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I am two weeks out until my surgery and am supposed to be doing the liquid protein diet. I'm a rebel at heart and hate rules, so I knew this would be difficult for me, especially since the reason they want you to do it (the liver issue) seems so dumb. Obviously if I am 220 and my liver is what it is, so be it. There are people who have surgery at 400 pounds and they still do it with their liver. That being said, I am worried that they will cancel my surgery the day of if I don't lose this ten pounds they want people to lose for the two weeks. I'm even getting crazy thoughts like weighing in for my preop with 20 rolls of quarters stuffed in my pants so I weigh more! lol. Anyway, I know I'm only hurting myself and I should follow the rules, but does anybody else think this liquid 2 week deal is dumb? I totally get following the rules after the diet, because YOU HAVE TO, but I'm annoyed with this. I am doing my best, but it's frustrating. Yes, I'm being negative. That's just because I am thinking, if I could do two weeks of liquids and lose ten pounds, I wouldn't be needing this surgery! Frustrated and feeling negative here. Help, please!

Thanks for all the input! I am going to put out my best effort and that's all I can do. I think everybody is right, it's not so much about the liver, it has more to do with just getting used to following a different life style. Everybody made really good points! Tomorrow is my preop tests, and I am sure they weigh you and then 13 days from now, the day of surgery they weigh you. I googled that 2 rolls of quarters weighs a pound, so I seriously thought I would stick a few in my bra and pants so tomorrow's weight was high and then surgery day it looks like I lost a lot!!!. But the fact that I even consider that idea makes me realize I'm sick in the head and better take a good strong look at this choice i am making and the life changes I am going to have to make. I really want this surgery and weight loss. It's like the old saying, nothing tastes as good as feeling thin feels, or something like that. I can mix that up a little and say nothing feels as good as not having to hide rolls of quarters in your pants so you an try to "beat the system" and just following the damn program! I'm back on track. Thank you for reminding me why I am doing this :-)