BobbieVSG

I went clothes shopping yesterday & for the 1st time in a LONG time, I saw something different in my reflection as I tried on a pair of pants. I took a long, hard look at myself, tilted my head & actually saw myself as "thin." Yea, that's what I said, THIN! I actually fit into size 8 pants. Yup, a size 8. I think my average pant size in high school (31 years ago) was a 10, so I'm fitting into smaller clothes.
 
I saw a pretty sleeveless little black dress in the fitting room (size Medium) that someone else left behind. Feeling a little brave, I figured ah, what the hell. I haven't warn a dress in YEARS so let's try it on. Oh... my... goodness... Not only did it fit, but it actually looked really nice! I mean, it really looked nice. I had an attractive hour glass figure. Seriously, me! I came out of the dressing room to show my husband. He winked and said "very nice," followed with, "are you OK?" I smiled because I actually had tears in my eyes. I was overwhelmed with such emotion. I didn't cry but I could feel something deep inside me. It almost felt like a happy confusion because there was no denying that I was no longer overweight.
 
I'm still amazed. After 1 1/2 years on this weight loss journey, I'm finally comfortable & quite happy in my own skin!
 
Ahhhhh..... feels good, damn good!!!

Wooo, finally my GP has sent of my referral letter so now hopefully we can get started on meeting the surgeon and then I'll know more. It's quite frustrating that for just under a year, all I've been waiting for is my DR to send off one sentence and they lied .. but still, I just want to look forward. I'm trying not to get my hopes up, done that way too many times. Going to set myself goals to keep motivated..
 
1. Do the 7 minute workout each day.
2. Try get an appointment asap, don't wanna be forgotten about again.
3. Log into this site more, it's really useful and great people!
 
That's it for now, wish me luck.
 

 
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Wooo, finally my GP has sent of my referral letter so now hopefully we can get started on meeting the surgeon and then I'll know more. It's quite frustrating that for just under a year, all I've been waiting for is my DR to send off one sentence and they lied .. but still, I just want to look forward. I'm trying not to get my hopes up, done that way too many times. Going to set myself goals to keep motivated..
 
1. Do the 7 minute workout each day.
2. Try get an appointment asap, don't wanna be forgotten about again.
3. Log into this site more, it's really useful and great people!
 
That's it for now, wish me luck.
 

 
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So I've called my doctors, and they still haven't got any idea what's happening, not much faith. So now I'm planning on emailing my actual surgeon to see what's happening. March last year was when I last saw him, hopefully I can get at least the slightest answer/piece of hope. I will not give up, I refuse to. On other news, I'm doing great on my diet!
 
Also, did anyone also have worried relatives? My sister seems to be trying to.. change my mind in a way. I know everyone's worried of someone they love having major surgery, but I have been fighting for this for 5+ years and It'll change my life for the best.
 
Just wish others could see the way I do.

So I've been waiting since March 2013 for confirmation off funding for the Gastric Sleeve, Still nothing. My hospital hasn't called me either. I have called them roughly 4 times, and they keep saying that it's sorted that end, we just need funding confirmation. So I tried and tried and tried until I gave up.. Most people are just like "You haven't given up, it just takes time" but I did give up. I've had to see people who have less heath issues, weigh less, tried less and still don't like the outcome get the operation. Jelousy really isn't the word, more like anger but so so bitter, such a hypocrite, if someone wants something so bad and they work for it, they deserve it, right?
 
I have tried for this operation for years, and I've only just realised that the last 3 (ish?) months, I haven't tried. I'm really angry with myself! All that time I could of been chasing them up, doing everything in my power for an answer, even if it means bugging them, I shouldn't care.
 
So yeah it's now 2014 and I haven't got a new year resolution, I have goals.

Chase them up on the operation - I won't give up! I can't. They promised me this operation, so now I have to work to get it.

2. Don't be so down - I have been really down on myself lately, and I joke my way through it but I now know that I need to be positive and know that I CAN do this!
 
3. Socialize - I literally can spend days just at home offering to babysit or just on the laptop/writing. Just so I don't have to go out, I hate it when people look at me, my mind automatically turns to paranoia "they're talking about me" "she's judging me" funny thing is, I was the one judging them for thinking they're judging me.
 
4. Diet! - Yess I gave up on that too, I need to loose some more before I go bug the surgeon.
 
 
So yeah, that's all I have so far, but it's a start, right?
 
Hopefully this time next year I'm well on my way and hopefully without jinxing it, waiting/had the sleeve done.
 
I'm only really making this blog so I can motivate myself and look back in a few years and (hopefully) be proud of myself.
I'll be posting every week, so for now.. That's it
 

So I've been waiting since March 2013 for confirmation off funding for the Gastric Sleeve, Still nothing. My hospital hasn't called me either. I have called them roughly 4 times, and they keep saying that it's sorted that end, we just need funding confirmation. So I tried and tried and tried until I gave up.. Most people are just like "You haven't given up, it just takes time" but I did give up. I've had to see people who have less heath issues, weigh less, tried less and still don't like the outcome get the operation. Jelousy really isn't the word, more like anger but so so bitter, such a hypocrite, if someone wants something so bad and they work for it, they deserve it, right?
 
I have tried for this operation for years, and I've only just realised that the last 3 (ish?) months, I haven't tried. I'm really angry with myself! All that time I could of been chasing them up, doing everything in my power for an answer, even if it means bugging them, I shouldn't care.
 
So yeah it's now 2014 and I haven't got a new year resolution, I have goals.

Chase them up on the operation - I won't give up! I can't. They promised me this operation, so now I have to work to get it.

2. Don't be so down - I have been really down on myself lately, and I joke my way through it but I now know that I need to be positive and know that I CAN do this!
 
3. Socialize - I literally can spend days just at home offering to babysit or just on the laptop/writing. Just so I don't have to go out, I hate it when people look at me, my mind automatically turns to paranoia "they're talking about me" "she's judging me" funny thing is, I was the one judging them for thinking they're judging me.
 
4. Diet! - Yess I gave up on that too, I need to loose some more before I go bug the surgeon.
 
 
So yeah, that's all I have so far, but it's a start, right?
 
Hopefully this time next year I'm well on my way and hopefully without jinxing it, waiting/had the sleeve done.
 
I'm only really making this blog so I can motivate myself and look back in a few years and (hopefully) be proud of myself.
I'll be posting every week, so for now.. That's it