LifetimeLoser

MYFITNESSPAL NAME: lanip00h (the o's are zeros)

Aloha,

First of all, like most people, I have been overweight my whole life. I think the last time I was "normal" was probably when I was about 5. I don't think I have a genetic disposition to obesity, but rather an environmental one. I remember growing up eating lots of fast food, candy, ice cream etc. I grew up on the island of Oahu in Hawaii. The way local people ate back then was horrendous. It is a lot of white rice, fatty and high sodium foods. That is the way I grew up and that is the way I stayed.

When I was a junior in high school I was forced into a special class for those that were overweight. I had never really tried to lose weight before this...I was never really interested. This class did spark something in me. They made us workout and watch what we ate. As the pounds came off, I became more interested. This is probably the first time I discovered that I liked how I felt when I worked out and ate healthy. I lost a good amount of weight in school. (Went from 215 to 160)

It took a couple of years, but the weight did come back on. It was when I was in my first long term relationship. (Went from 185 to 265) I eventually started trying again and lost some weight over the years. I moved away to New York (was 230 when I moved) for school and continued to lose weight very slowly. I didn't put a lot of effort into it, but I was moving around a lot. I was also eating fairly healthy and working out consistently. It took me a couple of years, but I lost 85lbs. (I lingered around 185lbs)When I stopped going to school some of the weight came back on, but not much. I was kind of in a yo yo state for three years. I would gain 20lbs, lose 20lbs. It wasn't until I was engaged that I took losing weight seriously again. When I got married I was down to 190 lbs. I found out I was pregnant a couple months after getting married. I ballooned from 200 to 280 lbs while I was pregnant. I had a fairly healthy pregnancy besides my eating. I took my pregnancy as an excuse to eat and enjoy anything because it was the first time in my life I had a real excuse to eat. The day I gave birth I was 265lbs. That was in July 2010.

I slowly gained weight every year until I was 311 lbs in 2012. That was my highest, most miserable weight. I started researching weight loss surgery in the beginning of 2012, attended my orientation meeting in July of that same year. I was actually 295 lbs when I started the process and gained about 20 lbs from the beginning time until the week of my pre-op diet. I had many issues to work on before my surgery including emotional eating, and binge eating disorder.

My surgery date was on January 30th, 2013. I had 4 incisions. I was only supposed to have one by my belly button, but my abdominal wall was too thick so they had to improvise.

I didn't have surgery because I didn't think I could lose the weight again. Actually, I was fairly certain that I could lose 100+ lbs again. I had the surgery because I was sick of the cycle. I didn't want to divert all my energy to trying to lose weight. I didn't want this to be something that consumed my life. I wanted food to be no big deal to me like it is to everybody else. I wanted something fairly permanent. I wanted to be a good example to my daughter. I wanted to active with my daughter. Those are the reasons I decided to have surgery.