I have a 4 yr old daughter and I'm already her 2nd mommy (international adoption). It brings me too tears when I think what she would go through if she lost yet another parent. ... but to be fair to her and honor her birth mother and her I feel she deserves a mom that is healthy and can play and run with her. A mom that will live to see her grow up into the beautiful woman she will become. That helps me with my fear of the what ifs... best wishes, hang in there. Probably meeting my surgeon next week to schedule.