LifetimeLoser

1. Struggling to put my socks on 2. plus size shopping 3. Being self-conscience whenever I eat in public...even if its in my car 4. joint pain 5. having my stomach visible over my boobs 6. big feet 7. sore feet 8. online shopping because I don't want to go into a store 9. settling for things even though you know you deserve better, but your confidence keeps you from striving for it 10. dressing older 11. having no shape...well i guess round is a shape 12. Being uncomfortable in theatre seats 13. Worrying about getting on an airplane 14. Not being able to keep up with my two year old

Love your story! Keep it up. A smidge of jealousy from the significant other sounds like a huge compliment.

Thank you for you wishes. I leave for the hospital in five minutes!!! Totally excited. My mouth is completely dry from not being able to eat or drink anything for 12 hours...grrrrr. I'm not nervous at all...I think my excitement is overwhelming my fear!

Hi Amy, Everyone is different, and for me being aware that I was a binge eater was really all it took. I wasn't even aware of what I was doing. Once I accepted it and practiced mindful eating I haven't done it since. I am highly goal oriented too. I am pre-op so I don't know how things will be post op. My psychologist recommended the book, "buddha's brain". there are also books on mindful eating that could help. Figure out what motivates you and reward yourself for good behavior...maybe that is a step in the right direction. Find out what your triggers are and work on that with your Psychologist. Do you like your Psychologist? If they aren't being helpful, maybe you should find someone else. All I know is change takes time and if you take it one day at a time...eventually you will reach a lifetime.

Awe!! You guys are soooo freakin adorable. Love it. Thanks for making my day

thank you I haven't even heard of slider foods and I have my surgery tomorrow!!! aaackkkk

I can understand your resentment and your pain. It is hard to move past that. I think you should definitely block their texts and emails if at all possible. You don't need the added stress while you are recovering and if you are on vacation, then well you are on vacation. If they aren't taking into consideration your health, then why should you go out of your way to help them. As far as not getting a basket or anything...they or he or she might be in the mind set that this is not "major surgery" or that "you did it to yourself". They might figure that you chose to have this and it wasn't an emergency...you planned it out and maybe that is why they didn't give you anything. Which no matter what the reason they are wrong, but along my journey I have realized that weight loss surgery is still something that most people are not educated about. I also agree with divanurse...jealousy could be there too. I know a few people who are mad because I qualify and they don't. They see it as an easy way out. Or they are jealous because they know you will look fabulous and they will be the same old same old. And some people...actually many people don't like change. Keep your head up girl! Forget them. You can make new friends!

You look great and happy! I'm sure your boys enjoy your new found energy.

that is awesome! My or time is 2:45pm. For sure I will tell you of the hospital day stay etc.

So I am on the 6th day of my 7 day pre-op liquid diet. I did one week of no carbs (basically the induction phase of the south beach diet) before I started this liquid diet to ease myself into things. I lost 5 lbs on the week of no carbs and so far 7 lbs on this liquid diet. I started at 311 and I wanted to be under 300lbs by the time I went in for surgery! My first goal achieved!!! The liquid diet isn't so bad. I mean besides having dreams of forgetting I'm on a liquid diet and stuffing my face. One night I even had a dream that I smoked some weed and just started binge eating. Thank goodness these things were only in a dream. I haven't cheated once and am almost done. I just kept thinking, "If I can't do this for a week, then how do I expect to do this for the rest of my life." Somehow I found enough motivation to stick with it. Now, I'm just swimming along. "Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming." And soon it will be my time to take the fall...Wednesday October 30th, 2013 is the day my life will change forever.

Thank you for sharing your success! Gorgeous.

Hey Lady!!! How are you? Thank you. Ooooh. Awesome! I think you will find that you like him. My husband was comforted by meeting him. He came with me to my pre-op appointment last week. He seems extremely intelligent and a little ocd...which is good for a doctor. And he keeps cosmetic things in mind to. Let me know if you have any questions or whatever.

That is good. My PSYCHO is pretty helpful. lol Yeah being around other people can eat normally sucks!!! The first day of my liquid diet my husband comes home and says, "get up we are leaving. We are going to go eat your last meal at Ruby Tuesday's." I just glared at him I was soooo pissed. Obviously, I yelled at him for not remembering I'm on a liquid diet. I live with my family...my mom, dad, sisters so I just try to hide out in our studio outside so I am not bombarded. For the most part I wasn't even hungry, but the smells ugh sooo good. I made my husband stop on the side of the road to eat his mcdonald's hamburger one day. I thought I could handle it because I wasn't hungry, but then the smell was sooo strong and good. I was like you need to get out. The smell is just too much. So he pulled over and stuffed his face. It was much better for me. My family is supportive, but very forgetful. We are almost done though! We can do it. I just keep thinking to myself, "If I can't be motivated for a week, then how do I expect to keep my motivation up for the rest of my life."

I feel ya girl! Mine is the 30th!

The pre op diet is hard...I have two more days to go on mine! I keep having dreams that I forget I'm on a liquid diet and start eating. According to my dr., the purpose is to shrink the liver. My surgery is supposed to be only one incision through my belly button. If I don't shrink my liver enough, then I risk needing more incisions. I'm pretty sure they can still do the surgery if you messed up once, but it is less risky if you can stick to your diet! As a fellow binge eater (who sees a psychologist), I highly recommend you get that under control. Binge eating is never a healthy habit. Good Luck.

Lanip00h...the o's are zeros

Thanks Ladies. One day down. It wasn't so bad. I was super emotional though.I don't know if that was related to the liquid diet phase. I was pretty full all day, but I do have to get over the head thing. I'm not hungry, but I keep worrying that i will forget and stick something in my mouth so I'm obsessing at this point. I think tomorrow will be a better day.

Liquid Diet starts today!!! Totally Nervous. I'm just happy that I do really love the premier protein shakes. I'm going to have to keep myself busy. That is all. I just needed to vent.

Take my daughter to the water park. Go ziplining. Hiki Kalalau trail on Kauai.

I totally see a difference!

good job! You look totally different. What I love about looking at before and after pics is that losing weight brings out the best characteristics of a person's face. Like Nice eyes!

congrats ladies. that is awesome. So jealous I am still pre op.

I have one and a half days until I start my liquid diet. My surgeon only requires it for one week...Thank buddha or some other deity type that could be thanked. This is my 6th day no carbs and I'm feeling good. I did this to myself. I was afraid I would get migraines when I started my liquid diet so I put myself on a week of no carbs so at least I could take my medication if I needed to. This way when I hit the liquid diet phase I won't be absolutely miserable because i won't have those migraines that set in about three days into a low carb diet. I've lost 5 pounds on the low carb phase. I know it is water weight, but still weight. I'm curious to see what one week of liquids only will do to me. Time is going really slowwwwwwww now that I am so close to my surgery date. I want it done already. It is just like the last few months of being pregnant when you are just so sick of being pregnant. Same deal! Well, I'm hanging in there and that is all I can do.

So I only have 14 more full days until my surgery (January 30th is my scheduled day). I am getting nervous about my liquid diet which is supposed to start on the 23rd. I have feelings that I might cheat or that I will be a total b***h. The latter I know will be true no matter what. I've decided that I'm going to do no carbs starting tomorrow. I think this will help me be successful on my liquid diet. For some reason my dr. only requires one week pre op liquid diet. I think I am ready for this major life change. I haven't lost any weight from the time I started this whole process. I think I actually gained 8 pounds. I am not too worried about it because my mental state has had some significant changes. As for my binge eating disorder, I believe it is under control. For me, awareness, was all it took. I wasn't aware I had a problem before I went to the psychologist. After I became aware of the problem, and admitted that I binge I haven't had an episode since. I also practice mindful eating half of the time, which is better than none of the time. I feel more relaxed. I feel less anxious. I think if I continued to go to the psychologist and do slow changes the weight would come off slowly, eventually. Things that aren't perfect...I definitely eat too much sodium. I eat too much sugar. I need not to eat fast food at all. In comparison to before, I was eating fast food everyday, and sugar all day. It is a vast improvement, but still needs more. I can't wait for after my sleeve when I don't have those cravings and can actually focus on eating healthy. Even more so, I can't wait until the weight falls off and I can be more active again. I am probably one of the few that love exercise. I love feeling strong. I love feeling like I accomplished something. I have all these things on my list I want to do and accomplish. I also don't have the "last supper" syndrome that I used to do every time I started a new diet. My husband, on the other hand, is suffering from this syndrome knowing that his life is about to change too. He has been buying basically everything fried and bad for you...I think he is trying to fatten up before all of this or maybe he is stressed out. I'm not sure, but I'm glad I'm not the one buying all the bad food.

me too...january 30th