I'm not really much help, I just started this process, but I know how you feel. I had a planned csection and my anxiety going up to it was so horrible I almost put myself into labor. I was shaking, and crying, and a few nurses ha to try and calm me. But remember to keep your eye on the prize. For me, it was my son , but for you it's the beginning of a beautiful, healthy life with a new body to match . As long as you keep your sights on the results, you can push through it. It will be more then worth it when 6 months down the line you look at how amazing you look/feel.