I understand totally and I know its wrong but yet it is so easy and this way we are not actually bulemic its surgically that way (sounds stupid I know). The only difference with me is that once I PB its over with me I won't eat anything else for like 3 or 4 hrs. It has also become to easy for me to throw up and I am going to keep on till I ruin my gag reflex. Its just to easy.