TracyK

I never realized how filling 28 almonds can be until now....YUM :thumbup:

Kat-was it Rockin' K where we left from in New Braunfels? I want to go again some day...that was a BLAST!

Good morning everyone! Just a quickie....got lots of errands to run today. Scale is still stuck but at least it is not going up. I would like to think it is just deciding to go down and has not figured out how much yet...lol. Thats ok, it can take its time :thumbup: (as long as its not TOO long) I got a text back from Jenn saying she misses us too and she is SO tired! I will post later today. Have a GREAT one!

Hi everyone! I read everybodys post...i really did....but...*sigh* Sometimes I hate this medication i take. I can't remember SQUAT! lol I walk around aimlessly sometimes trying to remember what I got up for. Cindy-i think i have my head straight now. I will come here for the daily reminder that I am here for a purpose other than friends :thumbs_down: Kat-I can not remember wth i was going to say to you. lol I still love ya though! Michelle-ummm...:thumbup: :thumbup: OK, LOL....if I can not remember what I was going to say to all of you I am just gonna leave....so THERE :Dancing_wub: nite...

OH..... :cool: by the way...hi everybody

Suzanne-YAYAYAYAYAYAY....SUCH good news on your health! It made my day to read that this morning. I am so proud of your -18. That is absolutely wonderful and you have bragging rights :cool: Yesterday i just skimmed posts but this morning I took time to READ! Kat-what a rollercoaster of emotions he goes through. But not just him, his whole family! You and dh are right...let them go and see just how well they can make it somewhere else. I will say prayers that it all goes smoothly. Michelle-glad to hear that your mom made it through surgery OK. Now for a speedy recovery :eek: I am going to text Jenn and tell her to drag her tired behind in here....she can run but she cant hide! I'll bet she is meeting herself coming back from being tired though! So far I have lost 5 pounds since I have started minding the rules. I did not weigh this morning since I weighed yesterday. I did not wanna risk seeing anything else but a loss. I will weigh tomorrow. I have not decided if I want to put up another ticker or what. Maybe just a running total next to my 'just glad to be here' quote. I have gone through so many tears lately. Tears about my weight, tears about dsd and dh, tears about my friends. I had gone a month or 2 ago and bought me some new t-shirts (4X from the mens section, now THAT was hard for me to admit while typing, but admission is good for the soul). I went in my closet yesterday because I KNEW that the shirts I would wear before I bought the BIG shirts would be tight and I was in denial and I knew I HAD to see what I had done to myself in the past year. Oh MY GOODNESS....they were skin tight. I cried, of course. But I needed to do that. I needed to shock the crap out of myself. It was depressing but I quickly turned that depression into determination. I think one of the things I need to keep sight of is that there are so many people that WANT to have this surgery and just have not been as fortunate as I am. I am remembering daily that I am blessed with my band and I am a fool for neglecting it and myself for the past year. So now, every morning and everynight I pray to be reminded of the gifts I have. I am blessed. I have been watching Ruby and The Biggest Loser and they say that there is a REASON for becoming so heavy and you have to find out what it is and deal with it to be successful. I never really thought i just loved to eat and that was that. Then I had an aHa moment. It hit me. I am figuring it out and I will spare you all the details but now I need to forgive and move on from it. Now if I can just DO it. I will talk to my mom because I know she will be able to shed some light on it for me. OK, I have rambled long enough. Have a great day everyone! Trey....I am Tracy. Any friend of Kats is a friend in here. Come back sometimes! (i just assume Kat knows you since she was speaking of your schedule, lol)

Any news on your mom michelle? I am here everyone...had a good nights sleep even though that seems like it was DAYS ago. lol Cindy, I like the 2nd pic most. She looks like it was a genuine smile. I love all 3 but 2 is my fav. michelle-your new dog is CUTE! and i like the new name better too (if i can remember what it was...i know i like it better though) Kat-any more news about the move for ds? Suzanne & Jenn- ((((hugs)))) I know i am forgetting to say something, but what else is new?

ugh.....just....UGH. No, I have not cheated (thank God) but same old dsd & dh crap. UGH.... I will post in the morning. Have a good night!

Aww, thank you. Ya know, that is the great thing about friends here. They understand the ups and downs and are always here no matter what. I really appreciate it. Thanks Suzanne-you were one of the ones that were there from practically the beginning. Thanks for your support sista! Hi everyone-I am going to start filling out applications online today. I have already done a few but I am going to focus on it today. I wonder if online is as acceptable as turning them in personally?! Does anyone know? Wish me luck and have a great day everyone!

Reflecting... This time 3 years ago I was lying in bed, recovering from my day surgery I had done. I remember being uncomfortable a little but the thing I remember feeling the most is that I was unstoppable. See, I had been reborn that day, 3 years ago today. I had just had my lap-band® surgery done. There was so much joy, excitement, fear, but most of all i felt HOPE. Fast forward 3 years..... Here I sit the same weight I was 3 years ago. But the funny thing is, I still feel a little spark of that hope. Maybe it is just the antidepressant kicking in, lol, but its there and I have to hold onto it. I can not let someone blow my little spark out....so I am guarding it with all that I have. It would be easy to sit here and kick myself (more) and get lost in the 'poor me', or 'how did i let myself regain all of this'. I think I have done that long enough. Today I have been reflecting on all of this. 3 years ago today I started a wonderful journey. I loved myself so much while I was doing what a good bandster should do. I had/have friends that cheered me on. I was a rule follower. I remember saying that there would be no way I would be one of those people that would eat slider foods or 'eat around the band'. I guess that is part of the newly banded thoughts. I wish I could go back to that one day...i remember it like it was yesterday. I tried bread for the first time about a year after my surgery and it went down. I wish I would have never tried it. But I can not take it back. I just have to learn from it. I taught myself how to cheat. That is when the fat girl took over me again. Anyway, when I was newly banded, I had brainwashed myself into the bandster mode. The HOPE carried me through even when the scale did not go down for a day or 2, I knew it would go down....i KNEW it would. And what do you know....by Thanksgiving I was in onederland.....what a moment that was. Can I do it again? Can I get to onederland by the end of 2010? Sure I can. Why? Because I still have that spark.... Now all I need is a can of gasoline to throw on it....lol :confused:

Thx for sharing the pics! What great looking kids & grandkids you have! cute cute cute!

yoohoo JENNIFER WHERE ARE YOU?????????? Get you rear end in here!!! :confused:

Good morning everyone~ I cheated last night and had ice cream but it was the only time I cheated this week so I am OK with it. I had anopther night of not being able to breathe through my nose :thumbup: No sore throat but still have the cough. DD has been at my sisters this weekend and dh is back on days so I have been in complete silence. Good change of pace :confused: Still no word from dsd. I feel awful that neither one of her parents are making her accountable for her actions. I told dh yesterday that I did not want to talk about dsd with him anymore. I told him that I thought it was sad that neither one of them are actually putting their foot down and that we would not agree on the subject so the best thing to do is not talk about it. Especially since none of the advice is being heeded. That is prob one reason why she moved....she knows I am the only one that would not play her game. Oh well, I feel sorry for her. I am gonna go check out FB. Have a great day ladies!!!

Suzanne-i am glad you had fun last night. George Stair is the BEST :confused:

Daisy sounds like a lucky pooch!

Me, Kat & Michelle are accounted for.... ROLL CALL....where is everyone? Out maybe doing something fun? Now theres a concept! lol

Kat-when are they moving?

:biggrin: well that just plain sucks! I am SO sorry Kat! (((((hugs)))))) I do not even know what to say.

just lost a long post.... so I will just recap: did not go to sleep til about 1 AM throat feels better but I still have junk in my chest still have not heard from dsd oh well... bitter over the whole thing. I feel forced to go back to work & I am not physically & mentally ready. blah.... (but I have not cheated with my eating) have a great day everyone!

Thanks to all of you ladies for helping me keep my head in the game...if you only knew how much you all are helping me.... Plus....I think one of you made me sick. My throat is on FIRE!!! :smile2:

Thanks Cindy! That is exactly what I am doing...controlling myself because me (and my 6 year old) is all I can take care of. I am letting the stress go. :wink2: Good morning everyone-I was -3 this morning. :sad: Good feeling, especially since I am stressed AND it is Aunt flow time. Well, the whole day yesterday came and went and we have not heard one word from dsd or her mother. The more time that passes, the less I worry about it. I have me & my dd to worry about. They (including dh) are going to do what they wanna do anyway no matter what I say or how I feel about it so...whatevah...i can honestly say I have handed it over to God and he can handle it. HE handles things the best anyway. JENN...you told me you were going to post!! Have a great day everyone! :thumbup:

Awww thanks Kat, I know. At this point I do not see an upside to step parenting at all, lol. We still do not know why she left, what her excuse is, nothing. They have not made a move to call us and dh has not made a move to call them. Why why why does my dh not have at least ONE confrontational bone in his body? So...here I sit, no answers, no clue if/when she is coming back. THEN to top everything off, if she doesn't come back, we will be paying all that child support again, living in a house that will be WAY too big for just me, dh and macy. The good news is that I am completing day 3 of eating healthy and being a good bandster. :thumbup:

This made me happier than you can possibly imagine. Thank you, I needed that. :wub:

by the way....now on day 3 of getting back to ME

dsd called her mom last night and decided to bail out on us and go to her moms....still do not know why. At this point, I do not really care...(i do but it sounded good) No reason given, things have been good here, she wants to go live with her friend...yada yada yada. Guess we must not be kissing her teenage butt enough. We are not made of money and we have rules...i guess that is totally unacceptable for her. I will keep you updated.... wow, there is so much i would like to say on the subject but I am a bundle of emotions right now. I guess the thing that infuriates me the most is I am supposed to be a 'silent partner' since I am only the step....those of you that know me know I am not built to keep my mouth shut, so this is really hard for me.