TracyK

Kat-I had to LOL at your post. I had a visual of the whole story! :scared2: I have had days like that. You know, now that you mention it, he DID say 'you know this is going to lead to you keeping them again all the time'. So, bingo, you win the prize!!

For some reason...i am having trouble taking the first step. The first step back to a healthy me, the first step back into the workforce, the first step in going to support meetings. I need to just DO IT. I am scared and I am not sure why. Failure again maybe? I will figure it out. In the meantime i think the first step is to make some calls today to find out when the next meeting is. Thanks for being here for me. I appreciate you all more than you know. Glad to hear that you are home and recovering. Take care of yourself and check in when you are up to it! Yeah, as soon as i can get my fat ass back into an airplane seat again comfortably. lol (((hugs))) love ya! :wub: Suzanne-i am so proud that you are doing IT! Can you bottle up some of that got get 'em and send it to me? lol I wish it were that easy! Well, today and the next 2 days after i am keeping the kids again for the lady i used to sit for. I am really excited to see them! I'll bet the young one is crawling everywhere :scared2:. I hope he doesn't hurt himself on this tile floor! DH was NOT happy about me keeping them. He says it is for my health but I am beginning to wonder if it is because he doesnt want me to have any sort of life or just wants me to have him all to myself? I knew he would be mad but i said yes anyway. I had to show him that I CAN & WILL do what i want. He is working anyway, that is why it puzzles me somewhat. Anyway....at least with the kids here i wont have time to eat all day! :wink: Have a great day everyone!

Kat-your poor FIL. I can't imagine what he is going through. That has to be so miserable. Well, at least Manda (and you) know what the whole story is. Sux that its broke but like you said, at least she knows she has a justifyable reason for it to still be hurting! Suzanne-my dr has monthly meetings too. i'll bet that would give me a good shove in the right direction. i just dont wanna go and seem like such a failure. Dont want to scare the new people but you know what...maybe my story may give them a healthy dose of reality. We'll see. I will call my dr office tomorrow and see when the next meeting is. I wonder how michelle is.... Have a great night ladies!

Michelle-thinking of you! Jenn-glad things went well Friday :eek: I miss you too! I gotta bring Macy to school so I will post again later!

Kat & Suzanne-he (dh) still has Aetna. Their philosophy is not no but HELL no! I dont' know...it is a head game and I am just trying to keep my head above water. Ugh, ya know what, I can't even talk about this right now. Thanks for caring, i really really appreciate it....love ya'll!!

Cindy-I agree...he really needs to surround himself with people he trusts and hire a good accountant & lawyer. OH...and see a good dentist, lol. Irene-gee thanks for saving me some chocolate. I outta slap ya! :tt2: Michelle-how is the cleansing going? :w00t: My heart is with ya. Suzanne-I love breakfast for supper! :wub: Kat-does Rick work a regular schedule or is it all like just whenever he is needed, like on call....or is it both. Frank is salary (i kinda miss that OT) and his schedule is 4 on 4 off 12 hr shifts. We went to see How to Train Your Dragon today. Frank and I liked it but Macy could take it or leave it. Funny how that works, huh? I wish I would win the lottery. I told dh today that if we had the money I would go for a revision from lapband to bypass. Somethings gotta give. With bypass, you are not allowed to eat sugar. I need it to be a rule like that. I wish they made a Chantix pill that would make me not want sweets anymore like it made me not want cigarettes. I am so disappointed in myself. I ordered an MP3 player yesterday. I am probably the last one in the US to get one. i am so excited. I will be able to walk with music now :biggrin:. Now if I can just get up....lol Have a great night everyone. :Yawn:

I was one of the girls that never went to prom, homecoming, or a dance, or even a DATE for that matter. Cindy-I hope the weather doesn't ruin your dd great time! That would suck! I will keep my fingers crossed.

Can you all believe that guy that had 29 dollars in the bank and won 253 MILLION dollars? SWEET!!

Awww, ya'll are gonna make me cry :biggrin: That is what I love about the people here....we are friends and can depend on each other. ((((love ya'll))))

I kinda wish I had this problem.....

See...if I could choke down Chinese I would be in trouble but I do not know what it is about chinese...i get stuck within the first 3 bites....every time! I got stuck at GC too but like a true fat girl, i loaded up a plate full of desserts and ate that instead. GRRRRRRR :thumbup: Tomorrow is a new day. Healthy Tracy will be in charge again.

OK, so now i know why i can not go to Golden Corral anymore....there is a REASON it has been 3 years since i have been there. I suck.

Suzanne-i need to find a fridge that MOOs when i go near it. LOL Somethings gotta give!

I hope the rapture did not come and I am still here....sure is quiet here and in FB... :smile:

Hi Irene.....(this is the part where you imagine me running up to you and giving you a BIG HUG!!!!!!!!!!!! ) Good to see you! Thank God for facebook right? lol My story is too long to tell so i will spare you, lol. I just cut my nails and I feel like I can type 200 wpm now. I will be back later everyone!!

Kat-dogs are alot easier to deal with than family :smile:

good morning friends jenn-sounds like a nice turnout for Friday! that is awesome :smile: michelle-i have no idea about the clear thing. the one time i did do it, same as what kat says, anything you can see through. poor thing! kat-i enjoyed our chat yesterday. we need to do it again soon. suzanne-hard to believe it has been a year since your friend passed. seems like yesterday. (((hugs))) Cindy-do you have a countdown going to the end of school? :drool: This is not a spoiler...OK, so i cried like a baby on the biggest loser last night...i admit it. I love O'Neil. I love his spirit. well, i am about to get dd to school so i need to dash off of here for now. ttyl....have a great day!

hmmm, about 2-5 is my worst eating times too. I wonder why that is....

Poor Manda! OUCH! I hope she is feeling at least a little better this morning. Those are some powerful drugs too! Holy smokes! I wonder if my stress is keeping the scales from moving more...i just need to remember not to let it get me down MORE than i am. Then the cycle would never end! I always do very well in the mornings and by mid evening i am an animal, lol. I am going to get a dry erase board today for the fridge. Keep me AWARE :ohmy:

Michelle-that is exactly what I have been taking....great minds! Kat-I love ribeyes! Tose and ice cream...i could live on it! lol Suzanne-I saw that episode of Ruby. That would drive me bonkers. It also kind of bothered me about the 'enabler' thing. I agree with Ruby, I would get what I want no matter what. You can not really blame those around us. True, sometimes they dont HELP, but it is ultimately my decision to eat something or not, ya know?! I am about to get off here and go take some medicine. Have a great night friends <3

Good morning! I just weighed. I have been back on the bandwagon (lol, i made a funny) for 2 weeks. Good news is I am still -5. I had lost that 5 the first week but its all good! Considering I did not gain any of my 5 back on dh days off is a huge accomplishment. Ya know, I know he is supportive of me know matter how I look BUT, I kinda am starting to think he likes me better this way. Oh well, gives me more determination to change, lol. :thumbup: Jenn-good to see you! Hang in there sista! Suzanne-have fun fridge shoppin'. We just got a new one. Nothing extravegant, but it is big enough, and that is what matters to me! Kat-I read on FB about you and Rick going on a ride. That sounds heavenly! Michelle-so your surgery is in a week, right? Are you anxious? I would be! Cindy-so the horrible week at school is over for you? No just sitting there! Did you get rid of the goldfish? lol I will be glad when my ears POP and clear up! I hate saying huh and what all the time! lol Would you all say a quick prayer for me today? I will spare you all the details, just going through some emotional stuff right now and I believe in the power of prayer :sad: Have a great day everyone...(((hugs)))

Good morning friends! About to get up, get dressed and go to wal-mart to get a few things. I like going on Sunday mornings because there is hardly anyone there Michelle-you make me tired just reading your posts! I will post again later. Have a great Sunday everyone!

Good morning! Suzanne...want a margarita? lol I think I am finding out that even if we go out to eat mexican food that it doesnt matter that I am cutting portion size....I will not lose weight eating that food. SO, plan B, no eating mexican food. I knew that already, I guess I needed a confirmation. Maybe, just MAYBE I have not lost anymore weight because I have bathroom issues (tmi, i know). I feel so bloated! I will fix that problem! I have been putting out applications. I do not remember how much of our probs I have posted on here due to dsd moving back home but it has kind of strapped us money wise. We are waiting to see if we are approved for a debt consolidation loan and that would make my life alot easier! Maybe even enable me to stay home with Macy. I am not against working but I HATE that i feel like it is being forced on me. I resent it. Anyway... Have a great day everyone!

Good morning everyone! Kat-how sweet that Rick acknowleges you. That is a rare thing for a man. You are right, he is a keeper! I have seen the different flavors you are talking about. I like the taste of the nuts though. Why try to improve on greatness? lol Cindy-oh i feel so sorry for ds! Poor thing. I sure hope he feels better soon. I hope it does not spread to anyone else in your house. Goldfish are good, right? I had to start getting the little packages for macy. For some reason I wont open those. Suzanne-mow for 5 hours? I would be in the hospital! I did not know cashew shells are poison! Come to think of it...i have never seen a shell either. Michelle-isnt it strange to type out what you are feeling and find that others can 'feel ya'. That is why this site is so important to me...i know you all can relate. I have been going through so much that my therapy is typing it. Thank you for giving me some validation :thumbup: Jenn-i sure miss you. (if you even get to read this) SuzyT-how are things with you? How is Gia? Trey-sorry to hear that you have been going through so much stress in your personal life. My friends after 20 years are getting divorced too. Must be in the water. What part of TX are you in? I am right by Houston. This is my morning ramble about myself, skip if you feel the urge...lol Everyone-I did not weigh this morning either. I am just following my insticts on that one! I am having a tougher time mentally this time losing because I am trying to get back where I just was and I have some kind of problem with it. I know when I lost weight before it came off on an average of 2 pounds per week but my GOD it seems like it takes so long. I am more impatient this time. I realize what is happening...it is all a mind thing with me so I am trying to talk to myself and calm myself when I feel the impatience coming. It isn't easy. Yesterday was a mentally hard day for me. All i thought about was food..food...food. Head hunger in the worst way. I hate days like that. Have a great day everyone. (((hugs)))

NO!!! And I do not want to find anything else I like to eat! lol I am fine with my 28 almonds :thumbup: