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Wow only two more days. I'm wondering if I'm wearing my self out. I've been working midnight shift and running errands with my mom preparing for leaving my kids. Sunday ill be working 4-12. I'll get home and nap for a couple hours. Then a two hour ride to the airport. My flight is at 645 and I'll arrive at 855. And then right off to the hospital for check in and surgery. I think the fact that I'm sooo busy helps me. Only thing bugging me, is a crazy backache because I can't take my Tramadol.

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I am packing super light! I don't wear makeup. Hair will be in a ponytail. Extra undies and socks. Two books and my phone. Hand lotion, breath mints , Chapstick and a blanket. I'm only staying three days because of same day surgery. That extra day waiting seemed too much for me. I'm with Dr. Garcia at Florence as well. I can't wait to give a detailed review! That means ill be done lol

Thanks for the tip. I have three pair on the way lol

I'll be there on the 20th with Dr. Garcia.

So I know I'm just rambling but May 20th is right around the corner. It's funny how I'm not afraid of the surgery, not afraid of going to TJ, not afraid of the complications. I'm afraid of how my mom will react to me spending so much money, while I won't lend her any more. I literally pulled myself up from nothing after my divorce, and I'm always giving her money to help out of a bind. I'm afraid of how my co workers will react, because they have slammed everyone who chose to have a surgery. Just yesterday they were talking about a guy that no one recognized. Then when they actually realized who he was they confronted him! Told him he looked disgusting and he cheated and was a poor example for his kids who are also overweight. He had to have been over 350 before. He's maybe 200 now. I'm thinking, OMG to lose so much weight that you are unrecognizable? That proves it was needed. That he wasn't his true self at that weight. As for me I'm sure ill look exactly the same. But the condemnation is what I'm afraid of. The why didn't you give "me" the money. The you look disgusting, sick, frail. And as much as we like to think not, looks matter. And what people think of us matters. I grew up with horrible acne and still have the scars inside and out because of that. I've always been sensitive to that.

Thanks for the pep talk everyone. I haven't told anyone at all for those reasons. My only support is me. My mom is coming down to help with the monsters, but I told her it was a different small surgery and the copay was cheap. So that takes care of the money issue. She's now on the "what if you die" kick. As far as work... It's almost like high school. Lots of cliques and posers. I'm not gonna lie, a few people had the surgery and we ALL questioned, WHY? They didn't look that big and after the surgery one girl looked horrid. But then looking back, objectively, even before I decided to do this... They were overweight. Really overweight. It's just I didn't focus on that as I knew them as great people, not great fat people. There are two brothers I work with. One had the lap band and lost so much weight he was healthier and had do much energy and a spring in his step. And he was proud of it. The other did it with diet and exercise. Extreme diet and exercise. Just to prove it can be done without surgery. So happy for both. But he gets offended if someone thinks he had any surgery. And you are right. No body ever questions smokers, alcoholics, or other addictions. Or even cosmetic surgery. So yes I'm still sticking with it, and still not telling anyone. I'm sure to be the object of gossip for a while until they find someone else.

Ummm introductions are so awkward I've been lurking around for ages, reading every single post. All the good, wonderful, positive experiences. All of the awful, horrible, complications. All of the snarky nasty comments. And I've still decided to go through with this. I thought I was ready last year but I chickened out. Not because of the surgery itself, but how people reacted to another friend who had the surgery. I went to a seminar and was told if I gained 20lbs more they would do it. I was given phentermine but I would have to come back every two weeks for refills. The exact opposite of what I wanted or needed. So here goes: I'm from south Texas I've paid my deposit Set my date for May 20th. I'm going alone Dr. Garcia in TJ 39 years 5'9 230 currently

@stefaniwg: I am going to be same day on the 20th, then headed home by the 23rd. God willing without any complications. I need to get back to my 3 kiddos/monsters.

Thanks to everyone for the Welcome! I am almost not nervous about the surgery. I guess that will kick in on the flight. While I wanted something closer to home, I needed to go a bit further away for personal reasons. Gosh I live on the border! It would've been awesome to literally be 30 mins from my home.

I'm down here in Laredo

Ok I've got my plane tickets. Lucky I found a really good price and a nonstop flight coming home. I'm the type of person (mom) who never buys things for themselves. Now that I've actually spent MONEY... It seems more real.