JillianMarie73

AGAIN with the Sex! You bunch of HORNDOGS!!! Bahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

LMAO!! Dude! TMI!!!

I have to agree somewhat that it depends on the individual. Beauty as we all know is skin deep. Ladies such as myself go 100% on heart... I personally think Kevin James is one of the sexiest guys in hollywood - its probably his sense of humor that gets me. You are TOTALLY cute...and straight forward no less. Dont worry, you will find her.

I had a few things too... but I put them on a list, and I ate them one day after another (one day was a pizza burger, the next day sausage gravy and biscuits, chocloate in the afternoon... etc). Packing it all in was a sure fire way of making me feel like crap and getting me ready to start gearing down for the pre op diet. I chose to phase my foods out. The first week was junk food and coffee (TOUGH WEEK), the next week was complex carbs, this week I am dropping fat and eating even less, and starting friday my actual pre-op two shakes and a low carb dinner....(fish or chicken and either green beans, mushrooms or cauliflower). Just remember, food is NOT going to leave the planet. We just have to learn like babies how to eat all over again, and once you hit goal, of course you can have a taste or a nibble of your favorites now and again... its what its all about right? Everything in moderation... with our new skinny stomachs and matching lean bodies!!

Thank you everyone for your kind words. I feel surprisingly better today. I still have a little anxious tugging feeling in my heart now and again, but after a good nights sleep (he still didnt show up or call or even text) I feel like I am seeing things more clearly. I am too old for this crap and I have a wonderful baby to think about. I wouldnt take this nonscense from my ex husband, I wont take it from Justin. You guys are right... 15 more days until my flight - pre-op diet starts tomorrow (just have to tweak what I am doing now)... so lots to focus on.

Im sad today so I am going to blog. It seems like everytime something wonderful is about to happen to me something dreadful has to happen at the same time. Why is that? I finally had the pregnancy I had hoped so long for, and my bastard husband cheated on me. I forgave and things got better. Charles was born, and had horrible reflux and suffered for months...but he got better, and my husband got worse... forcing us to move out. I finally got free, started feeling better and bought my own little house... then a friend lands on my couch and complicates my life... but...we grow to love each other or so I thought, and things got better...he was good to me and my son, and we communicated and got along beautifully. I booked my weight loss surgery, and not only did Justin's passport get denied but he full out crapped out on me. After a fight about appropriate boundaries (him and models he works with for his photography "hobby"), he just decides to not come home last night at all. I sent him a text this morning asking him to clear out what he can today, and leave the keys. Not even a response. I feel really heart broken, abandoned and alone. Ugh. Im upset. Im trying to focus on the fact that there are only 16 more sleeps until my journey begins, and I am hoping by then my heart will feel a little better.

Yay for another Dr. ROD!!!

Thank you for the review Danielle I'm going to order the grapefruit myself! The low carb grocery is very good I've been using them for years...There is also lowcarbCanada.ca if you are looking for Isopure...

Hello, I was wondering if there are any sleevers here from "North of the Border" and/or any Pre-Ops going "South of the Border" namely to Juarez to see Dr. Rod in May 2013. I am super excited and can use all the info, tips and advise I can get!!

Thanks for the tip, I will. The second ABOUT TIME Shake I had today was Mocha Mink... which was pretty much Mint Licorice. I think that is going to be the trend due to the Stevia. So, if you dont like black licorice steer clear. Im ok with it.

May Sleever!! Dr. Rod in Juarez MX on May 10. Heaviest Weight 296 Current Weight 270 Goal weight 140-150? My mini goals.... I dieted down to 256 in 2007 when I temporarily seperated from my no good husband... so I would love to see that in May!! I was 240 when I married the SOB so that goal and will take me back to 2004. I was 205 when I meet the SOB , so that goal will take me back to 2002. (Do you see the trend of undoing some mistakes here???) I havent been to ONEderland for 20 years... super excited about hitting that goal! And at the end of it, I should weigh the same as I did when I was 15 years old, and met the darling man I am with today - who loves me thick or thin. :wub: Hey Beth is your cover photo on facebook tropical drinks? I could only find one.. hoping it is you? P.S. Im in Ontario Canada, and I will blog here a couple times a month so those that are interested in my journey and my incredible wit can follow along!

I can’t believe it has already been 17 days since I booked my surgery. It seems moment to moment to be dragging (and that may be in a large part due to the fact that things are really slow at work right now for me). But 17 days? Really? I have been slowing chopping things out in my PRE Pre-Op diet and so far it has been fairly easy. Starting on April 8th I decided I would try to stop eating all junk food (a bad habit I picked back up on over Easter) and drop caffeine out of my diet. Man was I miserable for 3 whole days! The first day I had to take a shot of diet coke in the evening so I didn’t go crazy… and had Advil on hand for my raging headache. I will confess I ate some cookies during that week and had a few “farewell” meals involving French fries and oooooh… that new Pizza Burger thing at Boston Pizza. Yum! This week, starting Monday it was time to carb drop. I am moving in the direction of Akins, eating mostly protein and some veggies – not worrying too much about fat this week. I am replacing my breakfast each day with a high protein zero carb shake. So far I have tried: Six Star Whey protein powder – Vanilla (which is TOTALLY disgusting!!) So sweet it blows my face off! About Time – Birthday Cake – tastes like licorice water, but tolerable About Time – Mocha Mint – Minty Licorice – and tolerable (Better than birthday cake) For my fellow Canadians I get the About Time shakes at lowcarbcanada.ca. They also have ISOPURE Alpine punch which I have my eye on. About Time is sweetened with Stevia which takes over most of the flavor (Licorice like) but I do like black licorice so Im ok with it. The rest of the day Ive been pretty consistently having an Atkins snack or advantage bar, a small lunch like salad or tuna with mayo in a cup… and dinners have been mainly meat with a side of veg. I am still enjoying a decaf coffee in the morning with cream and sweetner, and in the evening a decaf orange pekoe tea with milk and sweenter… which is probably why I am not yet into ketosis – milk can be a killer… but I am going to continue to enjoy it until Sunday…then I will drop the milk and sweetner… and learn to drink my tea black. So next week, no more milk, and no more high fat protein…. High protein, low carb. No caffeine, and no milk. Then onto the true Pre-op diet. For my pre-op – liver shrinker, I am going to replace both breakfast and lunch with liquid, and have only my dinner which will be chicken or fish, and green beans or mushrooms . Its only two weeks… it will be drab and boring but I am really wanting to prepare myself not only physically but mentally as well. This is a big investment, and the surgery is a gift. I consider myself very lucky to be in a position to do this for myself and for my son. Time for the final step in changing my life. As for the passport issue with Justin, well… what will be; will be. I have made peace with the fact that I may have to go alone. I will remain hopeful that he will be joining me, but if in the end he stays home with Charles, that will be just fine too. Because then Charlie can be in his own home with his Daddy while his Mummy is away for 4 days (first time ever! EPP!!)

P.S. I want to reittereate, he is paying his support. If he wasnt I would kick him in the jacksee!

My boyfriend just received a letter from Passport Canada stating he is being denied his passport for past due Child Support. I know I know, I don’t condone it either but he IS paying his arrears, under an accepted payment plan so I just don’t get it. He’s making calls but it doesn’t sound hopeful. I’m really bummed out at the thought having to travel alone, not to mention I bought non-refundable plane tickets. I'm sad.

Well, here is what I now know. In our province, Ontario, if a payor fails to pay thier Child Support then first they have their drivers license suspended... and then thier passport (or right to one) is taken away. My guy's drivers license is just fine... so it is clearly an administrative error somewhere. That being said, we only have 23 days for two government offices to straighen things out. Those are not good odds! However, that being said, I will remain positive and hope it gets sorted, but if in the end it deosnt it just means I am meant to go alone, and I am ok with that. Its just a small change in plans.

Too bad nobody is going when Im going - May 10. Boooo. Its looking like I will be travelling alone now too. My bf has a complication with his passport, and we have to rely on two Government offices to straighten it out within 23 days... thats not really too hopeful. Non refundable, non transferrable airfare booked. Grrr. Oh well, what will be will be... his coming was a luxury I would have liked to have - but not a necessity from what I have read. We will do great!

I had that epiphany too... I didnt buy it, but thought I could now, and guess what? The option expired yesterday!!!! >.<

So few going to Juarez on this site... now that you have been perhaps you can tell me how it was?

Ok guys I promised an update on the taste of these shakes... so this morning the first was Birthday Cake... hum... doesnt taste like any birthday cake Ive ever eaten... if it did well I can honestly say weight would not be an issue!! Its smells a bit like feet, and (keeping in mind I made it with water) it sort of tastes like water that has had a stalk of black licorice floating in it. (That is probably the stevia). All in all, not the worst thing I have ever had to drink but certainly not exciting. That being said, at 31 grams of protien and 0 carbs per serving... it is a very viable option for the 14 days following surgery. Surely I can get two of those down a day!

Hi Dawnie, Im pretty sure you just need to update your weight on your profile page and the ticker will do the work.

Are you booked?

Hi there, I bought mine from lowcarbcanada.ca but I believe well.ca has them as well. Mine are expected to arrive on Monday and I plan to have one per day - I eill give reviews!!

I just found someone here (though dont ask me on which forum) that was just RAVING about the "about time" brand of shakes. So I did a bit of searching and found a canadian store online who sells them. I ordered the following flavors: Birthday Cake, Chocolate Peanut Butter, Banana and Mocha Mint - one serving of each to see what I like the best. Im thinking that should make high protein shakes easier to get down! My plan is to go hard core shakes and bars during the pre-op 14 days so I dont feel so mentally deprived on the other side. Do you think it will work??

Super exciting Dawnie!! What part of MX are you going to? I am going to Juarez, and it sounds as though my poor BF wont be able to venture to far from the hospital... What is this unjury chocolate protien you speak of? Where does a girl get it? Ashleep, how about you - what part of MX will you be visiting? Simone - how did it go!?!?!

So here I am. I have decided to take a step towards the final frontier of my personal happiness. My health. I have been through a hell of a ride on my journey to today. I have struggled through a dysfunctional marriage to an abusive alcoholic, stood witness to the attack on New York City first hand, narrowly escaped death from sepsis blood poisoning, fought a ten year fertility battle, and buried a friend/lover taken far too young from brain cancer. Life as a human being is hard enough, no wonder I was unable to keep my weight under control – there was too much else to focus on. Today, I am the proud mother of a beautiful two year old boy, I am fulfilled in my 10+ year career with a fantastic company who value my efforts, I own my own home, have a functional car, and am in a relationship with a man whom I have known almost all my life in some capacity… its new… its fresh, but its good. He is kind, and patient and wonderful with my son. The song Good Mother by Jan Arden goes through my head on a daily basis these days – if you don’t know it, check it out on YouTube. Sometimes I have to pinch myself to truly believe that I am finally happy and at peace. There is only one concern left… and that is my weight and my health. I have tried over the years to lose weight and on a couple of occasions have been somewhat successful, most notably loosing 70ish lbs in 2001 on the Dr. Bernstein Diet. But, being predisposed to easily gain, it keeps coming back. Last year I topped my scales (having left my husband 3x in the same year my child was born) at 296! I knew I had to do something and quick. I started an exercise regiment and eating well, and managed to lose 26 lbs in about 4 months. 270 felt pretty good and I started to gain back some confidence in myself and hope for my future. Then suddenly, my guy (who was not my guy at the time) broke up with his girlfriend and landed on my couch!! We were not an item but decided to try and live as roommates until he either found something more permanent or the arrangement was too awkward. Riiiiiiiight. That clearly didn’t and wasn’t going to work. He came with a WHOLE lot of baggage and there were some serious growing pains – the to point where I threw him out of my house in January. That’s what we needed I guess to determine that our friendship (and the stuff that blossomed along with it) was in fact a love neither of us were looking for. But, all that confusion and activity made me put my weight loss on the back burner, yet again. So here I go again, at the start of this year, new diet, new exercise regiment –this is going to be it! I rejoined Weight Watchers (probably for the 18-20th time) and bought myself a treadmill. Starting the year off at 278 I went gang busters being perfectly well behaved with my eating and working out on my treadmill approx 5 times a week at 40 minutes a pop. I was on the move again and dropped to 265. Then suddenly I started suffering from sciatica. So, thinking that the exercise would sort it out, I pushed harder – increasing my efforts to every day and included some workouts on my vibration platform. By the end of February I could no longer sleep or stand for long periods of time without pain. Turns out I have something called Piriformis Syndrome. Apparently what is happening is a muscle that attaches somewhere in my butt and hip is clenching up when I exercise and pinching my sciatic nerve. Are you KIDDING ME? So through acupuncture, deep massage therapy and chiropractic, they are still trying to make the muscle ease up… and I have not been able to work out. I continued my diet plan for a while but then threw my hands in the air out of frustration and so here I am - and back up to 277.8. So much effort to lose it, so easily regained. What I do I know is that I have the will and determination to make this work… all I need is the rewarding results for my efforts. One thing that my fella said to me shortly after we started to cohabitate was, "I dont understand with all that you do, and how you eat, how you weight more than 98 pounds!" That sort of outside review is the justification I needed! :wub: This is a big step... and a bit scary... but I am worth this effort, and there is simply put, nothing I wouldn't do for my boy. He deserves a healthy mommy who will be with him a long long time. Let’s do this thing. May 10, 2013. Dr. Rodrigues at Star Medica in Juarez. I’m ready.