AmberWaves

I guess I should change my signature huh?:thumbup:

Hi, I'm Amber, I've been signed up here for a over a year now, but I'm back...I think. I signed up the end of 07 after going to my first consultation. I went to my consultation, went to all my dietician appointments,went through all of my pre-op testing, I had a date set and I chickened out the night before my surgery. I was scheduled for Jan. 30, 2008. I have struggled the past year (like every other year of my life) with trying to lose weight on my own and I think I'm finally to the point of no return so to speak. I'm still nervous and scared but if I don't do it now I'm not going to do it and I'm going to end up regretting it more. I haven't gotten the nerve to call and make an appointment yet though, but I'm going to this week sometime. If it goes anything like it did before, I know it's going to be a breeze as far as getting approved and all that, it all went pretty fast. I just wanted to say Hi again since I"m at it again...lol. I'm not sure what I need right now, but I liked the motivation and inspiration I got here before, so I'm sure you'll be seeing a lot of me. :thumbup:

It's been a while since I got on to check on how everyone is doing. I just wanted to drop by and say Hello! The pictures I've seen so far, everyone is looking FANTASTIC! I have to admit, coming back and seeing the progress of my fellow Jan. bandsters makes me regret my decision even more. I let my nerves get the best of me, but what's done is done I suppose and I can't go back in time. So, I"m just gonna keep on truckin'..lol. Hope everyone is doing good! :tongue:

I couldn't go through with it. I feel really good about my decision because I know I made the right decision at this point in my life. I may change my mind later down the road but after all the feelings and emotions I've gone through over the past week I just couldn't do it. I had a panic attack sunday and after DH and I had a long LONG conversation well into the early morning I made the decision. I cancelled everything MOnday morning. I felt like I had a huge weight lifted off of me, so I know I made the right choice. Anyways, I just wanted to tell ya'll that and I also want to tell everyone good luck with their new life. You are all truely an inspiration to me and I look forward to coming back and checking out everyones progress! Good luck everyone!

I'm having some major anxiety today. My surgery is in 3 days and I'm FREAKING OUT. I don't know if I can go through with this, I really don't. I'm seriously scared right now and I don't know what do to. My DH is trying to be supportive, he's been very supportive, but I honestly think if I told him right now that I was cancelling, he would be ecstatic. I'm just so unsure about it right now and I just don't know what to do. I'm sick to my stomach I'm so stressed right now. I just really need to get this out to people that maybe understand what I'm going through right now. Were you this nervous beforehand? How do I get through this? Help me please! :cursing:

There was definately some shows on there I haven't thought about in years...lol. Seems like it was a million years ago. Here's some of my blast from the past songs. [ame=http://youtube.com/watch?v=7UFb0ywqlDs]YouTube - Biggie Smalls Hypnotize[/ame] Will You remember me was our Senior song in 99 [ame=http://youtube.com/watch?v=bHulZDZ2w2s]YouTube - Will you remember me?[/ame] [ame=http://youtube.com/watch?v=XZcG0NBMcDA]YouTube - Boyz II Men - End Of The Road[/ame] [ame=http://youtube.com/watch?v=QOaqgrtoMGo]YouTube - (96) Amber- This is your night/NEW 2008 Version OUT 02/12/08[/ame] [ame=http://youtube.com/watch?v=KdmLmIArqWM]YouTube - Semisonic - Closing Time[/ame]

Glad you're doing good! HOpe you have a speedy recovery!

Shreveport, LA here!

Good luck! I'm being banded on the 30th too! :smile:

I don't have strep thank god! He just said I had a virus...the easy answer to everything...lol. I just have a cold. I feel a lot better today than I did yesterday but I sound like a man now...lol. I went to bed about 6:30 last night and didn't get up until 11 today, I don't think I've slept that long since before I had kids. I called to my surgeons office today and they said that unless I get worse that I will mostlikely be fine for surgery. So, that's a relief. I'm just going to keep taking the meds they gave me and hopefully I'll be better by the weekend.

My surgery is next wednesday and I woke up this morning sick as a dog. I'm pretty sure I have strep throat, I go to the doctor in an hour. I hope this doesn't effect my surgery, I'm so worried about it. Please send me some get well vibes!!!!!!

That's so awesome Patty! Thank you for speaking out for us!

My goal is to lose 100 lbs. by my 1 year anniversary. That will put me at about 150 lbs. I'm like you apple, I want to keep my curves. I've always been "thick" even when I was at my thinnest, I've got a big butt, big boobs, and big legs so I'm sure it'll still be big, just smaller than it is now...lol. I'm wearing a 42F so I really don't see myself getting any smaller than a DD. I'd eventually like to get a breast lift and a tummy tuck, but that will be several years down the road.