TracyK

I hate that you have to do all that work! What a roal pain. Hope you get through it quickly & painlessly :wink2:. What did you think of Jordan winning BB? I know her family needed the money so that made me feel good. OK, you got it !! Sounds good because I already hear miniature reeses and snickers calling my name! lol Oh my word do I know what you mean on this one! I can handle my family because we just let the little ones draw names but my dh family...everyone buys for everyone and we just an not do it. We are talking about 15 adults & 10 kids!! :yikes: I thought holidays were supposed to be a time of joy! lol Thanks Cari! I hope you feel better soon. Colds suck and seem to drag on & on. I really need to get my rear end back in the gym. I havent gone in a couple of weeks. Been to busy stressing & eating. But now I am getting back on track! :frown: OMG, my weakness...cake and ice cream! :tt1: Tell me about it! My dr fixed me up...he broke out the Rx pad and now I can try to get back to normal lol. He gave me Celexa and I am gonna go back in 30 days to let him see how I am doing. The stress & tension was making my neck & shoulders, even my elbows hurt! I have faith that now I am gonna be on the mend now! Have a great evening everyone! :biggrin:

Good morning everyone- Monday :biggrin: This morning the scales were -3.5. Now I only have 5 to go to get back to what my ticker says. At least it is going in the right direction now (again, lol) Wow, so much to say and I do not know where to begin, so I guess I will just think on it a while :smile2: Have a good day (((hugs)))

Just about 18 hours away from happy pills...I can not WAIT! Just watched my recorded biggest loser premier. That sow inspires me more than words can say. AND I did great with my food choices for the 2nd day in a row. Go ME! Have a great night ladies! :biggrin:

Jen-sorry you are not feeling good. How did your dr appt go Tuesday? I have been so wrapped up with me that I forgot!

Oh...i did not have the little checkmark on e-mail notifications. Now I will get them. Funny how that works, lol

Hi Cari yum, a donut! Look at it this way, at least it wasn't a half dozen that you ate. Right? Thanks for letting me know that Dr. Phil switched networks where you are. I need to check it out because I refuse to think I wont be able to watch him anymore :biggrin: Kat-ouch! I hope your leg is OK today. So, being a city girl I am not sure how much wood that is but I'll take your word that it is alot! lol Jenn-where the devil are you? I miss you sista! Hopefuly you are somewhere having so much fun that we are the last people on your mind...well, second to last! Suzanne-what is on your agenda today? I hope R&R after yesterday! Hope you are not sore this morning! Love the pics! I am so proud of you! Jane-you talk too much! lol Just joking, it is great to hear from you. What do you have planned today? Josie-how are things with you? Did you say you are in New York? Was wondering when you are coming back to Texas? It is hard to believe fall is almost here. The summer here has not been as bad this year as it normally is. Makes me wonder what the winter will be like. Well, I have a dr. appt tomorrow to see if maybe he can put me in some happy pills. I am so worried about getting something that will assist in weight gain :biggrin:. I have heard that some make you gain and there are some that you lose with (due to bathroom issues). I would rather deal with the bathroom issues and lose and be a happy camper. :blushing: So, what is a parent to do when the teenager in the house is deleting the browsing history on the computer after every use? My stepdaughter seems to have something to hide (again). I guess I am gonna have to maybe get some spyware. Lord, probably expensive but...if that is what it takes, so be it. I am truly about to pull my hair out. A frogs hair from sending her back to her momma...sad ain't it? But my mental health is starting to wear down along with my physical health. I have gained 20 pounds since she moved in with us in June. Ugh, so sorry to burden you all with this. Have a great day everyone!

:blushing: HI JANE....I see you down there!!!

WAY TO GO SUZANNE!! Today I did really well with my eating. I had minimal amounts of sugar which is WAY good for me! I only have sugar fee ice cream in the freezer...that in itself is huge! Have a fantastic night ladies. :blushing:

Jenn-why does your body hurt? or is that secret

OK, breakfast is done. I slept like a rock last night! I wish I was still sleeping... Oh, I am not a happy camper. Check this out...Dr. Phil has been replaced by Dr. Oz. Ummm, I dont think so. I do not wanna watch Dr Oz, I want Dr. Phil!!! I have to do something about it but I do not know where to begin. I guess getting in touch with our local affiliate?! That SUCKS! I would do completely without TV as long as I could have mr dr phil fix! Have a fantastic day everyone!

Suzanne....an icing bandit? LOL If it were here I know for sure who the culprit would be...FRANK. He loves icing and would have eaten the whole thing! LOL Gotta make some Breakfast...bbl

Losing it again is hard...I have already lost it once, was 4 lbs from goal...(my goal anyway). Oh well, I did it once, I will do it again. Just alot harder this time, head wise. I wish they sold that newbie determination in a bottle ... now THAT would be a long line! lol

Some days I think I really wish I would have had gastric bypass. Then I think about some of the people I know that had it done and they are still struggling as well. But, at least they get to GOAL before they have issues (or at least it seems like they do). I would be paranoid about the long term damage RNY would be. Unless they come out with something to fix the addiction/brain part of it, I am just gonna have to fight it my whole life the hard way. Band or no band, I can gain or lose. True, it is easier with the band but that too can be sabatoged. Found that out the hard way. So much BS going through my brain. BUT, I am about to go to the grocery store and I will buy sugar free ice cream this time instead of the real stuff. I will buy some sunflower seeds instead of cookies and chips. I can do this...I have to fix me before it gets to where I feel like it is not fixable anymore.

Suzie-I could never flip a mattress by myself. Well, i could but wouldn't...lol What time is your walk tomorrow? Kat-so tell us how you really feel about dil? LOL That has to be frustrating though! Chinese reminds me...I wanna go eat chinese before I get my fill again! Jenn-i lol'd when you told your story about running across the street. Sounds like what one of the guys I used to work with would have said! Relaxing evening tonight. Gonna chill at home, maybe get some stuff off my chest as far as dsd goes. It is eating away at me. DH is sad because his son told him he HAD to buy his stepdad a birthday card that says Dad. He is heart broken. Just lots of sadness going around. I need to have a reality check. Monday I go to my dr to get some antidepressants or something. Have a great night ladies.

Me again. A few days ago at 230.5 now at 227.5. I need to post on my blog more because it really is theraputic for me. I had stopped for a while because it is bad enough knowing I am failing at this band thing much less letting everyone else know I am failing but I decided I am going to my best not to fail anymore. I had done very well since the last blog and lost 15 pounds then regained all 15 plus 5 so here I am again. Since the beginning of summer I have been beyond stressed. And you veteran bandsters know what stress does to your band...tightens it. Well, needless to say absolutely everything I would try to eat would ot go down so in turn, feeling even more depressed would turn to the one thing that I could eat AND it would make me happy (or so I thought)...ice cream. Ice cream is my drug of choice.For the past couple of months that is what I have survived on, ice cream and oatmeal. Then the other day (after countless episodes like this) myself and my family went out to eat dinner and once again after the first few bites I was stuck. I started to cry sitting right there in the booth. I had been contemplating an unfill and at this moment I realized I had to take control of my life. I picked up my cell phone and called my dr and asked when I could come in for an unfill and lucky me...I went right then. Just being in that office again after a little over a year made me feel better, saner, safer. Gave me a new resolve. The nurse held me as I cried and told me that this happens to more people than you can imagine and together we will 'fix it'. I had gained 46 pounds since I was there in March of '08. BUT I am still not smoking and that is huge considering that here lately I have thought about it alot. But I am not going to start again just to lose weight. With my luck I would end up just being a fat smoker again. The first salad I got to eat after my unfill had to be the best tasting thing I had ever eaten in my life! No Joke! Now I am able to actually eat small portions of food and keep it down and not have to depend on junk. Yesterday I went to subway and got a 6" turkey sandwich and I swear that was the best sandwich ever! :thumbup: I am going to probably get a fill again the first part of November, you know, right before the holidays :blushing:. If my stress level is still high, I will just get a small fill. If you are reading this, please pray for me that I continue to make good choices. I believe in the power of prayer. I am going to continue to blog. It really is helpful to me. Admitting things and putting them in black and white makes it more real. So, once again, here I go. :biggrin:

Some days I think I really wish I would have had gastric bypass. Then I think about some of the people I know that had it done and they are still struggling as well. But, at least they get to GOAL before they have issues (or at least it seems like they do). I would be paranoid about the long term damage RNY would be. Unless they come out with something to fix the addiction/brain part of it, I am just gonna have to fight it my whole life the hard way. Band or no band, I can gain or lose. True, it is easier with the band but that too can be sabatoged. Found that out the hard way. So much BS going through my brain. BUT, I am about to go to the grocery store and I will buy sugar free ice cream this time instead of the real stuff. I will buy some sunflower seeds instead of cookies and chips. I can do this...I have to fix me before it gets to where I feel like it is not fixable anymore.

know what? I was gonna change my ticker to show the +8 but...i cant handle that depressioon so I will just leave it at 225 and take it from there when I lose the 8. How is that for denial at its best? lol

Good morning ladies! Today is my day to get off my butt! I have reached 233.5 again and it is time to regain control of this. On my mark, get set, GO :smile: So what does everyone have on their agenda today? We have to go to the grocery store. Not fun but it has to be done...our cupboards are bare. Funny how blue bell just magically repleneshes itself in the freezer...:biggrin: I am out right now so I will get some SF blue bell at the store today. I will post later what I have eaten today to keep myself honest. Right now I am having coffee with equal and creamer. I plan to have oatmeal for breakfast... Have a fantastic day everyone! :biggrin:

OMG, I almost shot coffee out my nose. You are so funny! Guys are so easy to please, right? LOL :biggrin:

Kat- WOW...OK so my little lack of a credit card for new cable is not such a big deal after all. Thanks for putting it all in perspective for me! LOL :thumbup: I hate that you are going through that...it has to suck! I just do not understand it though. People who have insurance seem to pay through the nose for it and when it doesn't cover something I just don't get it. Like my band...not covered. Aetna said not no but hello no to any kind of weight loss surgery. When in the long run it would save them my bills for heart attack, stroke, diabetes, high blood pressure....morons

It was a conscious decision to use cash for what we want and now it is almost like we are getting punished for wanting to be out of debt...it sucks. I know one thing...I am not going to get a credit card just to make AT&T happy. LOL

Josie...I wish I was there too! We won't forget you! I noticed that we have the same band dr! I love dr spivak and his staff! That pic was taken as soon as we got done 4 wheelin' and I was grinning for hours after. It makes me smile thinking about it. I screamed & laughed until I thought i was gonna die! Good times! Wish I was there right now. I don't think we need a 'leader'. We all draw strength/hope/determination from each other. We all have our bad days and good days so I think we should just leave it at that. We can tell who is having a hard time (me me me) and who is rockin'the band! lol We help each other out just being here for each other! Today I have Macy home (ear infection) but she isnt running fever so that is a good thing. Maybe she can go back to school tomorrow. She sure isn't acting sick! lol DH and I decided a while back to close our credit card accts and cut back on things....well, I called yesterday to get the U-Verse (cable, phone, internet) from AT&T instead of using Comcast...and since we do not have any other major credit card other than our bank mastercard we got turned down! I couldnt believe it. They weren't even gonna charge anything to the card, just have it on file for in case we do not return their equipment. What the heck would we do with the equipment? lol Oh well, I guess that is how comcast gets away with screwing people. I am rambling now (I miss Jane...that is what she says ) Have a great day everyone! (((hugs)))

Poor Kinsey!!! Give her lots of hugs Grandma!! Ya'll are so smart. I learned all that band stuff too. Now it is time to put it back to use....right? lol I went muddin' yesterday when I ran away....here is a pic! (there was a time I would have nevah posted a pic like this! lol) I HAD A BLAST!!!!!!!!

Wow, I suck as a hostess, right? lol I make a homeless thread and bail out! :w00t: Wow, where do I begin? First...hi to all of you!! I am so happy to see we have newbies AND veteran bandsters! We can help each other so much! The new girls can give the old ones (me me me) some revitalization! :thumbup: Kat- it was SO good to see you post here! Glad you had a good trip! Suzie-I am in awe of you, I really mean that. You have lost an entire adult male....:smile: You are a hero to me! :thumbup: Jen-I am so proud of you and happy for you that I can hardly see straight! :tt1: Hi to Josie, Shaylee, Babs, Cari and Courtney! (If I missed someone it is not intentional) I have been through so much junk the past few months...and have eaten lots of junk. :cool: I vow to get back on track first thing int he morning! I also vow to post daily again. You are all so inspiring! I 'ran away' to visit my best friends. I left the husband and kids and took off. Well, today while I was on my way home, the school called and my 6 year old daughter had a fever so her dad had to go get her. Long story short, she has an ear infection. (thank God not anything worse). So she is gonna be out of school tomorrow too since she has a low grade temp. Please...stay on my butt....make me accountable ladies...ok? Have a fantastic evening!

Hi ladies...this is just a drive by posting. I willbe home tomorrow afternoon. Hopefully things will be geeting better for me soon. Thank you all so much for being such good friends to me. When I get home maybe I will post a long vent post. lol (((hugs))) Have a great day and make better choices than I am...lol