TracyK

:thumbup: Happy b-day denise!!!

Good morning ladies...thanks for the comments on my blog entry. (((hugs))) I love you all so much! I promise me and I promise ya'll I will not have any cookies or ice cream today :tt1: Jane-Sorry about your nephew. I will keep you all in my prayers. Jennifer-at least you only FEEL like you gained it all back...right? Way to go on the 14s!!! Pamela-have an enchilada for me :tt1: Have a great day violets...respect the pouch. By the way....TracyinKS will be back sooner or later. In my heart I know she will....who could stay away? :thumbup:

Funny how we can get addicted to stuff that hurts us, huh? I guess a food addict is better than a meth addict? I dunno. Laura-I agree with what you said its like another form of cutting. Thanks for saying that because it opened my eyes up even more. I know all of you ladies are right. I really do not know what I would do without you all.

OK so here I am, 3 or so months past the hoidays when I practically ruined myself...and I am still in a holding pattern of somewhere between 216 and 222. WTF? Then, last night I was watching TV and I had an AHA moment, a revelation...(key up the choir here)...lol A commercial came on and it was for Chilis food chain....there were pics of burgers and all kinds of yummy fattening foods and everything, I mean EVERYTHING they showed on the commercials, I can not eat because of my band and I know I would PB. So I got to thinking about it...I am gaining weight (maintaining this higher weight) on the same 2 bad food choices that slide down the pipes....cookies and ice cream. NOT a variety of loads of wonderful fattening food, but the SAME 2 FOODS. Not even exciting to me anymore to tell the truth. So the only conclusion I come to is I must be retarded...I am standing in my way of my own success by cheating with the same things over & over again?!! It wasn't even FUN gaining some of this weight back. Oh at first it tasted good and I was like YUM YUM :thumbup:....now, I am just like purposely hurting myself and I just don't get it. Are you kidding me? So, now, what to do? Seems like now that I know I am doing stupid things I can just stop, right? :wink_smile: Seems to me the first step is getting rid of those 2 evils. That is what I am going to do. Wish me luck because right now I am at the crucial point. Things will either go extremely right or extremely wrong from here. I am an emotional wreck. So, if you are reading this, pray for me...I need it. I need my mind to heal and I need to forgive myself for regaining some weight and start over. I will let you know what happens. I know I can not do it alone but sometimes I feel like I have burdened enough people with my dieting (or lack of it). Jesus help me. PS to the newbies...no disrespect, but please spare me your views on the subject...no I do not need a fill. For you all I can say is remember the band is a tool, not a cure. Best of luck!!

Hi there everyone! I am going through some kind of fix myself/destroy myself tug-o-war in my brain. Last night I had a revelation...I won't go into it here, I will just blog about it when I get a few extra minutes. I hope TracyinKS is OK. ((((hugs)))) to all violets :biggrin:

Heather, if it makes you feel any better, I can gain 10 pounds that quick and I am not even pregnant

I took a 2 hour nap....it was great. Cramps are gone for now thank God.

:confused: I have been up since about 3AM...I am getting tired even with 3 cups of coffee in my body. I think the cramping and tiredness is wearing me down so I am gonna go curl up in the fetal position and try to go to sleep. DH is @ work and dd is @ school. I have quiet time, I may as well take advantage of it. Maybe I will pop a muscle relaxer & crash...

Good morning ladies- Hope you all have a great day. Aunt Flow is here and I am hurting so bad...and I am an emotional wreck. Other than that, all is well. :confused: lol

:confused: Terry-Here I am. I am always here. I just do not have anything productive or exciting to say. My sister has been here the past 4 days. Her life is in turmoil and she came here to regroup...heal mentally, get her appetite back. I can get even the skinniest person alive to gain weight....she came to the right place! lol Maybe I can run a program for anorexics & bulemics and help them gain weight AND get paid for it. A win win situation! Have a great night everyone! (((hugs)))

Hi everyone...hope you are all having a great day!

Good morning everyone- Judy-I feel bad that Kris had to have a c-section. Pretty soon the disappointment will fade, but you know that. Grady is so cute! Big baby boy! Reminds me so much of when I had Macy :thumbup: I wish I could do it gain *sigh* Did you stick with the pouch test? Laura-ah yes, the pregnancy waddle. You know those benches inside grocery stores & dept stores? That was my hang out while dh did the shopping. I could not make it through a whole shopping trip....forget it! My back & especially my HIP could not take it. I feel your pain sister. This will be a just a memory soon. It is so worth it! I am gonna scan some of my preggo pics and post them. Hang in there little mama! Kat-Macy is hanging in there. She is struggling since she was behind her class AND a young 5 year old to boot. I may have to hold her back....we'll see. I would rather hold her back ASAP, ya know? Pamela-tell Susanne happy b-day for me too (better late than never). Do any of you watch the Bachelor? Ugh, I was so disgusted what Jason did to Melissa I could throw up....anyway TracyinKS-I hope you had a fantastic trip. I have let my weight crawl up some but not all the way back up to 223....it was 221 this morning but that is WITH some water retention. I always screw it up. I have some kind of mental problem I guess....well I KNOW I have issues. I heard (read) the donut conversation the other day. There is NO way I can eat a donut and believe me it isn't for a lack of trying, that is for sure! I SUCK. My sister is probably going home today. I feel bad for her. Just when I think I have problems, all I have to do is think about her and it lines me out! Hi all my violet sistas! Have a great day ladies Respect the pouch!

I have never been to the Houston Rodeo....or any of the concerts! Unbelievable, huh?

I am here.... just trying to stay sane. I will bbl!

Good morning~ Had a great nights sleep (drug induced ) I really needed it. My sis is staying here a couple of days...family drama on her end and her nerves can not stand it any longer so her dh sent her here to get her away from it. have a great day...

Just glancing @ this post I thought it said 'meth lab' :confused::confused:

Janie-I get those and I use oragel for the pain...it is temporary but pain free temporarily is better than never pain free...

Good morning ladies! Congrats Judy....he is beautiful!! Have a great day everyone. Oh btw...they could not find anything wrong with the van. It didn't make the noise while it was there....go figure. Oh well, at least I know somethings up and I can prepare ahead of time for it! Respect the pouch!

Laura-I 2nd what Judy said about not passing up the epidural! The dr didn't get me in the right spot the first time and about 3 hours later (luckily it wasn't too late) the nurse was like "ummm, I don't think your epidural is working". I guess the moans & groans gave it away. The dr had to come back & do it over again...whew.. what a difference!

Oh Judy I wish I were there with ya'll!! How EXCITING! Jennifer-hope everything goes well with your company. Maybe you could ask your bss to send you in a recommendation? That would be HUGE, right? Let us know what happens! Kat-I had read somewhere about the crank shaft making noise like that while idling?....that just *sounds* expensive! OK, when we bring it in somewhere we will ask them about the heat shield first. I will let you know what it ends up being. Laura-CUTE pics. The cake looks SO tasty! Is there anything that you really need that you didn't get? My mind is scrambled .... I need .... heck, I don't even know what I need Love ya'll....have a great day. Respect the pouch!

By mad I mean PUT OUT, frustrated, burden anyone if any extra costs would be placed on others heads! I would not want that to happen.

In all honesty...if I could back out without making anyone mad... I would. :thumbup:

Good morning ladies... It has been 2 full days since a PB so that is great news. I think I will do another day (maybe 2) of liquids & mushies just to be on the safe side. DH is off work until Friday so I am REALLY gonna have to watch what I eat. Kinda hard to do when we are used to eating what we want....old habits are hard to break. Have a great Monday everyone & remember to respect the pouch....RESPECT IT!

:party: Suzyt....where ya been?