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Glad it went well. Good luck with the pain.

good luck. I will say a prayer for you.

The fear of leaving my wife and three children without a husband and father. Being unable to do everyday things with my family. Cancelling the summer vacation to Hawaii after paying for it because I feel too uncomfortable flying. Never being asked to coach or help coach one of my children's athletic teams (not that I could in my condition). Always being the biggest one in the room. Not being able to sit in a restaurant booth. Having to go to Disney World and other parks and watching my children ride instead of experiencing it with them. Difficulty everyday with hygienic responsibilities (enough said). Not being able to buy the car I want because I don't fit. After saying all this I have yet to schedule my date but I am tentatively scheduled for the middle of July. I am just so fearful of dying because of or during the surgery. I hope I go through with it and pray everything works out well.

I am about two month out and am mortified. I am actually on anti-anxiety drugs and am still scared. I just keep thinking at every appointment that I am getting closer to being healthy. I hope and pray I go through with it and make it through it alive. Praying is now a constant for me.