Jeffie Beck

Cinward, you are ABSOLUTELY RIGHT!!! I made a terrible err in judgement, compounded by the fact that I know better, I have better feeds right here available to me, and that I've NEVER done anything so blatantly dangerous or irresponsible, I really feel every oz of crappy. I don't mean that in a pitiful way, i mean i feel as bad as I ought for not being in control of my body. This entire surgery was meant to facility that, putting me in more control of my choices and taking power away from my head hunger. You have spoken every bit of truth, Cinward, and I am thankful for that!! I am truly blessed and happy to know there are ppl here kind enough to donate their wisdom and kindness to a fellow sleever in need. I appreciate your reply, Cinward, and will continue on a full liquid diet, as well as closely monitoring all symptoms.

I genuinely appreciate your sincere concern, Kirk!! I really really do. Please see my reply to Laura above in regards to my addiction/or eating disorder. I will speak with my NUT and the psych at my surgeon's office about what this very rare misstep means. I have a lot to learn about what I think my body is telling me and what it actually needs. This moment of weeakness and irresponsibility has truly opened my eyes to what I'm capable of when not on my p's and q's under stress. Very ugly. And will seek to address it ASAP through the appropriate channels. Again your concern is very much appreciated. Please throw a prayer in there for me as well! It's great knowing there are people in this forum that mean each other well, you guys are awesome!

Thanks so much for replying, Laura. Yes, this is increadibly distressing. I will be so very careful going forward I cannot even tell you! Its strange and out of character for me actually, I have Type 1 diabetes in excellent control, so I have plenty of self control (normally) when eating and choosing foods. Why the heck I did this, I have no idea!! This craving was so strong, and I suppose I was in "reward myself" mode after succesffuly completing a 2 week liquid diet with zero cheating. Why i would reward myself with a punishment is beyond me. I'm really so pissed at myself. I really appreciate your concern, and I'm aksing for everyone's prayers. I have learned a very very hard lesson, to quote Ms. Skinniness. I take none of this, or your replies, lightly. Thanks, again Laura.

I am goinng to treat my stomach like an infant going forward, thank you for the kind wisdom and advice, Ms. Skinniness!! i wasn't aware that the risk was that severe and I'm trying to fight anxiety. Such a stupid move on my part. I'm stronger than this. I got through a 2 week pre-surgery liquid diet NO SLEEVE without cheating once, even though I lost very little weight. I can't believe I would do something this irresponsible. I'm pissed at myself.

@lissa thank you so much for your stern advice and no, I am no troll. I am real person who made a really stupid mistake and is suffering for it. That's why your reply really means so much to me. I will absolutley be doing nothing but liquids for the next few days at least. And will watch my symptoms closely. Do you have any similar experience you can share, or any idea what I coud take/do now to alleviate symptoms? I feel awful about this and am eager to fix it and get back on track pronto!