Robin Bliss

Since being banded in early June I've steadily gotten worse & worse about sabotaging myself, which seems completely counter-productive in light of all I went through just to get this procedure done. After really thinking about it awhile, I realized that, for me, there is a payoff to staying fat. No men! I've had 4 failed marriages & am not willing to put myself in a position where men will notice me or want to connect with me. Has this been discussed on this forum before? Is anyone else dealing with this? I was also sexually abused as a preteen by a stepfather, which further complicates my thinking. It's not that I think men will be rushing to be around me. It's my own judgment that is untrustworthy. It's just better to avoid men altogether than to risk my tendency to get involved too quickly. So, I've been hitting DQ 3-4 times a week for a Blizzard. It's like an addict going after a fix. If anyone has any insight into this type of behavior, I would appreciate your input!

Thanks, Willowcat and 123Crod, for your input. I appreciate your words of support.

That makes sense. I'm about to burn the download to a cd. Again, thanks for responding. I just needed something to give me some hope that this could turn around.

How cool - I just downloaded the cd - thank you! I'm going to start over again. If it is helping you, then I feel hope. The main thing is being able to still feel "safe", bec. I know that's what Jon Gabriel says is the reason our bodies hang onto the fat. I just wonder what that feeling of safety is replaced with? Just thinking out loud.... So, we don't live too far apart; I'm a half hr. south of FW. Thank you from one Texas gal to another!

Electrawoman, I actually own this book, although mine didn't have a cd with it. I did like I usually do with books that look like they may be helpful; read a chapter or two, then set it aside. I'm more terrified of success than afraid of failure! Failure is familiar and therefore comfortable. Counseling is so expensive, but in my heart I know that I need it for the men issues. I will see about finding that cd that goes with the book and maybe give it another go. Thank you for your encouragement! BTW, I live in Texas, too, although I have no clue where Little Elm is!