Sleevedmom2be

Hi All I am ashamed to say that I have set up a new username because although I haven't used these boards for a while, I may still have some friends here. And I'm embarrassed about my situation right now and would rather remain anonymous... I am also aware that there is a pregnancy specific section on these boards but it doesn't get much traffic and I could really use some help soon. I am just over 2 years out from surgery, and got down to 4lb above goal and stayed there for almost a year. I was exercising regularly and eating well. In October I discovered that despite having PCOS and being told I was highly unlikely to be able to conceive without medical help, that I am pregnant with my first child. I am incredibly happy and grateful for this blessing and wouldn't change it for the world. However... I have been using the pregnancy as an excuse to eat more, and feel like I've totally lost control. In my first trimester I felt queasy as soon as my stomach got empty, so I felt I needed to eat almost constantly to keep the ill feeling at bay. Now I wonder if that was all in my head and a convenient excuse to graze. I am now well into my second trimester and totally let myself go over Christmas, getting back into bad binging habits which plagued me before surgery. I avoided weighing myself, saying that I am bound to be gaining weight because I am pregnant. Also been telling myself I mustn't diet or restrict my food intake at this time for the sake of the baby. And it's all nonsense, every bit of it. Tonight I weighed myself and I am up 18lb, and I'm on week 19 of my pregnancy. I should only have gained about 7-10lb by this point. The bottom line is that I'm afraid and I need help. I need to pull myself together and start eating Protein first, cut the carbs, drink more Water, and face reality. I don't want my surgery to have been a failure, and I most definitely don't want some part of me to blame the pregnancy for making me fat again when it is entirely my own fault. I don't want to tell my boyfriend or family about this because I am ashamed. Some words of wisdom would be much appreciated guys. Or a kick up the ass, whatever you think is most appropriate! Thank you

Thanks for the support everyone. Last night I planned my food for today and am really going to try and stick to it. Hoping I can do this with your help. If anyone wants to add me on myfitnesspal my username is twosteps Xx

I saw a great nutritionist at the start of my pregnancy. We went through my diet and she was really impressed with it, making only a few minor tweaks. She said I am the first person she has seen who has had WLS and eats a balanced diet and uses the tool properly. A couple of weeks after that, BOOM. I lost all determination and control. I know exactly what I need to eat, I just seem to have sabotaged myself and this time I am having trouble getting back on track. Wondering if I shoukd use myfitnesspal in advance to plan my food for the next day. Then stick to it. Anyone else use this method? Thanks again for the replies so far, much appreciated

I will speak to my midwife soon if I can't get this under control. Don't want to admit to them that I'm struggling. Need to just get over that. I do use myfitnesspal but I don't use it properly. I have it set to private and even then I miss things off... These are good suggestions, and making me realise what a coward I'm being. Come on girl, get a grip!