Miranda

I thought I would start a "Random Questions" thread bc I have random questions that really don't fit with any of the other threads going. So the question of the day for me is.... Tommorow I start Full fluids...I would like to start drinking tea with milk...is it ok to have sweetner at this stage? The milk would be 1%.

Well hello there everyone!! Long time no chat! I hope all are doing well. Ok we have a problem! I got my band June 7/07. Went through the post stages. Some struggling with the puree. Some major cheats that lead to some pain. But got over it. I do not get my first fill until July 23/07. Right now I am sooo back to my old habits. I am eating bad and am not happy with myself. However all the same feelings I had before the band of food addiction is here. Now believe me I am not going all out with the bad foods. A bunch of kids I work with today wanted to go to McDonalds. I said no. So I am having some self control. I keep trying to convince myself all will change when I get the 1st fill. Now the question is is that true. Will this band REALLY make me feel full. Will it stop the feelings of temptation? Will it stop me from eating bad foods to allow me to lose weight? Now I know if I dont want to work the the band then I will have trouble. Of course that is not my intention. I guess the fear for me is last week I did gain 3 lbs back. I was not shocked due to the way I was eating. I also know this is not the lose weight stage. I guess I am super scared that the fills wont do the trick for me bc I will not intenally sneak things here and there. Its the addiction that I know some if not all understand. All this said I am being positive and really just want the fill to start bc to me its kinda like nothing has changed until I get restriction. Did anyone go through the same sort of situation at my stage of post op?

Thanks Susan! I have added a few things in there...like no sugar apple sauce and pudding and Beans...so that spices the day up I guess. Im feeling kinda good today bc I hit the gym and felt pretty good.

Ohhh gosh I dont know if I am ready to commit to a goal weight!!!! lol. Im scared! So tell me....why is this what has worked for you? I am sure you have tried lots of fad diets and things throughout the years. What has this band done to make you feel so great? I am thinking you are not not full restriction. I have not had a fill yet so I kinda feel like nothing really happened and that any day now my old ways will creap up and I will allow it. Actually I soo already hit that time 2 weeks ago and started eating everything in site. I had to stop that and put myself back on pre op diet..with a few healthy extras. I also hit the gym now everyday...I feel pretty good about that too.

Look at you LeslieLee!!!!!!!!!!!!!...when I see how ur doing I kinda light up. I read ur whole journal so I kinda read ur ups and downs so its nice to see you in a good place! Keep it up girl!!!!

Hi Kero! I soo wrote the same sort of post you wrote just like 1.5 months ago. I was banded on June 7/07. I am having a rough time with the post op stuff..just waiting for thr 1st fill. All you have to think when doing the pre op diet..."I have to do this....I dont have a choice...I can only eat what they said....I dont want to screw this up" Thats what I said all the time. Gosh I was getting to the point I was scared the fruit in my yogurt was to big. It all worked out. For me the pre op was pretty easy. Actually I am having a hard time with food right now and back to over eating that I put myself back on the pre op until my 1st fill!

Hi all! Ok here is what I did....dont know if its the best plan but I had to do something. Ok you will be shocked to hear this...ready....I put myself back on the pre op diet. I had to! I was out of control. First thing was I was back to binging. I was soo over eating. Then I was scared crapless I streached the band (well still scared about that). The I only did the pureed for half the time. Ok really...im not coming up with excuses....I soo didnt do it on purpose. I have no idea what happened there. So my first fill is not till July 23. I cannot keep going this way until then. So I joined the gym this week and went back on pre op. I have kinda convinced myself you have to do the pre op before the fill. (even though I know thats not the case). I just cant wait for the 1st fill. Not that I expected it will be a mircle worker but I think it should help!

Its a First Fill seminar I guess. Its at TLBC on July 23/07. They said plan to be there for 2 hours.

Hi all! Is anyone going to the seminar on July 23? I am not sure if it is just for first fills or what? Would love to meet some of ya!!!

ok lets do it!!! Any volunteers on setting it up? :confused:

Wow it was good to hear pple going through the same thing. Okay was not a good day either. I did eat the McDonalds i stayed away from yesterday. At this point I am eating alot of the wrong things. I just read the fact about the stomach streaching. I didnt even think about that. Now I am freaking that I have done that!!! Ahhhh. I am soo back at the same size servings and all. Ok this needs to stop!!! I JUST WANT THE 1ST FILL. Linda I feel ur pain. After the surgery I was like ok now what? Then nothing. All of that to just go back to eating bad. I know its my own doing and its only me who can stop. However its hard to stot such an addiction when nothing seems to be happening when u over eat. Hmm maybe I will call Rosanne to give me crap. I am soo joing the gym next week! Its time to get to crunch time.

Well the time has come! I cant believe that my big day is tommorow. Surgery day I feel I have been talking on this site forever about my feelings about this upcoming event. All my worries, questions and excitment. Its so funny how people at work have no issue asking "so why are you going on medical leave?" I have been pretty private about it though. I have to say the feelings are a mix of being nervous, excited and scared. But its time! I want to thank everyone on here for their support. A special thanks to Yoda though. We have not talked alot I know but I read ur journal entries daily. Its like seeing what will kinda happen within the next year for me. You highs and lows. I am only half through them lol. I know we will have our own journey but its been soo reassuing and informative. Thank you. So when I talk to you all again (unless its 2night) I will be on the other side...and looking forward to it!

The doctor sat where!?!?!? I sooo didnt know that. I actually didnt want to ask. I didnt feel any pain at all. All I thought while I was lying there is "what the hell am I doing right now" I didnt even flinch when he put the needle in. Crazy how the mind wonders in crazy situations

I have my port right under the bra area. Im obsessed with touching it. You can totally feel it but it does not stick out. He told that is could when I lose lots of weight and we can deal with it at that time. Its weird to know you have this object just sitting there inside. Thats why I keep touching it. I had my surgery 2 weeks tommorow and the only time I notice it is when I bend to pick something up. So overall I do feel pretty lucky.

Is anyone going to the 1st fill seminar on July 23? Thats my first fill. I have soo much time to wait. Also were people sneaking things here and there before their first fill bc they knew once the fill started it was a done deal?

Well puree for me tommorow!!!! I talked to the new staff Rosanne at TLBC today. Shes awesome and from Oshawa like me!! She told mje the food does not have to be super pureed. Like I thought I had to puree scrambled eggs, cottage cheese etc. She said no just chew really good. So im soooooo excited for tommorow!!! What shall I have first!!?!? Confafo...im not so sure you can have 1/2 cup of soup in one shot. I would have like 1/4 cup juice, 1/4 cup of pudding and 1/4 protien drink at each meal. That would fill me up (i guess the best it could. So that may help with the hunger. That was so funny about the chair in the operation room. When she told me to lay down I was trying to hold the gown in all the right places. She was like "ok so just open the back". I said "well then you ight see my bum". She laughed and said "oh we will be seeing alot more later" I was like huhhhh. lol.

Well just came back from tanning...im sorry I had to say it lol. I know the risks, I know its not the best plan to get sun. To be honest...and as lame as this might sound...I already suffer from very low self esteem. Being tanned makes me feel just alittle bit better about myself. I do not do it alot but I just like to be tanned. Buttt my mom would agree with ya Yoda and Susan...so she says "thanks for talking sense into my daughter"

Hi Consafo; Its soooo funny how we all think alike here. When I was on clear broth I was like counting the days down till I could have pudding. All I talked about was pudding. Now.....well....I am not loving pudding anymore. It still is the highlight of the day though (that 1/4 cup). Now with you being an addict maybe you will love everyday of it!

Ya leslielee!!!!! I bet that banana was like the bes thing ever!!!! How did the bananna and tuna go down. Did it feel weird? Were you scared? I start puree Thursday. Not super excited about it. Tell me did you feel hungrey at all? Did the food actually taste good bc you missed it? I would love if I can go to soft stage early!!!! We will see what happens!

I did have iso protien on clear fluids. Just 1/4 cup per meal. I was told not to start the boost/meal replacement till Full fluids. Full fluids I found the most challenging. I have 2 days left!!! I cant wait. Its pretty rough. The best thing I did was count down to the new thing that gets to happen. As people also mentioned keep busy. I found now that I have gone back to work I dont think about food as much as I did. Jetlagjane---how ya feeling. Like I read u were having a hard time...things getting better?

Hmmm...im not at that stage but am feeling like starting Puree sooner....did anyone start this stage early?

Ok so here we are 10 days after surgery...im hungrey!!!!!!!!! I am still on Full Fluid. It soooo sucks. I go to puree on Thursday. Like someone mentioned it b4 and I will agree....I am soo obsessed with food right now. its all I want and think about. Even food I hated b4 the surgery look sooo good to me know. I just want to have a little something something. The last few days have been rough. Had a work thing on Friday. Everyone went to Mandrain for lunch. I just went home during luch hour. There was a BBQ this Sat and Sun. It smells soooooo good. Just one bite! What would be the damage...thats what runs through my head a zillion time a day. Rough patch right now! Getting through it though!

Ok this question totally fit this thread..its rather random....has anyone gone to the tanning salon since being banded? I just want to make sure it is safe...any input?

Hi Jetlagjane! Welcome to the banded side...im a week and a half new myself. A few days after my surgery I did endt up calling the clinic as I had such a pressure/discomfort where the port was. It felt like someone was just pushing down. my hear t was also kinda hurting if that makes sense. She told me it was all normal and would decrease in intensity as the days went by. I had the surgery June 7 and everyday is getting better for me. I still have some weird feelings inside but I expect that sort of stuff. Like everyone is saying everyday gets better! Do what I did...keep counting the days down till something else exciting comes...like the shower, the full Fluid stage and next week counting down to puree....it will get easier

Hi Susan! I just read ur journal. Its kinda interesting because I get to read ur journey in fast forward. For you I am sure it felt like it was going in slow motion. It has been really helpful! I am on day 3 of my full fluids and its not really that fun. NOO way has there been any cheating as I am scared to death (like you were) that I could do damage to the band. I look at tv commercials and I I think "1 bite, I just want 1 bite" Have you ever noticed when you cant have food how much more you notice it. Everything people have said on ur thread is sooo how I feel. All I think about is food right now. Like I could the hours down till the next meal/snack. Now I am off for the week. Maybe time will go alot faster once I get back to work on Friday. I went through the phase (just yesterday actually) thinking ohhh maybe my portions are a bit to big....whats going to happen!?!?! I drool soo when I read people reciepes for mushed food..can you beleive that!?!? Ask me when I get to that stage if I am drooling then lol. I guess I then come to the mind frame "you have no other choice:...theres no options other than what is written on the diet they gave me. Thats what kinda gets me through it. I do not enjoy post op though! Looking forward to actually eating food...no matter how small of a bite lol!!!.