June 25th here. Every day I try and imagine life after surgery and wonder if I can handle it. I am ready to be healthy, but I have been overweight my whole life and don't know how to live any other way! I have lost 30lbs pre-op so far and need to lose 120 more to be at goal. I am definitely a ball of anxiety about it all, but underneath is a hope that I can finally achieve a lifelong dream!