Crkrjax76

Looking great!!!!

Even though I haven't had surgery yet, the Dr's office really suggest we start going to the support groups. I had such a good time!! They let us have time to just talk among ourselves after the lecture. I found someone to go walking with!! Also talked with a lady who was 2 months post op and she was soo helpful!!!

Awesome!!! Congrats on both!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so scared of losing my boobs!! I'm only a B cup now!!! I won't even need a bra once I lose weight!!!!!! My husband said all I need now is bandaids!! HAHA

Where in Kentucky are you going?

Wow I just love having to do the Dr.'s work and the insurance's work for them!!! I called the Dr to see if they had submitted my paperwork to insurance, and come to find out they wanted me to see the psych one more time...nice of them to tell me...then I had to call the insurance company because the two times I saw the psych they denied as out of network....but guess what...she is...so they are having to resubmit the claim...I just need to have this over with!!!!! Also on a side note, was extremely embarrassed today! Went to give blood and found out I'm too fat. MY HUSBAND WORKS FOR THE RED CROSS!!! I flipped out on him!! Why didn't he tell me the weight limit???? He could have saved me a whole lot of embarrasment!!!

I'm right there with you!! I thought my stuff would be submitted after my last Appt on June 5, but they haven't submitted yet as the NUT wants me to see the pysch one more time because I gained 2 pds last month and I admitted to some emotional eating! I was sooo upset!! Now I can't even get in to her until July 1. I was hoping to have surgery July 2!!

I just called and I can't get back into the pysch until July 1. I was hoping to actually have my surgery that week. I'm just so freaking dissapointed!!! I don't understand why they want me to see her again, when she cleared me.

They told me today that the weight limit was 350 lbs. I couldn't smack him, we were at church!!

I had to have an EKG and an echo, but only because I had open heart surgery when I was 5. But it doesn't sound exessive to me.

Today was to be my last NUT and exercise specialist appt before being sent to insurance. I had an exercise plan in place and last month I found out I have a bulging disc that has aggravated my sciatic nerve. I was barely able to walk. At my last appt, the exercise specialist told me to stay off the bike. So, I have been. I've been doing my weights and walking as much as I can. So, she asks me today if I'm still doing the bike I tell her no. She said why not. I said because of my hip. She then said she wasn't sure how the insurance would react as she was going to have to put in her report that I'm non compliant now because I'm no longer following the plan we had in place. I said, even though I'm walking as much as I can? She said I wasn't walking enough, so I'm non compliant. It's a very good day that I'm able to get a tennis shoe on to even walk. My feet swell so bad. I'm so afraid I've messed up and the insurance is going to deny me. I have to go back to them in 2 weeks. I am back to tracking my food intake, and I'm going to get back on that bike no matter how much it will hurt.

I will only see my surgeon twice. Well, three times if you include the informational meeting.

I'm already a B, possibly C cup!! My husband told me I'll just need bandaids when I get done!!!!

No I can't swim. Although I am looking into water aroibics. Our park district and the YWCA offers it, but have to find one that doesn't conflict with my work schedule.

I'm starting to get nervous and excited. Tomorrow is my last NUT appt and they will submit to insurance either tomorrow or Thursday. Hoping to get a quick approval!! But I knew that I would be needing some stuff for the hospital. So, I ordered some new bras and underwear and a couple pairs of lounge pants. Got a VERY good deal on the bras at onestopplus.com. They were less than $7.00 a piece!! I really hope that will be the last time I HAVE to order online because I can't find clothes to fit from the store!!! I told my cousin I felt like my momma because she always had a "good" gown and robe in the closet and "good" underwear and bras in her drawer in case she ever had to go to the hospital.

I know I won't be needing much, but I guess it was just so ingrained from my mom, I just had to get a few things! My poor bras and underwear are ready for the rag heap, and since I got them so cheap, I couldn't pass it up!! I don't really have but one pair of loose pants, so I bought a couple more pair of loose fitting lounge pants to wear to go back to work. I wore them for about a month after I had my gallbladder removed 10 years ago.

I have my final NUT appt Wednesday and I'm so ashamed. I haven't been eating less and better. Instead, I think I'm still having my food funeral. It seems like everything I see, I want to cram it in my mouth!!! The Dr. had me do the 2 week liquid diet at my first NUT appt and I did very well with it. Lost 14 lbs. It was hard, but I managed to do it. But for the last 2 months, it just seems like I can't get enough to eat!! I do feel that I'm mentally ready for this surgery. I'm so ready to start losing. Things I won't miss keep going through my mind. Being able to actually walk in a store and buying clothes instead of online. Being able to actually get tennis shoes on and tied. Being able to go outside and play with my son. Not going to concerts and movies because I can't fit in the seats. (passed up going to Bon Jovi because of that). Going to a restuarant and having to ask for a table because there is NO way I'm going to fit in the booth. Wearing my seat belt comfortably. Always driving my van because of being afraid of not fitting in someone else's car. I could go on and on and on. I'm sitting here in tears now as I type this. I'm so afraid of this failing too. I keep thinking, everything else I've tried has failed, why not this too? I know I've got to do this! I've got severe sleep apnea, start of high blood pressure, my feet and ankles swell so bad I can't wear anything but flip flops. I want to do this so I can be active with my son. Right now, I can't do anything with him! Not even take him to the movies!!!! I guess I'm rambling, but I know you guys will listen to me and not judge me!!! I guess I'm looking for some encouragement.

Thank you guys so much!!!!

I've told everybody that will listen. I've been very fortunate in that I haven't had any negative comments made to me. They may be said behind my back, but if I don't hear it, it doesn't hurt me!! It's not like I'm hiding the fact that I'm fat. People can see that quite easily! I feel the more people I tell, the more people I have looking at me to make it successfully through this process.

I also plan on getting a tattoo when I reach goal weight. I plan on getting two cancer ribbons in honor of my parents on the inside of my calf. I also plan on having the one on my back recolored.

My niece is in the exact same position as your daughter. Her father is very verbally abusive and she gets a lot of his abuse. She is 17, just graduated from high school and is now living with me. I would rather her come live with me than run off with the firs guy she finds when she turns 18. If he is verbally abusive to your children, my opinion is you need to get away from him. My niece has severe depression and self esteem issues because of her father.

If you believe he might try to hurt you, then yes, ask the police to escort you there!! If he doesn't fight the divorce, then it should be fairly easy. But if he decides to fight, then you would be better to get an attorney. But since there are no children and no property to fight over, there's not much I dont' think he can do. My ex husband and I used the same attorney! But he didn't fight me. I wish you the best of luck!!

I broke out horribly bad with the depo shot!!! I mean HORRIBLE!!!!! I have regular acne as a teenager, but nothing like this!!! I went off it and my face cleared right up!!!!

I did fairly well with my 2 week liquid diet. Then went back to "dieting" for 2 1/2 months. I have done HORRIBLE since then!!! I know food is an addiction, and it has me in it's grip!!!! My problem is and always has been portion control. I see something, and I eat until it's gone. I don't feel I have that "switch" in my brain that tells me I'm full. I talked to the NUT about it and she said she hears that alot. I just hope that this surgery is what I need to get my life back. I just saw a girl I went to school with post she lost 196 lbs and I sooo want to be able to say that!!!!!

You look GREAT!!!