TracyK

You KNOW you LOVE it mom...so stop whining!:tt2::tt2:

LMAO Laura!!!

First blog ever...how cool is that?! Hmmmm, this is not meant to scare anyone off of WLS but I am going to write what I am going through and it is mainly meant for my own theraputic purposes. If someone reads it and it helps them along the way, then wonderful. If it seriously disturbs someone, at least I can not get sued for it! HA! :smile: By the way, it i my blog so if there is a typo, deal with it. So it has been coming on 6 months now that I have not had a cigarette. The scales show it too. On Sunday I was up to 212.5 (after being down to 175 in February). I decided (again) that was IT. Then i eally set my min to it again yesterday. I cried all day yesterday and then I really realized I needed to forgive myself. I feel SO fat. I feel fatter now than when I weighed 300 pounds. Weird but true. I was feeling like I had gained it all back. Then I realized that I needed to remind myself that I have FAR from gained it all back....soooooo I decided to put on my hoochie mama shorts I bought for our violet trip in May and a sports bra. I stood there and looked at myself in the mirror and then BAM...it hit me (bam not Pam, lol). I still look good. I mean, not great, but not horrible. I would have never worn that around the house before but here I am now, 30 or so pounds up from where I was and I still look OK. So, now I am thinking to myself..."omg, I can still win this thing!". VOILA...here I am with my "new attitude 101" class going on! WOOT This morning I was down o 209! There IS light at the end of the tunnel...I CAN still finish this thing, AND stay a non smoker. I can do this. My new phrase is, "failure is no accident, neither is success". I control me. I control what I stick in my mouth. When I fall down, I pick myself up (with the help of some special violet friends). I kow I have probably said all of this before but better to say it too much than to never say it at all, right? I am glad that I put on some skinny clothes and reminded myself that I am not back where I was at the very beginning. So now, I have forgiven myself. I am just going to try to convince myself (for the time being) that this is a new journey I am beginning. That this is the first time I have tried to get to onederland. This time it will make it that much more sweet for me. This time it will have new meaning to me because I know how easily it can be lost again! Can I get an AMEN?!

:crying: Hi Pamela! Ready for the eviction tonight? Lets keep our fingers crossed that dan wins hoh!!

I started my blog today....needed somewhere to talk to myself! LOL I did not wanna bore ALL of you.

First blog ever...how cool is that?! Hmmmm, this is not meant to scare anyone off of WLS but I am going to write what I am going through and it is mainly meant for my own theraputic purposes. If someone reads it and it helps them along the way, then wonderful. If it seriously disturbs someone, at least I can not get sued for it! HA! :thumbup: By the way, it i my blog so if there is a typo, deal with it. So it has been coming on 6 months now that I have not had a cigarette. The scales show it too. On Sunday I was up to 212.5 (after being down to 175 in February). I decided (again) that was IT. Then i eally set my min to it again yesterday. I cried all day yesterday and then I really realized I needed to forgive myself. I feel SO fat. I feel fatter now than when I weighed 300 pounds. Weird but true. I was feeling like I had gained it all back. Then I realized that I needed to remind myself that I have FAR from gained it all back....soooooo I decided to put on my hoochie mama shorts I bought for our violet trip in May and a sports bra. I stood there and looked at myself in the mirror and then BAM...it hit me (bam not Pam, lol). I still look good. I mean, not great, but not horrible. I would have never worn that around the house before but here I am now, 30 or so pounds up from where I was and I still look OK. So, now I am thinking to myself..."omg, I can still win this thing!". VOILA...here I am with my "new attitude 101" class going on! WOOT This morning I was down o 209! There IS light at the end of the tunnel...I CAN still finish this thing, AND stay a non smoker. I can do this. My new phrase is, "failure is no accident, neither is success". I control me. I control what I stick in my mouth. When I fall down, I pick myself up (with the help of some special violet friends). I kow I have probably said all of this before but better to say it too much than to never say it at all, right? I am glad that I put on some skinny clothes and reminded myself that I am not back where I was at the very beginning. So now, I have forgiven myself. I am just going to try to convince myself (for the time being) that this is a new journey I am beginning. That this is the first time I have tried to get to onederland. This time it will make it that much more sweet for me. This time it will have new meaning to me because I know how easily it can be lost again! Can I get an AMEN?!

OK, I am back. Laura-I lol'd at your dream! Pamela would definitely be the one with the mansion and lady with a white ball gown on! LMAO!! Kat-under 165 I see....good for you (even though you have been sick as a dog) Jenn-only 6...repeat that...ONLY 6. I wish I had only 6 to go to get back to where I was! Try 30. (did that put it in perspective for ya? :crying:) Lord...now I forgot what all I was gonna post earlier. DH has this thing about talking nonstop when he sees me on my laptop. So, I try to be considerate. If I remember what I was gonna say I will log back on! lol

Terry-what a beautiful job you did on the rosary! It is gorgeous! Kat-macy did good yesterday at school. She got a WOW sticker :thumbup: I will post more later....sorry!

ROFL..that is fantastic!! :thumbup:

Yummmmm Jenn that sounds so good....fattening, but good! Pamela-I am crossing my fingers for Dan too. Sadly I think Rennys goin home tomorrow. But Dan deserves to win cause he is playin that game, right?! Have a great night ladies...

:thumbup: HiYa Lunasa!!

OK, let me try this post again..If I lose it I will not do it a 3rd time! Jane-I sent your book back yesterday. Thanks again! TracyinKS-speak up chick! Kat-I will PM you. Do not feel left out Michelle-the skeleton cat pic cracked me up. Thanks! Jenn-what is sliders? Judy-tell the brunette flute player she needs to go blonde. She does not look like she fits in! HA! Terry-thinking of you! Laura-love the extension thingys. I need something to make my hair look fuller! Suzanne-I thought you had a heater in your pool? Did I miss something? Pamela-I am so glad you ar enjoying your class this year! I would do better with younger ones too. If I forgot anyone...sorry :thumbup:

No Terry, we did not go to Fredricksburg. My mom did but we decided to stay and see what happens. I am glad you found some solace (sp?) in your beading. I am not surprised at that. Have a good day all...

How sweet is that!

Laura-those are both very nice names. Kat-good to see you made it back! I hope you continue to be able to get down solid food. Get this...Macy had homework tonight. Homework for kindergarten class. Un-freakin-believable! 3 pages of homework no less! Last week she had a yellow card (a warning) for making noise in class. Well, yesterday I asked her if she was going to get green cards(good days) all 4 days this week and she said, "no I really don't think so mom." When I asked her why? She says, "cause I really wanted to make some noise." Kids...you gotta love the honesty, right?! lol Today she had yellow again. This time for not following instructions. I remember my kindergarten being naps & graham crackers and playing! Have a great evenig violets! Pamela & Jane....did you look to see what happened to the veto? I cheated but I am kinda sad cause I think I know now who will be leaving:sad_smile:

Looks GREAT Tracy!!

Good morning violets! Terry-so good to see your post! Take care of yourself. Jenn-love the new attitude! Send some of those vibes this way! Tracy-got cabinets? Pamela-thank you. (((hugs))) Suzie-that sounded yummy! Judy-good morning...what do we have on the agenda today? Denise-are you all moved in? How are you liking the new house? Kat-how was the rally and how are YOU? Laura-What names does your dh like? Has he thrown any out there? Have a great day everyone.

Hi everyone! Doing good over here. Really windy but no rain yet.

Pamela-LOVE LOVE LOVE your hair!! It is cute cute CUTE!

Laura-I like Lily. Macy was going to be Bailey then my mom reminded me of her grandma Macy....and as soon as I heard the name, I knew that was going to be her name. There are too many blakes and conners. If dd had been a ds his name would have been steven. My neice is due in Sept and she is naming her baby girl Kyndel. I thought that was cute. I have another neice named Madison and Mykayla. I am sure you and dh will find some common ground somewhere! Judy-we are fine. Gustav is ging through now in Grand Isle. I am so worried about my friends! They are saying we could get some flooding rain in the next day or 2. Have a great day everyone!

Terry- I am so sorry for your loss. I do not know what to say other than if you need anything, please let me know. Also, please let us know what the arrangements are for her. What funeral home, etc. Take care sweetie, we are thinking of you!

Me too. I am so worried for her.

God I hope you did not just jinx yourself!

Pamela-who are you hoping to see win bb? I WISH I could evacuate to Palm Springs....what a dream! ha