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wow, I managed to gain 4 pounds since the last weigh in... gobble gobble I guess... Tina:redface:

Put me down for a 1.5 loss... sorry I didn't post earlier, but have had a cold and a sinus infection... Thanks, Tina

Put me down for one pound down on the challenge... :cool2: Tina :thumbup: (PB Queen this week...)

The kids are great and growing... Daughter is now 4.5 and my son, 2.5. We are potty training him... he stays dry most days (I can see the light at the end of the diaper tunnel)! My boy is still a peanut, just now moving into size 18 mos... but right on target in all areas... :thumbup: We've had a busy year...sold my house, bought a new one...changed jobs and all... My mom moved here from VT a month ago, lives 3 miles down the road. Life is good... Well, I wish you well on the tummy tuck and arm lift... That's totally awesome! Tina

Hi All, It's been awhile... like 20 plus pounds (in the wrong direction)... Haven't seen Dr. K in over a year... I am glad to see I still recognize some folks...many new ones I do not know, but that's okay. I see you all have a Challenge starting Friday. Could I join and sign up for 10? (Think big, start small...or is that think small and start small?) Tina

I smoked right before I went into the surgical center. Not that I am advocating it... but the night before is fine for sure...

I smoke.. no problem with the surgery or after. I know I should quit (I will eventually) but its my last vice left... and when I have head hunger I just smoke. I smoke 7-10 butts a day... I'm focussing on my weight for now... The smoking, that's down the road... Tina

Hmmm, I'm crossing that drug off the potential candidate list then. All- The advice, caveats, sharing of experiences, and science lessons have all been incredibly helpful and make me feel better about the idea. I'm still a bit hestitant, but I do agree, my moodiness is not good for me or my family. I think we all deserve me at least attempting to give it a try... now I have to decide if I ask my PCP or see a psychiatrist (my psychotherapist is the one that suggested the drugs...so I kinda think her suggesting it probably means I am really depressed... ) Tina

I am affected the same way by stress... and will not be able to eat or will pb if I eat before I figure out that the stress has tightened me up. Makes me mad too, because usually it is following an argument before or during dinner (happens sometimes, we're human...lol). Then I get even angrier/more stressed because I "wanted" that meal! arrrggghhhh... Tina

Be careful with your heart, but be willing to take chances (knowing what the risks are and being open to that) with it too... It's a tough line to walk. I met my boyfriend/domestic partner/significant other, 7 years ago this August on yahoo personals of all places (so I know its possible!). I was reluctant to meet him, because while he had seen my pic, he too had not dated someone large (I also dated a few others previously in the same situation" and know some can hurt your feelings/self-esteem too) and I normally only dated from the self-professed BBW lover pool. With Paul, it worked out well, he fit in the first category (although I suspect a bit in the second category too, just his initial attraction was socialized outta him :eek:) and I later learned that what attracted him was my self-confidence (I'm a Leo...so full of myself naturally). Still, do be careful, because while I met my handsome prince, I met a lot of toads on the way (admittedly some of them were just plain "fun"!)... and sometimes let them too deeply into my heart too soon. Not trying to scare you or make you doubt your new guy, just telling ya to be careful from one former online dater to another. :wink2: By the way, for a nurse, I do agree faking it there is a good thing. I wouldn't want to be near death and have my nurse look like she is mourning my impending death already. :tt1: And similarly, for folks that don't matter, I do bite my tongue... but not for the ones that matter. When dating, you meet a few who can't get you to the brass ring (not all people are good lovers.. for many reasons). If they are worth it, ya work with them (well for a little bit anyhow... it is definitely part of the big picture for me.. some times ya can't teach an old dog a new trick or a new dog for that matter), if not, ya lose their phone number... Then again, sometimes ya luck out and never encounter the, umm, less talented... LOL Also depends on how many ya encounter too... :wub: Hugs, Tina (damn I am self-centered...) (oh well...)

Umm, I disagree on faking it... sexually or in life/relationships in general... if ya fake it, then the other party thinks that what they are doing is okay and there is no incentive to make things better... sexually or in other ways. You just end up cheating yourself and them. And resentment and frustration build up... initially it may feel like everything is okay, but eventually... :confused_smile: My motto is...tell them what works for you, show them (umm, men folks like that stuff), whatever... if they care...sexually, or again, in any other type of relationship, they will try to meet you halfway... or better yet, all the way! We deserve the best in every aspect of life and the other folks in our lives deserve to know what that is. Sorry, just my opinion... As for the love possibility thing... You do realize that there are many men out there who love women of all sizes, that it's the inner beauty that matters most to them .. and some, who love bigger women exclusively too. You may have a guy who falls in one or both of those categories. Repeat after me... I am as beautiful and worthy of love as I believe I am... Because the truth is, you are. If you love yourself, others will love you too. Before the band or after the band... it's you, you, you that matters.... Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, true; but it is also in the heart of the beholder too. That's just my take on it... Tina (on her soap box tonight)

AdorKable, Thanks for the advice... hmmm... don't know if I wanna pass up the brass ring though... Someone else recommended paxil? Then again, brass ring for a short-term, I suppose, I could handle that... My big issue is the worry about withdrawal, so maybe zoloft is worth considering... And yes, I am more destructive to those around me and I'd rather not be... I'm feeling angry more than sad actually... go figure.. lose weight and discover the smaller me is mega-bitch... I'll probably opt for the drugs, I just hate doing it, but then I hate being so down and witchy with a b... Thanks again, Tina