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Thanks for all the great words of encouragement. I have all of my pre-op stuff to do next Monday, nutritionist, physical and some class that they require you to sit through. Then next stop surgery. It's comforting to know that there are other people out there who feel the same way. Hoping for success for all!

Hi All, I've been trolling for a few weeks, soaking up as much as I can and decided I should introduce myself. I had my band placed in 2008, initially lost about 35 pounds, I never really felt restriction except for the day of a fill. Have gained all the weight back and can eat everything and anything that I want in large quantities, except brussel sprouts which still get stuck..go figure...and who the heck wants brussel sprouts anyway So I decided I wanted to get my band out cause it's starting to freak me out that it's in there, and feel like it's a ticking time bomb, waiting for something bad to happen. Went to the doctor about removal, he's done many conversions before and recommended the sleeve for me. So I'm sceheduled for 4/24. Not nervous at all about the surgery, I work in the hosptial so it's like my second home and medical procedures don't freak me out at all. When I went for my egd my blood pressure was 80/90 and the anesthesiologist was amazed that I wasn't in the least bit nervous. What does have me SUPER NERVOUS, and one of the reasons I've been trolling on here is...what if I fail again??? When I was preparing for my lap-band I was so confident that it was going to work for me... epic fail. What if I go through this and still end up where I am now...fat.??? The thought of this not working has my anxiety so far up, I'm ready to just forget about it, have them take my band out and just be overweight. At least then I won't have to explain that I've had two WLS and I'm still morbidly obese. Anyone want to offer any advice, words of wisdom, or a kick in the butt? Any will be appreciated.

Thanks ladies, I appreciate the advice and words of encouragement. I remember being on the lap-band website and being gung-ho and convinced that it was the answer...ummm wrong! I have lupus and have lots of aches and pains, but I'm not sure if I can equate them to the lupus or to being fat. I'm going to try, that's all I can say, I don't want to live the second half of my life the way I spent the first half, yoyo dieting, disgusted with myself, and discouraged. Hoping this is the correct tool to help me.