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Terri-I wish there was something I could say! Hang tough sista! just know we are all thinking about you and sending you big violet hugs and we love you. Call if you need anything, please! Good morning everyone. I hope you all have a great day. (up another pound, ahhh screw it!) Kat-you poor thing! I hope you can get some help with that tooth sooner!!

If it takes boobies to save my life then I am one dead woman!!

Boy THAT is easier said than done these days!!

No I did not eat the whole cake. It was one of those little like individual size mini cakes. We all 3 shaared it so that is not bad. But with that and the candy and the vacation we had I am back up to 177 and I am very depressed. I know I shouldn't be and I know what to do to fix it but that still doesn't keep me from crying about it (literally). Today is a new day and I will try once again to be the model bandster! I know I can. I am just so scared about my body being where it wants to be and me not being able to do anything about it that I am self sabatoging myself. I am just depressed. I need to get ready for work. Take care everyone.

WOOHOOOO...will your insurance cover a 2 for 1?:cursing: What kind of insurance do you have?

I have great news for all of you. None of you have to worry about eating supper tonight cause I did it FOR YOU!!! LOL :cursing: I did so well all day then I get home...let the b-day eating begin...(warning, food porn ahead) DH had made me a ribeye and had me a b-day cake AND a little bag of dark chocolate peanut M&Ms :w00t: Here is the problem...bye bye good girl, hello higher number on the scale. Ugh, oh well, its my b-day right, RIGHT?! Was it worth it? Ummmm, ask me in a day or 2.:cursing: (the chocolate icing was awesome:tt2:) BAD BAD TRACY!!!!!:tongue: (are my mixed emotions apparent?)

love your hair too Tracy!!!

Good morning violets-another year older! AND I have to go back to work today. Oh well, I am a year older whether I am at work or anywhere else LOL Haydee-hope you are back to 100% very soon! Take care! Thanks for the comments and you are all SO smart. I knew I loved you all for a good reason! Have a super day everyone!

Wow, i watched this video blog and I hear what she is saying. I rarely post anywhere but this thread anymore. And to tell you the truth ladies, I have really noticed that as I have gotten closer to goal I am very careful (even here) of what I type because I do not want to come off sounding 'holier than thou'. I know you are all my friends and we all care about each other but it is that exact friendship that I do not want to hurt by saying anything that may hurt one of you. I am changing gears to the cheerleader mode. (or at least I have tried to). I try not to mention wanting to lose more weight because I know some of you are struggling so much and I do not want it to come off as sounding ungrateful for what I have accomplished. Being close to goal is great but I still have work to do. I always will have to work at it, just as all of you will too. I want all of us to succeed. We will succeed. We have a very special thread here. I believe it is a lifetime of friends we will have forever. I just never wanna feel like Chickie does. I could feel her pain in that video. She wants to be here and feels like she doesn't have a voice anymore cause she is at goal. Just because you are close to goal or at goal doesn't mean you do not need a support system anymore. Ugh...I am babbling now. Sorry...

Laura-love your avatar!! Kat-yes maintaining has been easier than I thought, but I am not ready to maintain yet! It is better than gaining for sure. I just wanna get these last pounds off to prove to ME that I can do it. So, in a nutshell, I am not done yet! My brain isn't done, hopefully my body doesn't think it IS done:confused: Judy & Laura-I forgot to tell you how great you both look in your pics! What a difference! I love your coat Laura! Great job ladies!

Thank you everyone....and Judy, I tried those pants on in a size smaller and they would not fit in the waist. The shirt, well, I am just so used to buying bigger clothes to cover up the fat that I have not gotten out of that habit. I probably never will! As far as the topic o' the day that Laura brought up. This whole weight loss joourney thing we are going through is fun, challenging, healthy, flattering and SCAREY. That is why I have been saying I am so scared. The fat girl in me is PISSED off. That is where the little quote "I have a screaming thin person in me but I can usually shut the bit*h up with chocolate cake". I know I can shut mine up that way. Well, maybe chocolate ice cream, cake doesn't go down as easy! But in the past my "fat girl" in me has always won because I have always gained it back. This time I won't let myself, I can't. My life depends on it. THAT is what keeps me going. Do I have bad days, hell yes. Why? Because sometimes I want to feel "normal". Eating what I want, when I want has always been my "normal". I just need to find a new definition of normal and I don't know how I am going to do that. I know why I eat. I know what to do to fix it too. So far I haven't really had a problem doing just that. Now? HAH! I do not know anymore. Who am I if I am not "Tracy, the girl who needs to lose weight"? Over the weekend I saw some friends of ours that came to eat with us at the casino. My best friend that I have not seen since about July asked me a question that I have never been asked before. She said, "Tracy, you re done losing weight now, aren't you?" Uhhh, scared the crap out of me. I just told her that I have 8 more pounds to goal. Then I started thinking, oh my God, who am I now? What do I do now? Don't get me wrong, I love the compliments (hint hint, lol) but I just am falling into a complacency as well and it scares the heck out of me. So, Laura you are so not alone. We are all finding our new paths. We are all learning this together. At this moment, the best thing I have is talking to all of you because you understand. ((((((hugs))))) (sorry for the novel) OH, Kat, I got the b-day and anniversary cards. Thanks SO much! Made my day!

I have not posted a full body shot photo in a long time, so here is one of me and dh at my moms house before we left for our trip. I sure wish my eyes would have been open...

Hi violets...snowbunny violets, sick violets, Texas violets, photogenic violets, regular violets & cruising violet! :cheers2: That should cover everyone! I am BACK! We had a great time! I am exhausted and am glad that I am off work tomorrow too just so I can recuperate before work Tuesday. I ate like a jersey cow for the last few days and am NOT getting on the scale until TOM is over about Friday. So many things I wanna say but it is late and still need to give macy her bath so I will check back in the morning. (Tracy...love the video!!)

Good morning Violets- I am fixin to go get started packing and stuff but I wanted to pop in and say hi and bye! Macy is so excited to spend the weekend with her mawmaw & pop. Frank and I are excited as well. :thumbup: Pamela-I am loving this season of BB so far. I have been meaning to talk to you too about it! There is not anyone I really despise yet. The woman with the guy she doesn't like is starting to work my nerves with her complaining all the time. I think it is kind of unfair that they have to go out as couples though. It will be interesting. I was really surprised to see that Eric and whats her face (jessica) are still together from last season. Terri- ((((((((((hugs sista)))))))))))) OK, gotta run. I will see you all Sunday evening! Wish us luck! (since my b-day is Tuesday I would LOVE to win some b-day cash) :crying:

Good idea Tracy....wish I could get it bigger though!

DH and I went to the valentine party at macys school and I HAD to share this pic with ya'll...I just love it!

So, make that 3 of us that did not understand what Jenn said... Love the pics Michelle & Pam! Judy...what about that hot tub? Frank and I had a nice lunch at a a really good mexican food place. I could not eat much (thank goodness). Today is our five year anniversary. Wow, time flies!! Around noon I started getting a headache and I took 2 tylenol and it has not gone away.:thumbup: The past couple of days I have had great NSVs. Yesterday when I dropped dd off at daycare one of the teachers said I look fantastic. I get to work and my BOSS said "My GOD you are getting skinny". Then I go to get my hair done and when my hairdresser brought me to the shampoo bowl she pops her hands on her hips and says "OK, me and the other ladies want to know how in the world you are losing so much weight!" I told her my lapband story. Makes me feel so great!:mad: Tomorrow we are leaving for the weekend. I will check back in the morning before we leave.

Michelle-welcome back and I am so glad you & your family had such fun. What wonderful memories.....you are such the "cool mom" Judy-Thank you!

Happy Valentines Day!!!!!!:cursing: Have a great one violets!!

Well, I went to get my hair cut colored & highlighted and while I was there, she did the color and we both thought...hmmm, how pretty! Then dh came in with dd and he said he LOVED that color, so we did not put the blonde in it. Macy got a haircut too....here is the pic, but it does not do the cut or color justice at all!!

I am going to keep my sentence short so you all will not have to scroll over to read it. Good morning Violets! Denise-thank you so much for the "skinny minnie" comment! Pool party at your house? LOL For Valentines Day (aka my 5th wedding anniversary) dh and I are going out for lunch (alone) and then Friday we are going away for the weekend! (alone :wink2:) I can not wait! I started to use this little guy:tt2:but....ahem...you get the picture! :biggrin: I go today to get my highlights. Expensive, but worth it! Jane-hope that liquid gold cough medicine does the trick! Gina-it is so great to see you posting more often! Everyone have a great day!

Jenn-YOU BETTER BE OFF from your new job!!!