TracyK

Laura

UGH...my scale must be broken. I just wanna dive face first into a LARGE MJC. DAMN, DAMN, DAMN....:cursing::cursing:

HELL YEAH! Wish it was THIS weekend!

The goodnews is they were home made but I figured the calories and they were only 95 each. Alot better than 180 BUT I am still paying on the scales for eating them, so were they worth it, nope. I'll just know not to next time.

It's been a long time since my last confession. DH made some peanut butter cookies last night and I ate about 6. Ugh...they are probably in the neighborhood of 180 calories each. I admit it, I am part stupid. Here is the great part...I ate them and now I have had my "fix" and I am over it for the week. :confused: So it is Monday, a new week, I probably have the same 3 pounds to lose to get back to my 206 low (thanks to the cookies). I did not weigh this morning but I have sabatoged myself enough in the past to know that I should wait to get on the scales:wink2:. I really want to be back in onederland for Thanksgiving but I am not going to beat myself up if I can't do it. I know that I will get there...I will just keep on keepin' on. My big goal is to at least be back in the 17somethings when we have our 2nd annual violet get together in the summer of '09. I refuse to go weighing MORE than last time. I have plenty of time to do it, so there are no excuses. It is a beautiful day here so I am gonna go for a walk :tt2:

That is exactly how I feel right now. I feel like I am needing a fix of something, anything tasty. I know within 30 minutes flat I could have a batch of cookies whipped up and be sitting here with 2 dozen warm cookies and a big glass of milk but I also know that it would be a very dumb thing to do that I would regret immediately after consuming them. I am down to 206 now and if I eat junk tonight I will be right back up about 2 or 3 pounds again and I WILL NOT do that to myself. I would like to meet one person, anyone that may have said that WLS is the 'easy way out'. I wish they could sit here right now with me in this living room while they watched me agonize over wanting to eat junk. Then let them rethink their position on WLS being 'the easy way out'. I know I'm rambling but I need to:tongue:. Food addiction is just as bad as any other addiction...maybe even worse. If I was a pill head I could not just go into the kitchen and make some pills. UGH...I hate this feeling. I need to et up and do something but I do not want to pass the kitchen. Maybe I will just lay down on the couch for a little while. Maybe I will call one of my violet sistas for some support. That is what I am going to do. I feel a little better already by just typing this all out.:confused:

The best thing I can say is to read my bandster rules...forever blog. The band is a TOOL to help LOSE weight...not something to keep you from gaining. You still have to make good choices, it is just easier to make better choices when you have the band because it helps to keep you honest.

Being banded makes you feel full after smaller portions. BUT, you still have to make the right choices.

I made it...I actually made it. I went snackless last night. I guess the 'typing instead of eating' worked! Down another pound this morning. So what if it is fluid. A pound of fluid weighs the same as a pound of fat, it is still a pound any way you slice it, right?:cursing: I know after I get on a roll again with the weight loss and recatch the "nothing can stop me" attitude I will get back down to my almost-goal weight. Hard to believe I was only 4 pounds away from goal then I blew it. Well, not really because that is when I quit smoking. It has been 6 months now since a cigarette...go ME! But...gaining this much is not OK with me. I will be happy if I get back to 17something. I feel great at that weight and look pretty damn good too. Or at least I think I do and that is what matters to me. To be back at 17something and a non smoker I will consider myself a true winner. So that means I have to lose 34 pounds to get to 179 then I will take it from there. First mini-goal is to be in onederland again. That is 13.5 away. I was just thinking...when I saw the scale crawling up...when it got to 19something I thought omg...and I just threw caution to the wind and said screw it. When I saw 20something I thought...I sure wish I would have stopped this when I was 19something. Now today I am thinking, there is now way I am going to be at 22something thinking I wish I would have stopped this at 21something. I am putting an end to this foolishness now. I keep hearing Dr. Phil in my head saying "you are drinking Mocha Java Chillers from sonic and you think that is OK, are you kidding me?" Looking back at when I was first banded I wish I would have done something differently. I wish I had taken this process slower. I lost almost to goal within about 10 months. I went all or nothing full speed ahead and never cut myself any slack. Then when I DID cut myself some slack I went (excuse the term) hog wild. Well, this time I am going to do it differently. I am going to take things slower. I am not in a race to get the 30 something pounds off. I am just going to make sure the scales go down and not up. I will get there eventually.:frown:

Hmmm, I thought it was just for RNY too but I looked in the FAQ and it said RNY and band. Seems like it might be worth a try.

Tracy....a few days ago you said "guess what I am gonna be for halloween?". OK, enough waiting already....WHAT?

Laura-have been able to speak with your friend yet? I hope she is OK.

Judy-I'm with Terry...don't you dare put yourself through the wringer (sp?) on this one! She will be fine. Keep us posted

You ladies are so smart....GREAT IDEAS!!!!

Haydee-macy is really excited about halloween. I just really do not want her to have so much candy. But, what do I do? I mean part of me is sayin' "its Halloween, let her be a kid" and the other part of me is like OMG....that is too much candy!

Ummm, just remember the saying, "you are what you eat". So, be careful sista! (((hugs)))

Just in case you were wondering.... I did not freeze my butt completely off at the bus stop. I knew you all were worried! lol

This is my 3rd and final attempt at a post. I have lost the other 2 and am growing short on time as well as patience.:biggrin: Macys conference with the teacher went really well. She is progressing as she should and the only thing we really need to work on right now is making sure she slows down and does her work neatly. Jane-sorry that court was horrible! I thought of you today! Haydee-I love spending time with my mom too. Sounds like you 2 had fun yesterday. Kat-sorry you lost an earring, that sux. I know Terry will fix you up! Pamela-I was nice at the conference. I thought about your post and smiled:biggrin: Sorry I am not doing personals to everyone but I don't know if I am gonna be able to get this to post anyway. Good night everyone, sweet dreams!

Well, let me try this post again... I am going to a parent/teacher conference. Wish me luck!

Laura-how horrible for your friend! You know as much as you want to be with her right now, even if you were there she may not want to see anyone. She probably needs to be alone right now. I know I would probably want to be left alone. I am so sorry!

Good morning everyone! This morning is cold and tomorrow is going to be really cold!! It is going to be 38 in the morning here! Bad part is dh is working so we are going to walk to the bus stop and freeze our booties off! Oh well, may as well get used to it. I know if my dad can walk in 3 ft of snow, withno shoes, uphill both ways and fight off the bears at the same time, then just walking to the bus stop won't be too bad. LOL My dad really did tell us those kinds of stories. God, I sure do miss him! Have a fantastic day today ladies and please make good choices! I am :biggrin:

Starting tomorrow I am getting back to the strict basic rules of the band. No rice, no pasta, no bread....ever. It was only back then that I was REALLY losing weight. (and no more carbonated drinks, diet or otherwise). Back to the real thing...no more fun stuff. I am not quite sure what snapped in my head that made me think it was OK. Complacency maybe? Well, I see now where complacency has gotten me. It would be different if I just broke the rules every once in a while but I do not know how to do that. So, in order to do it the right way, I have to get back down to the basic rules. There is no other way than following the rules to a T. Maybe one day I will know how to just barely break a rule...but for now, this is how it has to be. Anyone wanna join me?:thumbup:

Hope everyone has a great evening. Got things to do before the world series comes on....GO PHILLIES!