Farah131

I'm 5 months post-op. I've only lost about 40 pounds. I'm not following the rules as well as I should because I can feel myself giving up emotionally. Today I ate an entire thin crust personal pizza. I have a full time job and finals in grad school, my stress level is insane, and i ate that pizza. I can't even believe I finished it. Didn't get sick, didn't feel uncomfortable. I feel like my stomach is back to normal. I'm totally aware that I'm not going to get anywhere by not following the rules and I have a serious addition to food and seek comfort from it. I know it's my fault and if I fall off I just need to get back on if I want to be healthy. But why was I able to eat that pizza without feeling sick? Is it possible that the stomach can stretch back to normal after 5 months. I feel lost and hopeless and looking for support. Would appreciate some of your thoughts. Feel free to be hard on me. My mistakes are my mistakes.

Thank you guys for your comments. Seriously. There's really no one in my life that I can talk to about this stuff - or want to talk to about this stuff. I appreciate the support so much. I wish all of you strength and health