IndioGirl55

Debra - I still want candy cookies etc - but I know that eating them in the quantities and lack of exercise where what got me fat - it's a hard fact that we have to face - we can't eat what we want when we want it and be thin.. I'm thin now - but that's cuz I don't eat the junk all the time and I exercise - I still have treats - but they are planned.. or if they are unplanned (and it does happen sometime) then I just make sure - I hit the gym and eat a little liter for the next few days.. I can't eat candy in the quantities that I still want to - my band isn't going to stop me either... So it's my choice - what do I want - the quality of life I have now or the sweets - most of the time the quality of my life wins - but there have been days where I say "forget it" and eat more of something than I should - but now a days that's 6 cookies instead of the whole bag - and if I do eat those 6 - the rest of the bag usually ends up in the trash - cuz no matter how many times I tell myself - I am in control - if that choc or whatever keeps calling my name - it goes... Plan and simple - cuz I know now that the stupid little devil on my left shoulder telling me - awe go ahead it's ok it's not going to hurt you is freaking lying to me... It will hurt - it does matter what you eat.. Congrats on the smaller size and the weight loss - getting off your meds / Laura - Hugs on not getting to the trash fast enough - I had trail mix from costco that I had to dump - but got a handful before it got dumped ;0) Love the pic of Nelson & the girls - looks like a wonderful day.. Yep w/Apples being going - Great on vacation - Linda gambling - it's quite :0) I went to walmart - bought food - all good - was tempted a few times but going away next weekend - so will save my treats until then - awe I lied I got some sugar free angel cake (strawberry) but I won't chow down on it like I would a bag of reese peanutbutter cups - in fact in the ck out like - I was eyeing them reading the calories of all the candy in the shelfs - a king size super peanut butter cup was like 460 cal - !!!! Made Andrew - chicken enchilldas for dinner - he's at work today - I'm having turkey meat loaf and green beans - was going to have some mashed taters - but don't have any milk .... Well back to catching up on Lost !!! - I am lost ;0) but I do think it does have something to do w/good vs evil and purgatory and changing your life path - it will be what it's suppose to be ... CBL

Charlene- I buy First too:0), Self and More and ladies home journel and Oprah - I don't always read them every month have a basket full - but they are there when I am in the mood to do quick easy reading.. What could I eat everyday - pre band - can't think of anything - I would go on spurts - a weekend eat brownie - one weekend homemade bean dip loaded w/cheese and home made chips (very greasy) then triskets w/salami & cheese. then enchillada - then grilled cheese sandwiches - then bag of candy - I just ate everything nothing particular - ate too much and didn't move.. Jessica - I think for the most part most of us are/were carboholic (flour/sugar) Not carbs from fruit or veggies. I consider those carbs healthy and as we all know healthy isn't what we crave - it's the pasta - rice - potatoes - bread - tortilla - along w/the mayo/cheese/butter that we use on them - so the combination of carbs/fats is got us where we are today - that an not moving - cuz we couldn't cuz we were so heavy and it took too much energy.. Remember this isn't a diet - but a lifestyle change - I allow carbs/starches - but limit them - measure 1/2 cup of them and allow at one meal only.. But you know what lately I haven't been craving them as much I do follow the protein 1st rule then veggies and carbs are the last thing on my plate that I eat - I rarely eat sandwiches even on lite bread - cuz I save my starches for night when I crave them the most.. You just have to figure out what works for you - You aren't a failure and quit thinking like that - when you have those thoughts - say STOP I am not a failure - that's the devil talking to me... Think of the cravings as the devil telling you to do bad things - then it may be easier to say NO - I know that worked for me and still does.. You are too tight and need unfill - ya the scales may be moving in the right direction - but that's cuz you aren't eating - you have to eat - moderation. Yes we are food addict but we have control - we really do.. It just takes awhile to convince yourself that you do - I rather not eat that candy so that I can keep what I have attained - I don't want to go back to 250 - I feel too damn good at 138-139.. Froggie - I do have reduced craving - I still get them and some days I eat them - but not every day not every meal Moderation Julie - Hugs Hugs Hugs - wish I was there and maybe take your mind off your pain for a minute... Congrats on 274!!! You are in my prayers gf for some relief from this pain issue Jodi - yes on the shopping - if you are reading labels it takes a long time to go thru the store - I still do it now espcially when I want the junk - I read the lables - is it worth it - 99% of the time no.. How far do you live from car bomb scare/issue?? I did well on my shopping - didn't buy everything I tried on - Moreno Valley Mall isn't what it use to be - alot of stores are gone.. Got 4 tops 2 capris 1 bra 1 sundress.. Jodi - Sorry about the family issues - I feel sorry for your bro - your dad shouldn't put you guys in the middle of he and his xwife crap - very childess of a grown man - I can't hold on to hate - it eats us up - I am just to idealistic - Why can't we all just get along - I am glad you are going and supporting your family and the pple you love .. Charlene - it was cool to see a celeb of sorts - WTG on your plan !!! Well it's taken me 43 mintues to read and post almost 9 gotta get moving... cbl

Good Morning Gang... Up at 6:30 - did my farming - my latest transfer addiction - my nuts/bolts ;0) - gotta read the paper and go buy some food.. I'm flying in 7/1 leaving on the 5th.. I ck'd w/Karri - she's still coming gotta find Phyl's address and send it to her.. Belated Happy Bday to Tracy... Ya it was neat to see someone from Idol - I saw this guy w/glasses and I just blurbed out his name like I knew him - he most likely said who's this old lady yelling Andrew.. He was w/his gf (see was on tv looke filliapeno and a little boy) It's funny you feel like you know them - I liked him - he did need to go but he did sing ok and he did make it to the top 10 and will be on tour w/them.. Well, gotta get moving it's 8 ;0) cbl

Hey Gang!!! Back from my day w/debbie and her DD - Didn't buy everything I tried on - 2 pairs of carpi's 4 tops 1 sundress - Sears had great deals - burlington coat factory too - Alot of stores are gone from the Moreno Valley Mall - Wasn't that great - I think we spent most of our time in Sears - Got a Dr Rey bra - I liked Macy's a little diff than ours... But again mall wasn't what it was 8 yrs ago Had bf at ruby's dinner in Cabazon 2 eggs sunny side up and a few bites of tatos - then at the mall 1/2 of a bite size cinabon - it was aweful - then we had italian for dinner in banning - nice place Johnny Russo 1/2 c clam chowder ok - the top of 2 pieces of garllic bread - 1/2 italian sauage.. Candice - You owe us money - cuz both Phyl and I said that you would be getting a bigger rig ;0) Glad you had a great time visiting Steph.. Karla - that's why I play farmville on FB so much - mindless work.. Phyl - I have a b of a visa - it doesn't do that - that would be nice cuz I do use my visa for car repairs - travel - dogs etc - it would be nice to know where the $$ went - but I did that cruise - Canada - tires - brakes - etc.. it wasn't all clothes :0) I dont get miles or anything - I may look in to the American express.. Well gang - i'm pooped it's almost 10:30 been up since 5 - going to go veg and hit the hay shortly talk to you all in the a.m. OH GUESS WHO I SAW AT THE MORENO VALLEY MALL - ANDREW GARCIA FROM AMERICAN IDOL - I was going outside to smoke - he was leaving the mall w/gf and kid - I saw the glasses and said - Andrew - he turned around and we shook hands and talked for a minute - cool !!!

Well the stuipid gym was closed - no Water - who in the hell needs water to work out with weights and treadmills - just dont' use the bathrooms... Dressed waiting for debbie - Shopping ya sometimes I get that feeling - want want want - but I can just not love it ;0) and walk away - just like food sometimes I win and sometimes I don't I don't do catsup anyway so it as a side - wouldn't be my forta anyway - ranch dressing and fries anyday... I'm a mustard girl for the most part and a little mayo.. Don't do too much tarte sauce just cuz of the calories - Ya you might be melting in 85 -90 degrees - but I couldn't live in -20 degree weather at all ... I'll take my 110 over -20 anyday...

Have a great time - !!!! Hope you win !!! Laura - Kick in the butt - your sis is most likely going to gain her weight back (by all the things you have said) you aren't.. It's about retraining our heads - and she isn't doing that - you are !!! I asked the doc which would be best for me bypass or band - after I filled out a questionnaire - he said band would be fine for me - If he had suggested bypass I may have considered it.. The pple I know haven't really had any issues. Julie - are you taking your anti depressant meds - the ones that were helping with the pain - I think all this pain is making you more depressed - I think you need to camp out on someones door step - Hugs GF !!!! Charlene - Hugs on your Back !!!! Glad your Mom is better !!! Continued prayers I too am of the option if you have a higher bmi - that bypass may be a better option - but that's just due to the fact of the amount of weight to be loss - but again depends on pple med issues/prior surguries etc.. Yep it's all about retraining our brains - I bought trail mix from costco - telling myself - just a little everynite - well we all know we can't do just a little of some things (choc m&m) so threw the damn bag away - so next time I go to costco - i won't buy any cuz I will be wasting $$$$ Ya Phyl BAD winds a couple of days ago and cool - but starting today suppose to warm up 85 then the rest of the week 95+ WTG on smaller clothes and shopping in general - I know how much you love shopping ;0) xoxo Froggie - WTG and you aren't losing slowly - 1-2 lbs a week is average... Keep up the good work Joyce - lol Victoria Secret Model - hell none of us are ever going to be able to model for them - just do to our age :0) and what it has done to our bodies - but who cares dressed we look just fine :0) Good Morning Gang Well went to the gym @6:30 - it was freaking closed - no water - I thought the parking lot looked really empty = then when I got to the door and saw the not - I understood why.. Going Shopping out of town w/GF Deb today... So I will get in some walking and trying on clothes is exercise ;0)

just lost my post - hit the wrong tab when looking for weather - so here we go again GOOD MORNING... Phyl - WTG on the gym - great price for all you get... It was cold here for the last couple days - windy too - today 85 then it looks like 95 and up for the rest of the week - I guess our heat has finally arrived. How cool to see your band.. How's your back doing Karla - Yes once you have the house done - you will be able to relax more - it's hard to relax in a mess.. I know it is for me.. food yesterday - watermelon (not great) tempura shrimp 2 pieces - 1 cup popcorn - artichoke - 1 cup bowl strawberries/blackberries/walnuts/granola/lite whip cream handful granola. Last night did a spreadsheet - annual of where I spend my $$ the problem is I don't know what I spend on my Visa - I know it includeds vacations (charging air/rooms etc) car repairs - clothes etc - That is my biggest expense each month - but I know I went on a cruise - canada - texas twice (feb to visit Aunt then Oct for Funeral) - used it to pay some of my bro's funeral expenses (which I was reimburse) I gotta quit pulling out my Visa.. Well need to get dress for the gym - Debbie is picking me up at 9 to go out of town shopping Moreno Valley Mall (60 miles away) Like I need to shop ;0) - I promise not to buy anything that I don't just LOVE !!!

Good Evening Gang... Read this a.m. but didn't post - Karla - Ya I've been to bro's house - I think nephew is half ass living there - I think he's homeless - we got an offer today $125,000 cash - it went to the attonery - I'll take it - I think the balance is $100,000 on his house - it will be one last thing to have to deal with.. Phyl - I'll get you a ck coffee IS A MUST !!!! - SF vanilla Creamer (powder kind) or Hazelnut - splenda or sweet in low. Wine - I like white merlot - pinto gercio - I liked the sangria's that we had at Candice's last yr.. How far is the store from our place - I know we have 16 speed bumps ;o) Crangrape juice lite not diet or oj She (candice) skyped me tonite - she's at Steph's they were headed out to dinner - said it was COLD & windy.. She was all bundled up - they will be headed home tomorrow...

Eva - Hugs - we are both got crappy jobs right now - it's cold and we live in the desert ;0) - I'm all for a cruise - I love them. Chicken soup sounds good - I'm not sick and it does work - but ate one tempura shrimp w/wasaba and got stuck then tried to drink a pure protein shake - well - no go - pb'd on it.. I'm hungry - 1 shrimp might have made me physically full - but my head isn't and I do need more nourishment - omg love that one ;0) Oh back to work - my boss and one of the other bosses really think that we should be able to handle all this extra work - I don't know what planet they are from..

yep it is... Have a drink of the day for me :0) and some lobster and escargo..

Lori - lol - I don't hate pple - but sometimes they can be just to damn demanding - I want it now - I don't care if you have a desk that's over flowing or are in the middle of a project - like I am sitting there waiting for their calls - emails or faxes - just twiddling my thumbs.. I have most of my insured trained - but these new ones aren't there yet.. I know I have only skimmed - saw you had an offer on this house - have you found one in SL yet?? Are you just going to buy one off the internet and not look at it?? Well I guess I bought my house off of paper plans - so never mind - I guess if i could do that I could buy one off the internet ;0) Have a great time - I wish I was going on vacation - doing a 3 dayer w/gf next week - fri - sat come home sunday - so really just 2 days - but it will be fun to get out of town...

Good evening peeps Karla - not mean at all - I would chuckle too - ha ha you think you are grown up - you think you know it all - just wait... I'm that way too.. We had terrible wind last night - suppose to be gone by tomorrow wasn't bad today.. Have had 2 decent days at work - where I wasn't micro managed by Van - I actually have gotten some work done.. Food has been good for me - been a little tight - but that's the stress - plus that last fill I had.. I really can tell the diff - my band is stopping me from eating the amount of food I use to be able to eat.. Well andrew is hungry going to go start his dinner oh ya - Karla - Phly - Denise - Candice - I know you don't play farmville - but please accept my neighbor request - I need 30 neighbors to be able to expand my farm - Oh phyl tell earl too .. Thanks !!! xoxoxo J cbl

Good Evening Gang... 2 decent days !!!! Yea !! Laura - I really don't like pple ;0) I am the introvert - pple drain me - I guess that's why I haven't been posting - I have been to drained from work - I just haven't had the energy to read and post - I have been skiming and barley posting ;0) Ya that's the kind of waitress I would be - my 1st Job -working for my dad in the office - All my jobs have been office jobs.. Joyce - 24 hr fitness - costco 2 yrs $299 - I do my cardio there - they have a pool and all the classes you want - which I can join - my other gym $10 a month - Trainer w/a partner $20 per hr - I was paying $25 but when I got furloughed got it reduced to $20 - When I had my trainer by myself - it was $50 hr . Lori - Have a great vacation !!! The house will work out - WTG on your deals - going w/gf Saturday out of town to do a little shopping - I don't need to but she has bday $$$ to spend.. You know me - I will find something I don't need Karen - Yes girl we want pictures.. Linda - Ann the lady who has the blood clots - is a young 72 but since she lost her DH a couple months ago - she looks like she's aged.. She doesn't want to work full time and Van needs a full time Acct Mgr. I told my main boss - that I loved him yesterday - yes somedays he pisses me off - but he doesn't micro manage me - Julie - Hugs gf - hope they get to the root of your problem soon Well Andrew's hungry - gotta go start his dinner.. CBL

Good Morning Drive by - need to get in shower I could never be a waitress - I don't like pple lol - I would tell them eat it :0) I am not a good customer service person ;0) I wouldn't get any tips.. Jessica Hugs !!! Lori hope all goes well w/house Yesterday was a little better got some work done - hope today is productive too - I need a couple days of productive work so I can get caught up - if thats even possible.. cbl

Good Morning Gang Candice - OMG watch out for those long island ice teas - you may be on vacations but !!!! Calories !!!! ;0) Phyl - Doubt any of us will drink beer - I am a so so drinker and if I get a little drunk one nite I won't drink anyother nite :0) - I'm an all or none girl :0) - Popcorn !!! Earl and $$ knew that was coming and ya - you live on a shoe string so kids get $$$ when you die - I think not!!! Karla - Hugs on cell phone issue - DD #4 is sure giving you headaches lately.. Well time to hit the shower - Phyl - how much are we going to owe for the house...

Good Morning Gang 3 pages since I last posted - can't read - sorry don't have time gotta get in the shower in a few... Eva - Micro manage you hit the nail on the head - that's what my new producer is killing me with - I don't need to be micro managed I'm 55 I know my job if you give me something to do it will get done- I don't need to tell you everytime I complete something- cc you on every item then have to have another email telling me thanks - - the problem is for the last 2 days I have done nothing but email and phone calls - the mail is piling up.. I wish pple would just let me work and quit talking to me about the work..

Good Morning Gang Denise Hugs & Prayers on the loss of your friend.. How sad.. Karla - one box at a time Phyl - Hugs on the family feud - I know those well Candie - where are you off to now...

Charlene - Norma Jene in our prayers.. WTG on your plan Good morning peeps Went to bed 9:30 slept pretty good - wish I could get a few more hrs - but can't.. Dinner - leftover lamb chop and little rice . Have a good day everyone - cb tonite

Good Morning Gang... Ya right Karla - raise - doubt that - my boss did say something about cancelling furlough days - told them I had plans already for the 7th - even if they cancel them I will take it as a pto day.. Stress - that's what makes me tight.. Last night dinner lamb chop & a little rice Went to bed 9:30 and slept good - ready for another day..

Good Evening Gang... Julie - Ironing - sprinkle them roll them up put them in the freezer - yep I remember those days got 5 cent for everything I ironed - we ironed everything too Pillow Cases, my dad's boxers- and we had one of those rolling ironing things - We had a lady come in - she's like my Mom - Miss Charlene - when I was little (my mom had 3 kids born 55 56 & 58 (lost one in 57) so I guess she needed help for her mental stablity ;0) - but in like 64 I remember ironing - I don't do it often - I usually iron as needed - I have to be in a mood to do it and I guess last night was one of those - but it's not all done ;0).. Hugs on the pain - I would call the nuro doc and cry to them to see if you can get in sooner - Hugs & Prayers for you and Mimi Laura - I'm a cannibal ;0) but like my veggies well done :0).. Ya I guess they had a bad tornado in OK I think - I haven't watched the news - I didn't get to sleep til after midnite last night - even with the lack of sleep the night before - I hit the snooze 3 times this morning - I haven't hit the snooze in 15 yrs... it's 9 now and I really should be heading for bed.. I'm beat.. Apples - lol - my DS & GS are picky eaters - so it doesn't bug me - but they eat beef - DS doesn't eat fish -GS does - but they are both meat & starch pple - no veggies. We had lamb usually just on Easter - I remember lamb curry when I was real young.. Well gang - I gotta get to bed - Work - well the lady who works w/my #2 Producer Van - the one who broke her wrist a couple of weeks ago - Ann who's 72 - well she's in the hospital - blood clot - going to be out for some time - in fact they are going to look to replace her cuz Van need a full time account mgr - well in the mean time I get her alphabet - A TO K.. Yea Janet - More work!!! Well - can't keep the eyes open - ya right the minute I hit the bed they will open right up will ck in tomorrow - God willing Hugs & love to all.. ok Linda my next FF is 5/7 - going w/bff Candy to Temecula - they have an old town area and the a casino we will hit - a girls weekend - leave friday come home sunday - looking forward to it..

What a frustrating day !!!! Hugs !!!! I didn't pb last night but had spasm - had tempura shrimp from costco - ate 2 and that's all she wrote.. Don't know what I am having for dinner yet BF - zip - I know bad girl - lunch 3 tempura shrimps w/some wasaba sauce and 1/4 cup creamed spinach from Friday night.. Hungry and tired.. May just have eggs

Good Evening Gang... Well Phyl my last car I really got on the internet... it was the end of the month 9/27/05 and they had to get rid of 30 cars - back then they weren't dealing on Chrylser 300C cuz they were so popular - pple were paying full sticker - I think I got $3500 off mine and about $7000 for my Chrylser 300M That Andrew had recked and took 6 weeks to fix - - it was a good deal and fast.. Just about to hit 46000 miles - and it will be 5 yrs old in Sept.. Karla - Ya I went to the gym Saturday morning - and worked out w/Idrise - he was taping in infomercial for the dvd's he's going to be selling - so he missed Monday & Wed - - Monday did treadmill and Wed met my work out partner Vickie and we did arms - Sat at 8 was weights legs... Just got back from the gym - we did arms tonite - I am pooped can't hold my eyes open - had what like 3 or 4 hrs sleep on Sat night - then last night didn't get to sleep until after midnite - I hit the snooze 3 times this morning - I HAVEN'T HIT SNOOZE IN 15 YRS... Guess what now - Ann the other lady who works Van's accounts (the one who broke her wrist last week) has blood clots and is in the hospital - she's 72 and just had surgery on that wrist - Well she's going to be out for at least 6 weeks - so now I have her stuff from A-K to handle too... They are putting an ad out to look for a replacement for her - Van needs a full time account manager so he can go out and sell insurance - but now I have even more work.. It was 98 here today - Phyl - tell Earl a few more days like today and the pool will be ready in no time - but another storm is suppose to blow in Weds I think with a chance of rain (very slight) Candice - Where are you guys - Having fun?? Karla on DD bf - she's been changing them every few weeks so don't sweat it - it may just be a fly by - hell at least he has a JOB w/benefits - you can't beat having a man in the service - Well can't keep my eyes open - but can't go to sleep it's only 7:15 - so guess I'll go feed the dogs..

Congratulations !!!! So Earl's not as tight as I thought he would be ;0) - Yellow interior - green suv - hell no - CV High School colors - I'm a Rajah and we were arch enemies :0) - I don't like green/yellow - Red/Blue (my hs colors) Great Pic's - well I don't know where the time went - it's 10:30 I need to get off the computer - work tomorrow xoxoxo Janet

Someone asked how I made lamb chops - I just remembered as I was bbqing Andrew's hamburgers - - I bbq them :0) garlic salt and pepper - I like my rare - I like all my meat raw - well except for chicken and I don't like it well done - not raw like I like my lamb & beef :0)

Well I survived the day I went to sleep about 6:30 a.m. slept till 9:30 got up dressed went to costco & Target - came home took a nap (1 hrs) and When I woke up - decided to Iron for tomorrow - ended up ironing all my pants 15 pairs - now off to fix Andrew dinner - not really hungry had popcorn a while a go.. Got shrimp (tempura & wasabe) at Costco - oh ya forgot a watermelon too - hope its good its in the outside fridge.. Karla - hows the house coming - DD4 helping - oh no I guess not you said you were home alone this weekend - Where did she go off to - did she help at all.. Well gotta go turn on the bbq - Steph - How are you doing Denise - loved your pic on FB