Hey! I feel you. I usually wait until my family leaves for work and school to have my moments. I had to acknowledge that I was grieving (yet celebrating) the loss of the old me. I cried for the physical pain, I cried for having to go to such an extreme process to save and extend my life. For me, I enjoyed being a voluptuous beauty or thick chick, but my heart, lifestyle and risk factors did not feel the same (LOL). Having bariatric surgery was and is a major confirmation that I had a problem and that I could do something about it. Grieve the old you and Celebrate the new you. The beauty will be in the journey you take to get the place where you need and deserve to be.
A five minute pity party is allowable as long as it's followed up with a warm shower, a nice walk around your yard and a Protein sips. Smile.