TracyK

Ummmm, ok. Sometimes when I am sleeping my arms get int he way...dont know why someone would want a tail to worry about too. lol Anyway, how is everyone this morning? I called my doc and told him about the dizziness so...he said get back on a lower dose of my antidepressant and guess what... my dizziness went away. So now I am breaking them in half for a while and then hopefully before too long i will be back to just the plain old me. bye Cindy...we will miss you! Prayers for your dsd! Have a great day everyone! PS...I went ALONE (I needed that) to see Eclipse yesterday. I loved it!

hang on....gotta go google furries. LMAO

Michelle-your neighbo should have said somehting to YOU. That sucks! sorry! TERRI.....wooohooooo, I am so happy for you!

Stick around...I have the same problem as you! I am SO excited for you!! Pop in as soon as you can! KAT?? You said you would come back!1 :eek: Oh poop....I gotta go. Quickly...I went to the dr today. This is my 3rd day off my antidepressants and I feel really good. Got a shot for my allergies so now I hope I wont be dizzy anymore. BYE.....

Good morning all.... We ended up seeing The Last Airbender....LOVED IT! My sinuses have me woozy, so I am gonna keep this short. Love ya'll!

Kat-you have a motorcycle to ride on and I have a pool to swim in. Lets call it even, k? Pool snob, hrmph. :thumbup: btw....do u get beads for flashing like at mardi gras? :smilwinkgrin: Michelle-so glad things are working out with you boss. I could not have handled the finger slicing thing. One time where I worked a man was in a car leaving and instead of getting out and opening the fence, he tried to push it open while rolling (dumb idea) and his wedding ring got caught on the fence and ripped his finger off :wink2: I threatened all the guys to keep him OUT OF my office or else! lol He sued US....and won. Can you believe? Suzanne-I have never been to a pampered chef party. Glad you had a little pool time. Have a good time today! Angela-crossing my fingers for you today! Everyone-i do not see pool time in my future today. DH is working and macy and i have to do the walmart scene today. I wish Target was as cheap as walmart...because I love target alot more. Anyway...i need to get me a new pair of swim shorts because i am too fat for the ones i have been wearing. I might take macy to see Despicable Me. I dunno. I wanna see the new twilight Eclipse movie...and Karate Kid but, oh well. Have a gret day everyone. :cool:

Kat-I will cover the hole but who'll cover mine? LOL Angela-good luck meeting your family. Tell me when we can meet up again. I can Tuesday...can you? You can come see our new place?! I miss ya girlie! Cindy-omg are you serious? :lol2: That is funny! I think my dh loves it more than dd too. I have to get him his own tokens. LOL Overgrown kids! Terri-I am SO excited for you. Like Suzanne said, follow the rules and you will do great. And as time goes on we will be here for ANY questions you have. I am super excited! :woot: I feel like I am having surgery again. Makes me wanna schedule a fill for that day :cool: Suzanne-did you swim today? I DID :wink2: I hurt so bad right now though. I wish all ice cream would get banned. I swear...i really wish it was banned. I miss Janie....:thumbup: Jenn-I will be thinkin of you tomorrow. What time is he leaving? How far away will be be? I love you and and if you need me I am right here....ok? Chin up....God sent him to you to make you whole again. He did, smile, ok? Call me. Have a great night everyone. :Yawn:

Kat-LMAO about the cats & mousetraps. I caught a visual of how the events unfolded. Too funny....and I am a cat lover! Yes, to spare your knuckles, you need a pool. Suzanne-I do not think one ittle bitty day would make a huge difference....i would swim too if i were you! Good morning everyone! We did swim yesterday and so now macy and I have allergy issues. Sore throat, stuffy/runny nose, watery eyes. Oh well.... :sad:...it was fun. Macy did go to her friends house last night and by that time, they were both pretty sick of each other...there was a huge ruckus/misunderstanding, so macy came home at 10 PM. She said her throat hurt and wanted to come home but it was probably a little of everything. She was over it, ya know? lol Those 2 girls fight like sisters. My plan WAS to go see Eclipse this morning, but now I cant soooo...i am not sure what the day holds. I booked Macys b-day party at Chuck E Cheese. That outta be fun. :wink2: :wub: The party is scheduled for Aug 7th. Wanna come? Have a great day ladies! Angela....what you doing?

Suzanne-prayers for Randy and your whole family! Kat-great news for MIL. Some peoples children...that is so typical of alot of grown kids. Selfish selfish selfish...and SAD. I wish you were next door so we could go swimming :thumbup: How was the shower experience? LOL Angela-anytime, and I do mean anytime you wanna come swimming, load up and come over! I mean that! Michelle-lol, i hear you lound and clear that I 'sound' better. The good news is that I feel better too. I was in a tremendous funk. I really am just going to do this day by day. It is all I can do. God is Good. I just needed to hear it from my friends...YA'LL. :puke: Terri-how did it go? How are you? Cindy-:thumbup: thank you. Jenn-call me this weekend. We do not need to set up a time, just do it. :thumbup: Everyone-got a busy day ahead today too. I let macys friend spend the night last night and the girls are painting right now. In a little while her mom (my friend) will be here and we are gonna go swimming. Then we will prob go somewhere for lunch...or the other way around depending on when she gets here. DD is going to spend tonight at her house so me and dh will have some alone time. Have a fantastic day ladies!

Thanks ya'll. I feel alot better today. Yesterday dd and I went swimming and I did lap after lap in that pool....i guess releasing some pent up frustration! It worked. AND, the money issue got solved, by the grace of God. My last light bill at the house we moved from was 628.20. With the help of our credit union and the Lord above it is all worked out. AND, I had gained all of the 7.5 back from what I lost in June but now I am losing it again. So, today is and will continue to be a great day. Thank you for reminding how much ya'll care and the uplifting words. Hugs to all of you. I appreciate it! :eek: Love ya'll !!

I have sat here for the longest time, staring at this screen, not knowing what to even say anymore....staring out the window, tears streaming down my face, all the while knowing exactly what is wrong and HOW to fix it but feeling so tired to fix it again. Money is an issue. it will take a couple of months to recoup from the move. The real issue is.... I never in a million years thought I would look at myself in the mirror in a mens 3X shirt and realize it looks tight on me. Never did I think I would be ashamed to go somewhere again....grocery shopping, outside, anywhere in public. Even before when I weighed this much I did not feel THIS bad because I did not really know any different but now....since I know what I accomplished and to have ruined myself again, i seems like such a failure...twice the failure I have ever been. But I know I need to pick myself and dust myself off and just get over it and try try try. I hear the little cheerleader in my head saying 'you can do it' she just sounds so muffled and distant. I did not want to be the poster child of Lap-Band® as being a lesson on what NOT to do. I am so glad I am typing this because I really know I have been needing to cry like this and get it all out. There IS an upside...there is no junk food in the house today. In order to blow it today I would have to get up and go in public to buy the junk and I am not going to. I am just going to take this day hour by hour and do my best. I want to get a job but I have too bad of a complex to go somewhere and apply. SO, until I get a little self respect back I will just stay in this apartment and do what I know to do. I will drink plenty of water, I will work out with my exercise ball, I will swim and play with Macy. Its funny how I will sacrifice what the public thinks to go swimming with my daughter. AND i know it is good exercise...and I will strive to not eat junk. I will start listening to my band again. It has been talking to me, I just have not been listening. I wish Bob or Jillian would bust down my door and kick my ass. I have been hurting in my back hips and knee so bad and I know it is because of the weight gain and the sugar intake. Thanks for listening to me. Thanks for being here for me. Without you all, I would not have anyone to talk to that understands. :grouphug: OH...and the other question I ask myself is...do my new antidepressants have anything to do with the hopeless feeling? I never know what feeling are real anymore. That sucks big time. I wish I was just me again.

I am so sorry I am being neglectful to my friends here. I will be back in the morning. I am in a funk. I have the blues. I am hurting. I feel kind of selfish knowing there are so many other people that have worse problems than me, then I go on a guilt trip for that too. :grouphug:

Good morning ladies~ My heart already feels like it is racing this morning. I will post again later...I am gonna go back and lay down for a little longer.

Oh...that is the Lindsay Boxer series. Those are OK but the Alex Cross books are WAY better. They started out with titles like, Along Came a Spider and Step on a Crack. Get on James Pattersons website and they are in order of what how they were written. I like to read them in order. Mostly because of the characters, his marriages and kids and partners and villains...I like to go consecutive, as to where some people do not care about that. Even if you dont go in order, you will be able to follow it but I tried it that way and found myself wondering how he got to a certain point. There are 2 new ones but I am not paying for hardback. Now, he has several that aren't Alex Cross. Like, Sunday at Tiffanys or The Honeymoon....i love those too. Oh, do not get me started with James Patterson...I can (did) go on & on! I love the 2 and 3 page chapters he writes. Makes for an easy read! Sorry about the FAN crazed rambling! :confused:

Good morning everyone~ I hope Suzanne is having fun. She truly deserves it after everything she has been through! Kat-the nurses sound like they need to be reprimanded. I know I can go in the hospital for a hurt toe and they want me to breathe in that thingy you are talking about. I have a filing cabinet too. Mine is right there in bedroom (for lack of somewhere else to stick it). I am a bill filer. Guess it is the office worker in me. :confused: Cindy-I am sorry about your dad. I know how you feel. My dad was like that too with us. He made it seem like he was inconveniencing us when in reality he did not want us to know the severity of what was wrong to spare our feelings. Well, we got together as a family and gave him a good butt chewing and he realized that it was wrong to do that. When does he go back to the dr? Michelle-doesnt it feel good to hear that someone appreciates your work? Sometimes that is better than a raise. Just to have someone validate you is important. Congrats! How is dd adjusting to you working...or does she even realize you are? lol Angela-so much for checking in with us huh? LOL How was vacation? Well, it looks like now that the floods are over we are in for a heat streak. I dont know what i prefer. So, when we gonna get together again? Text me when you can. Jennifer? You ok sista? Terri-when is your LB surgery date? I'll bet you are so excited! Well, guess what....dss is coming over to spend the night. :scared2: Shocking, right? well, he told dh "for some strange reason I miss ya'll". Hmmmm, maybe it is because his b-day is coming up in about 2 weeks? I (we) hate thinking that way but ya know...what else are we supposed to think? Haven't seen or heard anything since like the end of March and now all the sudden he misses us? Too much of a coincidence for me. Oh well, Macy is happy to see him so that is what means the most to me. I just hate that she gets the raw end of the deal. She worships her brother and sister and does not understand why they are not coming to see 'her'. We tell her it is not her fault and that they do miss her...I dont know what else I am supposed to do. Anywhooo.... Have a great Sunday everyone :cursing:

I am the BIGGEST ALEX CROSS FAN EVER!!! James Patterson is my man! I love anything he writes!

Good morning! Kat-so glad the surgery went well! I would have bailed with that many people at the hospital too. Last thing you need to do is piss off the hospital staff! I agree with Suzanne-take care of you & Rick until she gets home, then ya'll can have time with her. Suzanne-I know you must be able to WAIT until it is pool time! I got in ours once over the past few days while the rain took a break, then it started raining again while we were in there...so we swam in the rain (since there was no lightning) Michelle-i assume the drama queen is your manager?! Is he the one that hired you? Hang in there, it IS prob opening week fears! Angela-getting much done with all this rain? Hope you are having a great time. Check in with us soon. Cindy-enjoying the summer yet? Any vacation plans? Jennifer-good texting ya yesterday! ANY contact is better than none sista! Terri-how is the preop going? Macy is officially hooked on the movie Avatar. We need to buy it for her. We have been renting it for her and we have to turn it in today and she is so SAD! I have not weighed since last week. I am too scared to honestly. so I will eat right and follow the rules for at least 3 days, then get on them and see what the damage is. Isn't it amazing how fast we can gain weight? I know I can gain 5-10 pounds quicker than you can say jack-be-nimble. That is why I will wait a few days before I weigh...PLUS aunt flow is here so I know I am retaining fluid. DD has been going to vacation bible school from 6-9 PM. She really loves it. When I go to pick her up they are all in the sanctuary singing & dancing. Looks like fun to me too! Tonight is the last night for that. I need to go try out the new exercise room here but I have been hurting too bad. Maybe by the time Monday gets here I will feel more up to it. Have a great day everyone!

Hi everyone! Hope you all have a great day! I am about SICK of all the rain, but I guess it is better than 100 degree humid heat?! I like the other couch too but our apt wasnt big enough.....oh well! :thumbup:

Hi everyone!! Whew...all but for about 3 million pictures to decide what I am going to do with....I am all done :thumbup: I thought i was scheduled to be hooked up for cable/internet yesterday and i called and she said "no, not until tomorrow from 8-11" Ugh, one more day without internet or TV...but as you see, I made it (barely). Today I went to put on my bathing suit from last year...it did not fit. No big surprise there but in a way I am GLAD it didn't because then my brain would have said...see???, it is OK to eat all that crap! Still makes me sad though :eek:. Anyway... It feels like HOME. I have not felt like I was HOME in a very long time. :wub: I must have lost my mind....I invited one of dd friends to come spend the night with us after they go to vacation bible school. I will just make sure to keep the sugar level intake really low and things should be fine. :thumbup: Here is the couch we ended up getting after a few different swaps....looks like it was made for my apt. Glad to be back....I missed ya'll!!

Hey ladies...signing off until Tuesday. That is when our internet gets turned back on! I will miss you all! (((hugs))) if anything happens, someone call me ok? :thumbup:

moving in the rain SUCKS......:tt1:

So, here I sit...7:45 AM, on the computer, the day before our move. My hips and lower back are killing me. DD and I ended up staying in the new place for about 6 hours...with nowhere to sit other than the floor. Not good news for someone with back and hip problems. I have so many things to do and i know dh would tell me to just sit here but I want to contribute, ya know? I feel like I could get clothes from the closets and bring them and just do odds & ends like that. A lady told me to not sell my table to anyone else but her but I have not heard from her and we really could use the money right now. I will call her and find out because I need it to get gone! Have a fantastic day everyone! :tt1:

I did not text angela...I had to leave to be there to get my couch delivered so I left here in a hurry and left my cell phone. UGH, I hate when I do that. I will check with her tomorrow. Cindy-I love to read as well. What kinds of books are you into? Michelle-drama already....figures. Poor thing. Suzanne-I need to get a fill too but just cant right now. Maybe in a month or so after we start saving some money from this move! Kat-I love to watch little kids chow down on crab legs or crawfish. Too cute! Some kids can peel 'em better than me! Jenn-i want to see a recent pic of you! OK ladies, I am BEAT. :tt1: I will talk tomorrow!

I wanna see the WEENIEMOBILE!!!!!!!! Angela? ahhhh, i just remembered that her ds was having his surgery today...i hope all went well. I will give her a text and see how things went. Gotta go, they are delivering my couch soon. Have a great evening!

to make a long story short....i found a heck of a deal on the insurance AND for renters, cars and everything it is 150.00 per month cheaper than than the insurance we have.