seems like a good day to do so.
I'm having my surgery tomorrow with Dr. Pomp at Weill Cornell. I have avoided freaking out by just taking one day at a time and not giving myself time to think about anything. I am 33 and I first considered bariatric surgery at 21, but I wasn't fat enough, and yay, lucky me, now I am!!! I never considered this the easy way out, it always seemed like the hardest most drastic and if it wasn't because I am 300 pounds and I can barely sit on the floor, cross my legs, just generally be comfortable, be healthy, then I would not be doing this. In 2007 I lost 50 lbs and got down to 210 and it seemed like I would finally make it to my goal, and yet here I am again.
Last week I was freaking out about the surgery, about the risks, about the possibility I will find a way to screw even this up. Then my mom told me she had just read about James Gandolfini dying, and I realized that the risks of surgery are far smaller than the risks of living my life as I have been for so long. So surgery it is.
Has anyone had surgery at my hospital or with Dr. Pomp? Right now what has me the most scared is the fact that my mom can't stay with me. I have OCD and hospitals are problematic for me, which is why I had also avoided the surgery for so long. Not having my mom adds an extra layer of stress that the situation didn't really need, but I guess they don't really care about that, at least no one I has talked to has. Does anyone know what the visiting hours of the surgery floor are?
Anyways thanks for listening. I will be around a lot and look forward to meeting you all.