IndioGirl55

Good Morning Gang.. All your talk about cakes - I guess Andrew was in the mood for one too - he made cupcakes last night then proceeded to tell me how good they were.. Well I had one - then asked him to cover them up and put them in his room (he's so good - he did it)- there was frosting left over - I threw it in the thrash but then took it out and ran it under the faucet to wash was left in it out.. My Mom didn't bake bunny cakes - we had easter baskets with candy and egg hunt - My Mom's suicide attempt when I was 5 when I found her on the floor w/wrist slit must have been right before easter - cuz I remember my Aunt coming over to watch us (guess my dad went to see my mom in the hospital) on Easter morning and we she brought robin eggs (my 1st time having them) and that was the 1st easter we had store bought baskets - my mom always made our baskets.. That's my Childhood memory of Easter - Guess not the greatest.. Eva - Hugs to you on the food struggles - I guess since I don't eat out often - I don't have too much of a problem and I cook separate for myself - I cook for Andrew - but we like diff foods - Well except for last night he wanted fried chicken - so I made him some and then I made me a one pot wonder with the rest of the chicken - didn't bother me - I had a bite but that was it - I know that if I want to be healthy I can't eat that stuff - it's not about diet - it's about healthy for me.. Jodi - don't beat yourself up over the roll - no biggie you can have them every now and then just not every day - just not every meal... Apples - why a cat scan?? What are they looking for?? Julie - Glad you got to meet DD BF - hopefully they will slow down - but you know some pple get married right away and live happliy ever after... Great - Never been to Hawaii - Think I will have to try it .. Enjoy - I've been to Glennwood Springs - my Xstepson lived in Grand Junction - we went there to pick him up and put his bro in a rehab in Glennwood Springs - had breakfast or lunch their in some salon type place - it was beautiful area - isn't it where Doc Holiday is buried ?? Charlene - You are doing so well - Am very proud of you.. I went to the gym this a.m. cuz of that cupcake :0) have washed the back patio off - it was a mess from all the wind/dirt we had the other day - Need to go finish cleaning up... CBL

Melissa - Hugs Hugs Hugs... #1 Food isn't the answer - #2 You are in a good relationship now (I assume) so leave the past where it belongs - in the past... Since you have bs issues - you have to watch the carbs - you know this - it's ok to have some - budget a little into your diet every day - I have to have some - so I usually save them for dinner when I am the weakest. Measure 1/2 cup of whatever and eat that - and no more - throw the rest away so that you aren't tempted to eat more or stick it in the fridge for the next day... Exercise will help - are you getting any??? Does your insurance cover seeing a shrink - this maybe the little extra help you need to get over your past abuse issues. My Mom was abusive - my DS Dad was abusive - so I have been there done that so I understand.. I don't know what to say about the attention from others - I love the complements - i eat it up - makes me feel good about me - ya I have some attention from men when I have gone out - but it's usually in a bar/dancing and I'm just not interest in getting involved - I know that the majority of men you meet in these places all want one thing - I'm done looking for love in all the wrong places - I am happy being single 99.99% of the time. Maybe that's from all my bad past relationships - maybe I am protecting myself - but I don't care - I am happy with my life and I don't need a man to complete me - but again - I'm older and even our happliy married pple says if something happen to their DHs they wouldn't get married again.. I guess I am pretty superficail - I don't over analize things I just go with the flow... I live each day as it comes and I don't worry about what tomorrow is going to bring - imho you gotta live for the moment So I guess what I am saying is take one day at a time - take one meal at a time - and if you mess up - then that means that the next meal you are going to have to make up for the mess up - so that means less food - and I don't want less food - so that keeps me from eating the junk in the lunch room - and gf there is tons - I just walk by and say - I want my lunch so I will say no to these cookies - that one cookie is 200 cal my whole lunch is 200 cal and I know that I won't be full from the cookie but will be from my lunch.. I guess abuse is why I ate - I don't know - I never thought so - but maybe it is - I use food for comfort I guess it's my love.. But like that letter to food - it's the abuser - it's hurting us - so we have to break up w/it.. Make the menu for the week - allow for a small amount of the food you love - but within your calorie budget - even with the band I still am a volume eater for the least amount of calories - so that I can have the full feeling - 99.9% of the time I always eat my pt 1st then veggies then my starch - lately though w/this last fill there hasn't been too much room for starches and haven't been craving them like I use to..

Good Morning Gang Well these new contacts aren't really any better I think worse - I think I am going back to Costco today - my appointment isn't till next week.. Phyl - You sure are busy... I think we are going to have good weather - but heard something about rain?? Karla - I guess you are moving today :0) Candice - How the food going,... Well, got up at 5:30 - been to the gym - washed the back patio off from all the wind - 2 loads done - bills paid Going to go play bingo tonite - That's it so far need to finish cleaning..

Melissa First of all you have to accept that you are a food addict - plan and simple - you have to never let your guard down around food or it will take over your life again.. Sit down this weekend - make up a menu - shop for it and stick to it - no excuse - Like Beck says if you allow yourself that one thing off plan - then the next time it will be easier to to it again - you have to stick to your plan - period - plain and simple You can do this - you just have to get your mind in the right place and quit rebelling against yourself... Write this letter out - Dear Food, I’m breaking up with you. Don’t be surprised. I’ve certainly tried to do it many times before, but I always weakened and went back to you. I finally woke up and realized this relationship is not good for me. I’m not getting what I need from you. It’s hurting me, not allowing me the space to grow in the ways I need to grow. You’re holding me back. I know I’ll have separation anxiety, but I’ve stayed with you too long, way past when I should have. This just isn’t working for me. You don’t listen to me. You don’t give me attention. You don’t care about what I’m going through. It’s almost like you don’t have any feelings for me at all, yet I’ve stuck close to you, helpless and dependent. I know you won’t let go of me so easily. I know you’ll keep calling me, asking me to come back. But please, let me go now. In the beginning you were always there, ready to calm me and soothe me, but it went too far. I came to rely on you. I looked to you for everything. In all fairness, it was too much to ask of you. No way could you fulfill all my needs. For so long I’ve settled, afraid to go out there and find something better for myself. I need to do that. I now withdraw my heart from you so I can be free to put it elsewhere, some place where I can be loved back. I’ve tried to break up with you before. This time it’s real. I want to be on the cutting edge of my own life, and I can’t do it while I’m still tied to you. Thinking about being free scares me, but I want it. I must have it. I know I’m brave enough at last. I know I’ll long for you. I know I’ll think of you a lot, especially during those hard times. I know I’ll be tempted to come back to you. But this time I’ve got a plan, things I’m prepared to do when I get lonely and sad. I’ve been thinking of other ways to celebrate when I’m happy or proud. I have remedies in place for being bored or tired. At this point you’re a troublemaker in my life and I intend to keep my emotional distance from you. So in a way, this is goodbye. Of course, I’ll still come into contact with you day to day, but let’s just be friends, not lovers. Don’t cry (although you never do, it’s me who does all the crying). I would try the 5 day pouch test before you go back for another fill - and #1 eat hard protein 1st when you get back to regular food - and if you do need a tweak they can put in 2 of the 4 they took out... What's your drug of choice (food) - starches - sweets - high fat ?? What did you eat at Ihop.. Personally I avoid eating out too much as it is when I have the hardest time making good food choices.. What was the reason you got banded??? Why did you resort to major surgery to help you loose weight - Why do you want to lose the weight.. Give us the reason... You can do this girl - you have started it - you are just rebelling against yourself - Why - you know that answer we don't - Yep this losing weight is hard work - it's hard to change our way of eating - but it's do able -

Sweetie - It's ok to be all about you - your life if all about you that's what we are here for.. Hugs I missing your Dad - Wish I had some great words of wisdom - I still miss mine and he's been gone 18 yrs this June.. What a lovely quilt Candice... Keeps your hands busy so you cant eat :0) Karla - glad they are working with you... Yep midnite hell they won't even know - you got the keys right Well went and got my contacts adjusted but had a hell of a time getting the left eye in - so I just said forget it - I will deal with it in the morning- I irradiated it - so will let it rest - the one thing I can't get is how to tell if they are inside out or not.. Got Andrew fed - dogs feed and my dinner is done - one pot wonder - chicken zucchini bell pepper onion rice corn in spagh sauce.. Phyl you still busy with your good bye parties - at least today wasn't as bad as they said it was going to be... Tomorrow nite going to go play bingo

Good Evening Gang Yep Eva - as you on this journey - you will start noticing these things more and more - You are on your way to being not one of them.. CHARLENE - WTG GIRL - YES GOLD STAR 8 OF THEM !!!!! This is what you need - this motivation will help keep you on track.. Deb - Congrats on your 4 lbs - even with the extras - but the combination of that and exercise is what's doing it - but girl - my dad & mom - depression parents 1920 & 1930 - my mom from texas they were poor - I grew up w/clean plate - straving kids in Africa - throw the crap way !!!! Karen thanks for the artical - I am going to email it to him ;0) Julie - Laurak - Linda - Melissa - Jewel - Judy (where are you) who am I forgeting - don't mean to but Gang - I'm sorry - but it's 8:11 and I need to go eat - work is a b - I am never going to have any free time - I'm off friday and tomorrow I don't go to the gym - so I promise to write more.. xoxox Janet

Karla He was saying it's mental not physical - He doesn't get it - he isn't obese or never has been - his theroy is that most obese pple have been abused in some manner. I think there are studies that predispose us to being obese just like alcoholic's or druggies - food is our drug of choice - he is saying we can live without drink or drug but that we can't live without food - so that it's not a physical addiction again he doesn't get it on the level we do.. Candice this is great - going to have to read it when I have more time.. Phyl you were a busy girl yesterday - homeless and all and with this ugly wind - at least this year it hasn't been that bad.. Steph - What color paint did you get - is it all done Karri - You are back - you said you would be here :frown: Well busy at work again - I guess I am never ever going to have time to goof off anymore.. Gym tonite - then stopped at target to get contact stuff - don't know which is the best to get - so got the stuff they gave me. Go tomorrow to get them (contacts) readjusted - he gave me 40 yr old eyes - you know when you need 125 strenght glasses to read the paper --(I use 200 now and could most likely go up to 225) so he's going to have to do something - I have pretty good mid range site - but distant and small isn't perfect - Well that's about it - don't know what I am doing for dinner - chicken or a lean cusine - I don't feel like cooking..

Jodi - Happy Passover !!!! Ok gang I am going from memory here and since most of us of are 50+ you will forgive me if I forget something... Laura - Glad you are feeling better... Your DH seems like a nice and caring man - I really enjoyed him.. How Nelson.. Julie - Glad you are seeing the doc tomorrow.. Great & Apples - yes we are the shopping girls :0) - I wore the $15 dress today zebra print - my gf at work said I looked super tiny in it - to bad I can't wear the dress every day ;0). Great you look fabulous = eat up the complements - they help in not going back to where we were - I love them - they help reinforce my mindset.. I know you wanted parents around a little longer - but just be glad the negativity wasn't coming your way and ruining your weekend.. If mom was a pain to your sis - you could just imagine how she would have been w/you.. Deb - Have a Great Weekend and girl - how is the stuff getting in the house - remember your house is your safe zone - don't buy it - it won't be there to eat when you are week - I may throw something in my cart - but 99% of the time it's not in there when I am at the ck out stand.. When you are tempted to buy the stuff - read the labels (calories) that does it for me - I know how hard it is to exercise off 100 calories Melissa - WTG on logging your food - I guess you haven't gotten the beck book - it tells you what to write on those sticky notes - heck on yours - write - LBT - HELP... Eva ya our computers were down for 1/2 the day - plus we had Unum (or something like that) explaining Long Term Health Care - disability and life insurance - my employer provides the disability (short & long term) 1 x salary for life insurance (we can buy up to 50k w/o any medical) and now 2 yr long term care insurance - I purchased 5 yr up grade - I already have a LTC policy (am of the age that I have to think about these things) My trainer Idrise called me this morning - I guess it was bugging him about our discussion about food addiction - I tried to explain to him that my fear is that I will regain the weight and that I'm just as addicted as a drug addict ( this is where the conversation got heated - he said no I am diff - that I am not physically addicted to food as a drug addict is - he doesn't get the mental issue) - he said I don't give myself enough credit - that I have made the changes and he doesn't think I will go back - It was nice that he called - you have to understand - he's a know it all - (awe like I'm not ;0)... So back to the work issues - didn't get much done today - and we have Friday off (Good Friday - Holiday) so the next 2 days are going to be a "B" Joyce - well I'm a bit confused - do you just need pt on hip or surgery?? pt will be exercise ;0) Well gang - don't know what I want for dinner - have lamb but really don't feel like it - really don't know what I want.. Think I'll start w/some green beans :0)

Hey Gang Karla - be careful w/that lifting !!!! Glad you have had all your calls - I know I look forward to them on my Bday... Hey sometimes cereal is the ticket.. I must have missed something - Phyl homeless - it's windy here so I know it's REAL windy at her place Not much going on here.. Busy day at work even thought the computer was down 1/2 the day - but we had Unum (or something like that) explaining Long Term Health Care - disability and life insurance - my employer provides the disability (short & long term) 1 x salary and now 2 yr long term care insurance - I purchased 5 yr up grade - I already have a LTC policy (am of the age that I have to think about these things) Idrise called me this morning - I guess it was bugging him about our discussion about food addiction - I tried to explain to him that my fear is that I will regain the weight and that I'm just as addicted as a drug addict ( this is where the conversation got heated - he said no I am diff - that I am not physically addicted to food as a drug addict is) - he said I don't give myself enough credit - that I have made the changes and he doesn't think I will - It was nice that he called - you have to understand - he's a know it all - (awe like I'm not ;0)...

:party::frown: HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARLA :party:

Good Morning Gang Drive by - can't get into system?? So what the hell am I suppose to do :0) Linda - I have a medium & large in the flexi's - I am loving them... Need to get some more - I have 3 full body and 1 coresset one.. Laura - Yep girl - it's mainly our mental muscle that needs working on - Had a big heavy disscussion w/trainer last night about being a food addict - he doesn't get it - for him it's not the same as a druggie (we aren't phyiscally addicted to food) - but it is - he thinks its all about will power - yes to a large degree it is and we do have it - but it's more than that - I really do beleive the light blub has to go off - you have to have your ah ha moment for any program to work - you have to be sick and tired of letting food or what ever control your life. I like to shop too much to spend too much on my clothes and Marshall's & Ross can get name brand for a lot cheaper I will spend $$ if I love it - but have to love it an have a place to wear it.. Got my $15 dress on (zebra) look like a Million dollars if I do say so myself Joyce - Hard protein is very important - it really does keep you full longer - it's the food that the band works best with - it doesn't do a darn thing for those sliders. I am still learning 2yrs 9 months out - there are times I want to eat - during those periods I will look for slider cuz I can eat then in larger quainties - we are looking to fill a void - could be something as simple as boredom or a fight w/dh etc. 99% of the time I always start w/my hard protien at meals - but there are times I may eat veggies 1st cuz I am craving them.. Eva - I'm lucky - flat land for me - but the whole window weather wise - sorta stops me too - I wish I could just go borrow someones bike and see how it goes.. Yep I have been farming a little ;0) - being on the computer helps me stay out of the kitchen.. But again being on the computer is sitting on my butt when I could be moving - who knows in a month or so I will move on to something else :0) Charlene - Positive affirmations are so important - You can do this - You just have to beleive in you the way we do :0) Well gang - I gotta reboot and see if I can get into our system (we are webbed based) I got work to do CBL

Hey Gang.. Laura - Glad you are feeling better - and I am one of those who doesn't beleive in keeping your band too tight - and that you have to use some mental muscle in this battle - the majority of our issues w/food are in our heads - out bands are only a tool - not the answer to our food issues.. Haven't had a problem with choc ;0) - water will do it for me sometimes ;0).. Hugs to your Dad - Glad you will be spending Easter with them.. Julie - How long has DD known this guy - sounds like he's pretty sold - he has his own apt/house - he works and takes time for his daughter - But agree about rushing into things - it will all work out.. I didn't feel bad really about my food - it was sorta planed - and my indulgences did the trick - I was fine yesterday and today - had my treats an now eating healthy. At the roadhouse - you didn't order any hard protein... you should have had dh order a big steak and you could have had just a little of it ;0) LauraK - Yes girl you are 8 yrs younger than me - if you don't have any knee/back issues - get your butt in gear - if this former slug bug can get her but off the couch so can you ;0) and I totally agree - after a good work out you feel so much better - it gets your mind off your problems Linda - WTG on joining a gym - I do beleive you will work out harder and burn more calories at the gym - get on the weight machines - work those muscles - muscles burn more calories. Joyce - I wrote this philosophical piece a long time ago about fills - were they more help mentally or physically - do we rely on our bands to do the work - etc - I can't find it - but i do believe that it takes a while to understand what is eating too much - it's really about the foods we choose to eat and the amount of physical activity we get - dont' get me wrong the band does help by controlling portions (when you eat hard proteins) - but it doesn't stop you from eating 1/2 gallon of ice cream .. Karen - dinner or was it lunch sounds good - I'm having lamb Don't feel like bbqing - so it's in the oven - got to 89 today - that's a/c weather ... Charlene - how are you doing - did you have good weather today so you could walk.. Lori - getting ready for Hawaii.. Eva - we are suppose to get bad weather 68 rain on Wed/Thrusday.. Well gang - busy day at work - then had gym - I need to go change clothes and ck on my dinner - I'm pooped - cbl Hugs to all that I missed

Good Morning - Good Afternoon - Good Evening Gang Great advice Steph - I like the 2 week project idea... WTG on the $$ you made on your popcorn.. Great 2nd job.. Karla - sweetie glad you enjoyed your time at the nursery - and sweetie - quit having un-realistic notions - they will close when they close - you are just going to have to work around it.. (take Steph's advice) You have no control - so quit trying to control it - you are making yourself nuts.. No much to report - busy at work which is the norm now a days - Bf - greek yogurt/granola L- salad w/3 oz tuna D- lamb chops & veggies Snacks - who knows.. Had a good workout w/Idries - and got in a heavy discussion about food addicts - all I can say is that he really doesn't understand - he does but he doesn't - if that makes any sense but again - he doesn't have a weight issue -

Ya grey may work -- I own mostly nude colored shapers a few black - and a few pairs of regular undies - but 1 is red - 1 pink (light) 1 purple - mostly nude or black - bra's the same - nude or black...

LauraK WTG on planing food and exercising - isn't it great to get new stuff - What color are you painting??

Girl go buy some beige undies for your white pants lol - or make sure you have a LONG blouse on ;0) Why !!! Take some and go for a walk - do you get anxiety attaches - sounds like you are having one

Jodi you are doing great - crystal lite added to your water may help - drink ice tea that's water :0) - I am not always good about getting mine in either - I have to force myself - if I don't get enough water - I have tmi issues :0) - today has been ok as far as water & food goes.. Apples - Target did have $99 beach crusiers that's all I want - but only boys no girls - so I didn't get one.. Just finished mopping my bathroom floor and am washing rugs Unloaded & loaded dishwasher - vacuumed my room that's about it for me today.. Phyl - sounds like you had fun... Joyce - I know how hard it is to get rid of stuff - I lived in my prior house for like 28 yrs - but I got rid of everything - even my Dad's kitchen table - gave mostly everything to neighbor she needed it and appreciated it..

LOL hell I noticed you are like at level 54 - I'm at 14 !!! But I have just started farming - use to farm on farmtown but looks like farmville is the place to be You can get them at the grocery store - or World Marts - or just add some vanilla flavoring - I use the sf flavored creamers - I think it's 30 cal be serving - but to tell you the truth - I never ever counted those calories - I have one maybe 2 max coffee a day - ya per beck those calories count :0) but I never counted it. Sounds like the ticket to me - I went to Ross got dress for $15 - black ankle pants $16 - house dress (smocked teeshirt dress) for $12 ... Apples - I love your justification - That's a good one.. Cheri - Great info !!!! I can get heart burn from water at times - especially on an empty stomach Jewel - It will all work out - I have an airmatters I got for dil when they visit - $40 at Ross - she loves it.. Well headed for the couch - CBL

Karla - Aren't you just the fix it girl - Need you here - Andrew's mom is looking to buy this house for $50k in a nice neigbhood but it has some fire damage - you know how to hang drywall :0)

Laura I am pretty sure they will pay... This is a medical necessity Well I'm dressed and ready to hit the streets/stores Lol:wink: cbl

Well I guess I can brave walmart for 60 bucks ;0) On Sunday walmart if full of families *from grandma to grandkids* Melissa - WTG - you can do it... Charlene - You rock girl keep it up !!! Instead of farming (lol) get out and move :0) !!! Well I am going to practice what I preach - I am getting off my butt and going to get busy - sitting here on computer - farming on fb and talking on lbt nothing is getting done :0) and not burning many calories - need to after yesterday :0) xoxox CBL

Well it was small slice (sliver really) of ice cream cake (cal who knows0 - 1 snickers w/almonds (200 cal)- 6 ginger snaps (240 cal ;0) - reese pb cups (2)(230 cal) but not 1/2 jar of pb lol !!!! I am liking the dog a little more - it's the puppy thing that I don't want to have to deal with ;0) too much work - I think he would do well with a bike - may just go ck the cost of them today at target..

I'm here.... Cake cookies - lol... Great - Your DD was a beautiful bride - but I think you may have almost outshined her - BEAUTIFUL MOB !!! Great Pic's I can't beleive you went to the show last night - I would have been so pooped I would have vegged on the couch.. Jodi - I just googled kosher kitchen - and copied and pasted what I found - I google stuff all the time - the internet is a great place for information.. Keeping Kosher is alot of work ;0) - As to my furlough days - I enjoy the time off - Ya miss the pay but since I dislike my job - I like not having to go in ;0) - I have been working insurance since I was 19 -(36 yrs) and most of my job is now pushing paper - and I hate pushing paper - And my producers (agents) don't give me all the info I need the 1st time - so have to redo crap and I hate redoing - I want it done right the 1st time - they know the info they are suppose to have - but they think they have the pen w/the insurance companies and can do what they like.. Converting - Well I think it's the Catholic in us (Apples is Catholic too) we like the rituals imho - I think I was jewish in my other life - Laura - hugs hugs hugs - are you going in to get more taken out - chew ice chips... Hugs to Nels poor baby Charlene - WTG 8 lbs... Julie- Congrats too on your scales... Apples - I may just have to get a bike too - since I can't run w/the puppy ryder - yesterday went I took him for the short walk/jog - he out ran me when I was jogging - bike is a good idea - he needs exercise to help burn off all his puppy energy.. Andrew maybe able to run with him but I can't (knees & hips ached yesterday) and since Andrew is inconstant about walking the dog and I end up babysitting while he's at work - it's to my benefit to wear the dog out ;0) sleeping is better than him bugging Bear to play ;0) Didn't do much yesterday went to Stein Mart - some big sale the store was packed -$10 off coupon - come on pple you get $10 off but spend $50 - if you stayed home you would have saved $40 - but pple can't pass up $10 free money even if they have to spend to get it :0) - Came home with a pair of shoes, dress, black capri's and 2 blouse :0).. After that - napped and watched tv - Food was terrible yesterday - Won't even report it (sweets my heroin) - it was excellent Friday (most likely 800 cal max) yesterday I had way too many sweets (2000 -2500 averaged ) love my justification...

Good Morning Gang LOL Phyl - Evil twin ;o) I can relate to that one.. Didn't do much yesterday went to Stein Mart - some big sale the store was packed -$10 off coupon - come on pple you get $10 off but spend $50 - if you stayed home you would have saved $40 - but pple can't pass up $10 free money even if they have to spend to get it :0) - Came home with a pair of shoes, dress, black capri's and 2 blouse :0).. After that - napped and watched tv - Food was terrible yesterday - Won't even report it (sweets my heroin) - it was excellent Friday (most likely 800 cal max) yesterday - way too many sweets (2000 cal estimated) but I guess if you average it it wasn't too bad ) love my justification... Phyl - I bet the salmon was great - I remember it from last yr.. Weather suppose to be great until Wed - Karla you must be busy or didn't have access to dd computer.. Steph did you sell your popcorn Candice - how was your evening - did your evil twin appear :0)