TracyK

Sure wish I would have just re-read this post instead of having the pb cookies :mad2:

Wow, been a long time since being banded in April '07. Done really well, stopped smoking, gained some back and am losing it again. Fellow long time bandsters can probably agree with this from experience....it is a life long battle with the band as well as without. It is just easier to win a battle when you have a weapon. And the band is our weapon. BUT, do not break the rules and lay the weapon down cause then you are in trouble. You have to be vigilant, day in and day out unless you want to get beaten. For example, if you would have told me this time a year ago that I would gain back 40 pounds I would have called you a liar. Sure, I quit smoking and that was the main reason for the weight gain but I mean really...the band did not keep me from gaining weight....the band HELPS to LOSE weight. So, I learned the hard way. I learned a lesson that you would think is common sense? Yep, but it happens. I forgave myself. Now I know...I have to WORK it. I have to work it today AND I have to work it tomorrow. And tomorrow I will tell myself to work it the next day...and so on and so on. I have 2 rewards in this...#1 I still do not smoke anymore and #2 I am smarter about my weapon. OH and #3 I did not have to gain ALL the weight back to realize my mistakes. I stopped the bleeding in time. The first few months with 'the weapon' was tough...losing it twice and keeping it off is tougher. BUT, it is going to happen.:eek: Once I learned that this is my life with the band and I learned to accept it, life has gotten better. I went through the 'oh, screw this' phase. You know, the inner fat girl saying "eat it, its OK". I wish I would have woke up before I gained 40 pounds but it is what it is and I am changing it. Like my violet friend Judy says "its not how you run the race, its how you finish". True, and I am running right now:tongue2:

6 over a period of probably an hour...not all at once.

TracyinKS-??????

It's been a long time since my last confession. DH made some peanut butter cookies last night and I ate about 6. Ugh...they are probably in the neighborhood of 180 calories each. I admit it, I am part stupid. Here is the great part...I ate them and now I have had my "fix" and I am over it for the week. :mad2: So it is Monday, a new week, I probably have the same 3 pounds to lose to get back to my 206 low (thanks to the cookies). I did not weigh this morning but I have sabatoged myself enough in the past to know that I should wait to get on the scales:wink2:. I really want to be back in onederland for Thanksgiving but I am not going to beat myself up if I can't do it. I know that I will get there...I will just keep on keepin' on. My big goal is to at least be back in the 17somethings when we have our 2nd annual violet get together in the summer of '09. I refuse to go weighing MORE than last time. I have plenty of time to do it, so there are no excuses. It is a beautiful day here so I am gonna go for a walk :wub:

Awwww...look at our little violet :thumbup:

I just heard about the young boys body too. It is probably him and that makes me so sad. I was hoping he might miraculously be found alive... :thumbup:

Yes, it is horrible! They still have not found her 7 year old nephew yet either. Terry-Her mom and brother were found shot to death in their Chicago home. The 7 year old (Jennifers sisters son) is missing. Let me see if I can explain it without it being confusing...Jennifers sister was married (but separated) to the guy in custody for killing them. He was not the missing 7 year olds father, but was his step dad. There is a reward for the boy. I hope they find him alive!! Then the other sad news is the anchorwoman in Arkansas died. She was found (by her mom) in her home beaten last week and there are no suspects. She died over this past weekend :thumbup:

Good morning everyone- I just stayed around here this weekend and cleaned and enjoyed the beautiful weather. DH made PB cookies last night and I ate 5 or 6 of those so now I have to bust my butt all week because I did not practice what I preach. I swear I must have a screw loose. Jane-I will be thinking of you. I need to get up and get macy ready for school. Mom is still hemming her jeans so she will just have to have cold legs for the next few mornings. Have a great day everyone and try to do better than I did last night...make good choices today. I promise I will!:thumbup:

Jane-congrats on learning the dvd and tivo! Trying to learn different electronics can be trying! Funny how I remember everyone...I count them! When I do not have the right number I look at our pic I have on our fridge then run back in here and finish it up. I just get OCD and am so scared to forget someone. Besides that...I love talking to all of you too!

Good morning violets-I am so glad dd comes home today. I sure do miss her when she is gone. I sigh with relief when she first leaves then an hour or 2 later I wish she was home. I am still bouncing around on the scales. I think I will just go another week or 2 without getting on them to see what happens. Jenn-pushed you over what "edge"? Michelle-sounds like a fantastic b-day party! Judy-I am more PO'd at myself than anything. I do not have anyone to blame but myself (and sonic):tongue:. I think we deserve another swoosh...it would do a world of good for our outlook, right?! I guess we will have to make our own swoosh. At least I have no halloween candy in my house...that is HUGE! Terry-did you go shopping? Isn't it beautiful here lately? Haydee-A weekend for just you? wow...are you relaxing? Jane-how was the babysitting last night? TracyinKS-whats up chikkie? Pamela-how was the rest of your weekend? Kat-the 60s is cold to me. lol Laura-have you gotten to the point where you wake up every hour at night to go to the bathroom? I remember someone in here was talking about body pillows. When I was pregnant I had 2. I slept on my side and had one body pillow wedged in front and on wedged in my back. Ahhh, heaven! Suzanne-How is the new girl at work doing? Have a great day everyone and make good choices...the choices you make today reflect on the scale for the next week (or longer).

Pammy-sounds like such a good time at the concert! I wish I had half her energy! Had enchiladas for lunch so it looks like no dinner for me (or maybe something small). I want ice cream but I am not gonna indulge twice in the same day. I wish I knew the calorie content of what I had. I like to be in control of the calories but it is difficult when you go out to eat. I know all of this is a head game for me too. It is mind over matter...some days matter wins :eek:

Good morning everyone- Jane-yes I stayed away from the bad food for the most part...I took Benedryl and fell asleep. Figured it was the best thing to do. I keep bouncing between 206 and 207 and it is beginning to piss me off actually. I am quite sure that the huge slice of pizza did not help but at least it wasn't 4 or 5 slices like I used to eat. (hear me trying to rationalize?) I started to call one of you last night but I kept thinking "oh it is Friday night, spare them and leave them alone". DH is off but we are gonna stay around here. I am in such a blah mood and I can not seem to shake it! Its not like me and I don't like feeling ths way. It is so beautiful here this weekend so maybe we will spend alot of the time outside :thumbup: Have a great day everyone and remember to make good choices!

That is exactly how I feel right now. I feel like I am needing a fix of something, anything tasty. I know within 30 minutes flat I could have a batch of cookies whipped up and be sitting here with 2 dozen warm cookies and a big glass of milk but I also know that it would be a very dumb thing to do that I would regret immediately after consuming them. I am down to 206 now and if I eat junk tonight I will be right back up about 2 or 3 pounds again and I WILL NOT do that to myself. I would like to meet one person, anyone that may have said that WLS is the 'easy way out'. I wish they could sit here right now with me in this living room while they watched me agonize over wanting to eat junk. Then let them rethink their position on WLS being 'the easy way out'. I know I'm rambling but I need to:tongue:. Food addiction is just as bad as any other addiction...maybe even worse. If I was a pill head I could not just go into the kitchen and make some pills. UGH...I hate this feeling. I need to et up and do something but I do not want to pass the kitchen. Maybe I will just lay down on the couch for a little while. Maybe I will call one of my violet sistas for some support. That is what I am going to do. I feel a little better already by just typing this all out.:mad2:

wow I am surely fighting off the food demons tonight. I feel like a drughead that needs a fix.

Kat----yummmm cake what kind?

Hi everyone! YEAH KAT!! :party:That is the best news I have heard in a long time! DD just left and dh is asleep cause he goes to work in a couple of hours so it is very quiet here. Terry-sorry that you are in a funk. We all feel the same. We will all continue to feel it for a very very long time unfortunately. It is what it is and we have no choice but to live with it. We are in the result of years and years of bad choices (no party mentioned) and sadly will have to face years and years more. We will just have to take the lemons and make lemonade (or limes and make margaritas). Have a great evening everyone! PS Judy....You look fantastic!!

Good morning everyone! Macy is going to moms & sisters this weeend so I have a ME weekend! Nothing special planned really, just peace & quiet. Wherever you go and whatever you do this weekend, be careful, have fun and make healthy choices! (((hugs)))

Haydee-YIKES....sorry you are going through all of that! That SUCKS! And yes, two hundred is alot...at least it is to me. If I win the lottery Saturday I will buy you a new car and pay to have the other persons car fixed, k?

Pam-Rick was cute in the day BUT age does not look good on him. Some folks age gracefully but not poor Rick.

Haydee-well, I have to confess....macy IS picky about her meats. She is a chicken nugget junkie too BUT I only let her replace the meat if I know it is too dry and she can't swallow it. So, like when I cook I will bake her some nuggets and add the veggies I cook to her plte with the nuggets. As she gets older meat is getting easier for her to chew so I have noticed we do not buy as many nuggets as I used to.

Hi...me again. Judy-hope you get your car back soon. That would tick me off too. Loved the cruise pics. I agree with Pamela, I enjoyed just seeing YOU again! Pamela-sounds like you are gonna have so much fun this weekend! Take pics and send them to us Laura-what is your gut feeling? Girl or boy? Jenn-have fun tonight :eek: Terry-now every time I see a necklace I like I thik, "hmmm, I wonder if Terry can make that". Michelle-what do you have on your full agenda for the weekend? Hopefully some time for just you! How is the no-weighing going? Kat-where were you raised, there? Don't know why I am asking, just wondering. Haydee-you know the food is good when you get a room full of people (especially men) and the room is quiet! I can just look at an eggroll and PB. :w00t: I miss those. Are you still going to see Mary Jo or did she rub you the wrong way? I am on the fence on whether or not I like her. Jane-it looked like your little green person stayed green all day yesterday. Busy day today? TracyinKS-what are you up to? Good or no good? :eek: Gina-did you disappear on us again? Denise-is grandma broke from buying the boys christmas yet? :thumbup: I would be! Suzanne-have a fun weekend planned? Have a great day everyone and I will bbl.

Good morning violets- Good news...I have my sense of smell back (mostly) but still can't taste. Hopefully soon I can taste again. Maybe its best if I can't taste but it doesn't seem to be deterring me from eating/wanting to eat so I guess it doesn't matter. Is anyone watching the biggest loser? That Vicky chick and her husband and Heba just rub me the wrong way. It is just the air that they give off...maybe it is just edited to look that way....who knows. I just cooked macys breakfast and she actually asked for a nutritious breakfast. Normally she asks for junk and it is this huge ordeal when I tell her no but this morning she asked for bacon (turkey) and eggs! Maybe it is finally sinking in that the answer will be no to the other things. What a pleasant morning I have had! I will get back on later to do personals. :eek:

Whew....what an eventful day. Have a good night everyone! (((hugs)))