TracyK

First post on this new site. I was revised from band to DS in November of '12. My pre surgery weight was 293 and now I am 189. so, 104 pounds in 14 months. I would not change a thing. I did alot of research and I also had a friend have the surgery before me so I was well informed going in. I knew I needed a surgery that was going to give me the hard lesson. I NEED to have consequences to my actions to teach me what I can and cannot eat. It's not that I don't have a brain, I know what Is and isn't good for me. I knew that with just the sleeve, my stomach could stretch and I would be right back where I was after a while. The malabsorption is something I really needed. Yes, we have loads of Vitamins to take but its better than high blood pressure pills, cholesterol meds, antidepressants, and just the overall PAIN from being so heavy. I could have lost more by now if I had stuck to a strict diet but I had this surgery knowing that in the past (on my own and with the lap band) that anyone can lose weight on their own with a strict diet. I did not want to feel like I was on a diet for the ret of my life. (somehow I don't think this is sounding right to some people but I am trying to explain). I knew it is not a miracle cure. The head hunger will always be there. Ugh, I am rambling. I will sum it up by saying I have zero regrets. Would do it a million times over.

Debbie, we will chat with you on facebook until you can join us in the other place.

I was gonna do a multipost then i realized that the things I wanted to say on them to different people were pretty much the same, so I will just post this way and keep it more short & sweet. I hope none of you take this the wrong way but OMG...was I relieved to see that I am not the only one struggling. Misery loves company, right?! My confession is that in a day, I ate a QUART of ice cream by myself. Of course when it was over i felt like crap. I have been more out of control the past couple of weeks than I have been in a long time. The positive thing is that I recognize that I am out of control. I feel like I need someone to save me from myself. Normally I eat right when dh is at work, but these past 4 days I ate everything in sight, like there was no tomorrow. No matter what i ate, i could not satisfy the sweet tooth. Today is his first off day and I am going to ask him to help me. Pretty sad that Macy had to hide her candy from me because she is scared i am gonna eat it (again). My goal is to sugar detox for the next few days. After I can get it out of my system, I will be back on track, but the detox part sucks, you all know that. The blessing this morning was that I did not gain any more than the last time (last week) I got on the scales. Thank you God. So today is day number one. I know there have been alot of new starts, but at least i am trying. Today I am not having ice cream, candy, Cookies or cake (or fudge, or dough). Thanks to all of you for understanding. It is such a comfort to know that we are here for each other. Friends that understand and can relate are the BEST! Jenn-have a great time this weekend! Have I told you lately how proud I am of you?

Just a quick check in....

Debbie, this post is to catch you up on things we have been talking about. I sure do miss you! Any luck switching over? Quote:Originally Posted by Kat817 Rick has Plantar Faceitus---or spelled something like that!!! He has stretches he does with his foot to ease it, they wrapped it, and suggested orthotics, that insurance does not cover of course to a tune of $400.00!!! He has done the exercises, changed the type of show he wears, and it improved. Hope Macy has as good of luck with her issue! That is exactly what Macy has. Unfortunately good new shoes will have to wait until after Christmas...or maybe that will have to be one of her presents. I noticed she is not limping as much, so that is good. Getting her to exercise it is quite the chore! Quote:Originally Posted by missbuckeye Hey everybody, Just been busy. Tomorrow am I have an appointment with an ortho doc for knee pain. Not looking forward to that. Just spoke to my daughter in DC and she is flying home on the 21st and and returning to DC on the 26th with my 16 yr old in tow. Problem is on the 26th they have be at Detroit airport at 5:30am. Which means we have to leave here between 3:30-4:00am, hubby is not going to be a happy camper. LOL Tracy- glad to hear your daughter will be okay with just mild treatment. I kinda miss having a house full of kids. But, at least they will all be home for Christmas. Catch you guys later, I have to book my son's return flight. SharI am so happy that you will have your kids under one roof for christmas. That in itself it a great gift! I hope your knee is OK. mine has been doing good for the past few weeks, it is my back that has been killing me lately. Quote:Originally Posted by Suziecat Hi Plain, so glad you found us, well maybe. I worked this morning and then went to Wal-mart.Came home to a sick hubby. Throwing up and had the chills. I put him back to bed and he slept for about 2 hours, got up for an hour and went back to bed. I ended up falling asleep in my chair. Now I'm mad. Hope I'm not up too late tonight.Awww, tell Darrell that we hope he feels better soon! I hope you get some rest and for goodness sake, do not catch what he has! Take care. Quote:Originally Posted by plain Ok. I'm activated and checking in. More later.Now Life is Complete. Quote:Originally Posted by jennifur Hello all Plain - so nice to see you hi all, it was a heck of a day - I did my drug test last night for new company and today for the site. I'm all ready to start work monday had a meeting after work with new company, the support is amazing and I can't wait. How are you all doing? Ok have to get ready for drill... catch ya'll laterI am so happy that you are so happy Quote:Originally Posted by TN_girl21 But my parents made it possible for me to have things that most kids dream of, so why shouldn't I try to help other kids as well? Sorry I'm unloading here. And to be honest, I hope that none of you take what I'm saying as bragging. I'm always so afraid that what I say will be taken the wrong way or out of context. I hope you all are having a great day! Stay warm!!Ahhh, we ain't haters... Just joking... I agree with Kat about the school supply/shoes thing. So many kids have to go without new shoes and clothes at the beginning of a new school year. So sad. Quote:Originally Posted by Kat817 Ashley, why not try to come up with another time and gift all together. Your Mom does the Christmas, thing, so leave it to her, but maybe you could do a summer play day in the park for a group of kids, or a school supply drive for the less fortunate. Kids have needs all year round. Amen Maybe with your connections in the shoe world----do a shoe drive for back to school, set the kids up with a pair of sneakers, so they all get to start the year with something new. Love this idea! Spread it out, where they get helped more often, and at different times. Groups here do Coats for Kids, and there is a group who raise money to buy kids summer swim passes, and they sponsor kids in sports, with scholarshops who cannot afford to play otherwise. Quote:Originally Posted by crzytchr They are saying maybe snow tonight! That would make tomorrow a snow day!!!! OOOOh, a day snuggled up in my bed Isnt that called slush around our/your area? Just sayin.... Hi everyone~ I am sitting here right now watching some kind of morning show and they are talking about the etiquette of who you should or should not give a christmas gift to. Like I wasnt depressed enough about Christmas and now I hear I am supposed to give macys teacher a present, my hairdresser a present, the mailman a present....ugh. Makes me want to become Jehovahs witness for the month of December. Who are these "holiday specialists" to tell me who should get a gift? BAH HUMBUG...lol, sorry. I will snap out of it on the 26th of December. I never remember getting the amount of gifts that kids get these days. I swear, I literally have to be careful whose house I bring Macy to this time of year because if she saw the amount of gifts that some people already have under thier tree, she would feel like less of a 'good girl' than her friends. When I was growing up the vast majority of the gifts came from santa and you did not really see that many gifts under the tree until you woke up on christmas morning. time out.... I hope you all have a fantastic day! I am doing a little furniture rearranging. DH will scalp me when he gets home and sees that I did it without his help., oh well. Oh, and white vehicles?....my favorite!

Good morning everyone~ I am so sorry I vae not been posting. I am/have been in a fog for a few days. I don't know why. Maybe my antidepressants pill (or lack of), maybe the stress of family, the holiday season, my weight, and bills. Maybe all of it? Oh well, I am gonna focus on the great things. We have our health, we have a roof over our head, the family around me (husband, kids, mom) are the best ever, we have food in the fridge and today we are gonna get some wood for the fireplace. So, it a nutshell, I am OK, just wanna gripe a little. LOL Jenn- i see good news about your job but I need to reread your posts and make sure I am reading everything right. Let me read all the post on both sites then I can do an educated and informed post.

Hi ladies! I promise not to bail out on y'all too. It may take a little time, but it is worth it. Angela-I am SO sorry Tuffi is sick. Macy is calling, gotta run..............

Shar & StrangeDz..............This is where we are.... http://band2gether.net/showthread.php?t=11311&page=8

Angela-I did not get a confirmation that I could post there, I was just able to one day (Just like Cindy). Go give it a shot. Deb-is there anything I can do to help you transisition? Just hollar! It isnt the same without you!

Struggling...this time of the year it is hard for all of us. I have started today back on my rule following regimen. I gained 6 of my 15 back. At least it isnt the whole 15 right? Ashley, I am sorry you are cramping. How long have you been off the pill? Kat & Jenn-I need to call my dr office and ask for a diff medication. I know he will want me to come in the office but I just cant afford it right now. Ho Ho Ho, ya know? Have a great day everyone! Remember to drink plenty of water, walk further than necessary and protein first!!

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somebody come smack the crap out of me! Seems like all i wanna do is complain lately. I hate when i get like this. I stopped taking my antidepressants because my heart is skipping beats, fluttering, pounding....you choose. So i thought maybe I would try to see if maybe that was causing it or just all the stress in general. I know i should not just stop taking them but I have to try something. Meanwhile...someone please drive/fly over here and slap me out of it....any takers?

I have had a horrendous day. I know I sent an e-mail to my oldest sister forgiving her but there is something I am really struggling with. I had a complete meltdown on the phone with my mom today. I knew I needed to open my heart up because i was so stressed that my heart has been skipping beats. In a nutshell, their thanksgiving went OK. Everybody faked it in front of her. I know i said I did not want anyone to choose sides but darnit, I want someone to stand up for me. If she would have said such hateful things to anyone of them I would have told her that was an ugly hearted thing to do. I would have confronted her on their behalf. I just do not understnad how after all the years and all of the various hurtful things she has done, they are still willing to overlook it. Even overlook something of this magnitude. I feel betrayed by them for not having my back. By them not saying anything to her it is like giving a green light to do/say whatever she wants. Well, I told mother all of this on the phone through hysterical tears. I have not cried that hard in years. I told her that maybe, just MAYBE, if we stand together as a whole and say "that is SO not cool to say such hurtful things to our sister/daughter", it may have some kind of impact. I believe there should be consequences for her actions. At the very least, be held accountable. My mom agrees with me. As much as she wanted to keep peace, she had to admit that I was right. I told her (mom) that i do not want an apology. I just want her to recognize that it is MY family too and they do not appreciate what she said. Anyway, sorry about the rant. A xanax later, I am alot better. Thanks for listening. Happy Anniversary Michelle! Deb...good to see your post!! Hope to see you on the other side