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CONGRATULATIONS CANDICE !!!!!! WTG - I KNEW YOU COULD DO IT ONCE YOU PUT YOUR MIND TO IT.. But I'm confused too - why are you thanking me ??? TLC is that something you found on the labpand site that I posted about ??? Phyl glad you had some help with the pain and got some sleep. Ugh have to give yourself a shot - oh but you are a nurse - so it's no biggie for you... I argee with Candice - for all Earl's ways - he does have the biggest heart and he does love you ... You are one lucky woman !! Kari - I will let you know - We are planning to go over President Weekend that way I only have to take one day off work - The others are planning it - I did our 1st one and right now I just don't have the time to ck it all out - I don't know where I use to find the time to farm on FB - I just don't now where the time is going - and time is changing - it's dark and it use to stay light until 8:30 - I am going to have to change my light timers again... And was just thinking - Sept - time to re-seed our grass - omw more $$$ ... Karla - Love that idea !!! The Lucky#7 RV'er !!!! That's a great idea - we will just move from space to space !!! Darling 1-2 lbs loss is average for a bander so 3 lbs in one 1 month ain't bad !!! That's 3/4 of a lb a week - Change up your eating - cut some carbs and more focus on protein - I always have rice with dinner - but during my weight loss phase that was about the only time I had them.. Candice - it could be the Toilet paper you use too.. Have you changed recently - Did you get that new face cream when we were there - or maybe the mac eyeshadows - think about what you have used that's new - those would me the 1st things I would eliminate.. Linda - Denise - hugs girls - post when you can - We want to know what up with you too.. Me - just same old same old - car worked today - andrew cleaned house (well not my room) animals fed - my dinner is done and the couch is calling my name.. So will talk to you all tomorrow.. Hugs Janet

OMW you guys have been busy - I was just posting then the power went out for a second - thankfully I had just started or I would have been super pissed :0) Meredith - Hugs on the Andrew issues - hopefully today was a better day !! and you aren't a debbie downer - hell I have done nothing but whine all last week and this :0)... It's life and it's great that we have this place to come and share - vent with each other Eva - Ya we all have similar stories - we all have a little dirt in our closets - I have no problem sharing cuz like I always say we have more things in common with each other than what we think - We think that pple out there have "normal" lives - but 9 out of 10 have crappy stuff like us - it may be diff - but it's still what has formed us and make us who we are today - Our life exeperience.. Oh girl never drink when stuck - it makes it worse - I too tried it the 1st time I got stuck - but it just made it worse - sometimes - it comes back up and sometimes it doesnt' but I find if I bp then it opens my band - but I have never had a bad pb like some do - (they pb for hours) - for me it comes up in 1 - 2 -3 burps and I'm done and can continue to eat.. For me I usually get stuck from eating too fast and not chewing.. In the beginning it was that one bite too many - but that doesn't happen now... Laura - When I was pg w/DS I read Dr Spock from cover to cover (now remember this was 1971) he said not to make it quiet that babies needed to sleep thru noise - So we didn't I had a one bedroom appt - the crib was in the bedroom and his daddy & freinds would be in the living room playing domino's and we are talking slapping them down and talking major crap - hell my DS can sleep thru fire alarms - earthquakes - etc it takes a bull dozer to wake him up.. Glad to hear that you are motivated to get back on track - I gotta say that the unspoken competition between me and my lbt dd is what kept me focused during my weight loss phase.. Eva - 16 yr old - oh hugs - I have my 18 yr gs and if I remember correctly we are the same age - I find it harder now - I don't always have the patience that I should have or maybe it's cuz I have already been there done it once and at this stage don't want the responsiblity as much - I am just ready for smooth sailing - When Andrew (gs) turned 18 - I told him he had to register for the draft - he said ya right - I'm not going to - I said you have to - They aren't going to take you anyway - due to your foot issue (clubfoot) So the other day he gets a letter in the mail saying that he could be arrested if he did register - omw did he panic - I said see I told you - but no I don't know anything... These are the things that I just don't have the energy for.. My Andrew is my heart and in my heart I think of him as my son cuz I have had him most his life - but oh sometime's being a MOM at 54 is hard... Apples - I was a preemie too - But I weighted more than your DH - I weighed 3 lbs at birth - I had to stay in the incubator for 5 weeks before I could come home. I have seen a pic of me at 3 months and I looked like a newborn.. Hope you have a great weekend !!! Linda - Hugs Hugs Hugs on losing your GF I know how hard that is - but like you said she didn't have to suffer long and that's a blessing and Hugs on poor DGD having to get stuck with an iv... and Hugs on your abuse too.. Yep that overweight bmi is a very good thing - and before you know it - it will be normal.. I would rather workout in the a.m. but I would have to get up at 4:30 to do it - and I just can't seem to get that motivated - In Fact - I have only been to the Gym on Monday - am going tomorrow afterwork cuz I have to take Andrew for his tattoo removal appointment on Saturday a.m Git - I could use you for my dgd who's 5 - she has some speech problems - she is very hard to understand - she can't say f - s mostly .. I think my lbt DD plays that game.. Lucky you don't have to work - I wish I didn't - but then again what would I do with myself - well maybe be more originaized like Laura :0) I could become a recluse very easliy... We are glad to have you as one of us - Love the 2 boy's I got it - will explain it to Julie :0) Great - I watch BB too !!! I watch it every yr and one yr even subscribed to the live feed !!! Yes I know I'm sick but that was the year with Janelle and Dr Will & boogey - omw how those boys played those girls.. I hate that Jeff is beleiving that guy & natalie - I want Jeff to win - he's not considering who's in the veto house.. And I too wait till about 8:20 to watch the program and then ff thru the comercials and catch up at the end. The nights that it on from 9-10 - sometime just watch it in the morning to see who got evicted or who won pov.. Glad the fritos are gone - and ya sometimes we do need our drug of choice but we just have to learn to buy the small bag and not the family size ;0)... when we can't say no... Hugs - on the issues - I understand how hard they can be at times and especially the step parent issues.. Larry - I fully agree - I wrote down everything for the 1st yr and I will do it now if I have gain a couple of lbs - its those little things like the hand full of nuts and they all add up Charlene - Yes sometime the one on one is good - I know that one time when I went to jenny craig - I loved my counsler - then she got promoted and after that I quit.. Girl you have lost 73 lbs in 1 yrs - that's very good !!! Can't wait to hear how you do this week... Hugs Laura - Aren't you a lucky girl !!!! Housekeepers and 4000 sq ft for just the 3 of you... That's so good of you to give them Nelson clothing and toys - I know how much they appreciate it - we take so much for granted - Julie - Gitrdon's other boy is her DH :w00t: Glad you are feeling a tad better - and I agree why don't we crave salads !!! - Sometime it's just plan a$$ hard to say no day after day after day espeically when you have tons of stress going on - like all your surgeries no restriction etc - Well like you said - it's done and over with and now you can move forward. Well gang I started this over 1 hr ago - my DGD'S called in between talked to them DS & DD and now I need to go cook for me and feed my babies and GS Hope you all haven't posted another page and a half while I was typing this post :0).

Good Morning Gang Karla - the new kid on the block ;O) - what a great complement !!! It will get easier packing your food it just takes plannng - and don't let school drive you mad - I know you will but try not to - I don't envy you teachers at all - I would go to jail !!! Hope you all have a good day !!! CBL

I forgot to attach it - sorry - I do that at work all the time :0) I am a FIRM beleiver in keeping a food diary and measuring food til you know what 4 oz looks like and counting calories ... and that way you don't forget - the 100 calories here and there that we consume but don't consider a meal - like a hand full of nuts.. These are all learning tools you won't have to do it forever - but in the future when you look at 4 oz of shrimp you will be able to say that 200 calories - plus my veggies 35 caloires 50 for the butter - and another 120 for 1/2 cup of rice - Also you could switch out your eggs for eggbeaters - less calories - are you eating lite bread theres another 40 calories if you are - you may not be eating enough either depending on your portion sizes - hows your restriction... I think they have you blow into some machine to test your metabolism Here' the menu - Yhe timer is going off - my dinners ready - I'm hungry - baked fish (catfish I love it like you like shrimp) butternut squash and rice...

Awe Candice too sweet - I am going to let my back grow out a bit - more bobish for the winter - will be beveled but not as short.in the back.. You are doing great on your food... !!!! Yes this afternoon Paul (that's his name) was in my files looking for something and I asked him who in case it was on my desk - then he put his hands on my shoulders - I was sitting at my desk and said sorry for yelling at you the other day - I said that you - you hurt my feelings - I wasn't complaining - he said that he was just stressed... I told him I am tired of him always thinking I am the bad guy when I am not... For Paul to touch is a biggie - I have worked with him for 30 yrs and and can count on one hand how many times we have hugged.. Now the other 3 guys - we all hug and with Van we kiss - not make out get your minds out of the gutter but brother sister kiss.. I think Paul had his self worked up as to how I was going to reach to this new account cuz the guy is a butthead - but I didn't react they way he thought so he went on the defensive... We are like husband & wife (office kind) - it just that sometime I would like a little credit for the good things I do - Ya I have a big mouth and I talk back and talk shit - but he is very unorignaized and having to redo stuff 3 times is very frustrating.. - So ya we have kissed and made up :0) Car is fine - it's in the my garage where it should be my gf Candy came and took me to get it after work - and told me that her and her DH are always available when I need help - not to feel so alone or be afraid to ask for help - that's one thing I am not good at in my personal life.. I hate being needy.. Oh sweethearr you haven't been complaining I have - that's all I have done for the last week :0)... West Coast - How far west - Desert is BEAUTIFUL in the winter - just ask Phyl - she loves it here and I do have 1 spare bed room.. Kari - Won't that be great - but we would all be jealous !!! I may be going to FL in Feb to meet with my mentor thread ladies - they are trying to put something together - they are talking orlando - I told them you figure it out and I'll try and be their.. Linda - I know - like I said I love my single life 99.9% of the time - but when it comes to car things I just don't do good - and then at work they always talk about pple who are out for this or that - well hell last week I was out 2 hrs with battery issues - had just gotten back from Canada.. But I agree - the grass isn't always greener on the other side - it just depends on how bad the one side is :0) What in the heck did you back for work.. Yogurt/cereal for bf - a piece of meat & veggies for lunch - and maybe some fruit or string cheese for a snack.. Since I have a refigerator at work when I make a one pot wonder (haven't in ages now) I would cook on Sunday and take lunch for a week at one time do the same with they yogurt and fruit - I would take most of my food in on monday - then didn't have to worry about it on a daily basis - but lately it's been salads that I have been eating - make them in the morning and take them - but always have pt bars in my desk.. It take some planing and time to get use to it - but keep on doing it - it's better for you than cafetreia foods.. Congrats on being a LEADER... That's a great honor ... Oh ya - the main reason I wanted to post tonite was that I tasted that coconut curry sauce I was talking about - I thought maybe I would try it on my fish tonite - opened it - I don't like it - it's too sweet for me - I think you might like it but I'm not one for sweet meats - well I do like teraky chicken and sweet/sour pork - but no cranberry sause on my turkey or mint jelly with my lamb... Phyl - Hugs - hope they give you something stronger or at least a shot - those shots usually do the trick - heck pills take too long - Hugs Sorry you are in pain - this is one reason I haven't called - I know when pple are in the hospital they get tons of visitors and don't get any rest.. I saw that you had posted on FB so I knew you were ok.. xoxo J Steph - How things with Michael - how are you holding up... Well gang today was a better day - hopefully my stint of bad luck is past.. Well I'm going to go chill and wait for my fish to cook then eat TTYL - Hugs & Love to all of you !!! Denise - Hope the kids haven't driven you crazy yet and Mom's ok...

Hey Gang Well got the car back !!! and just catching up on the day's post - I was suppose to go to they gym - but did't get home in Grit - Yep today is a better day :0) We are glad to have you - and if I do say so myself we are a great group.. Laura Glad that both you & Neslon survived the 1st day of school - Congrats on Dad getting out of the hospital. Llike you said you know what to do - log your food.. Now that you are back home you will get back into the groove of things. Cheri - Sounds like you have restriction !!!! Larry - how much longer til surgery?? Charlene - he can eat bread - how much can he eat per meal?? My gf doesn't eat much - I would say less than me - but again I haven't seen her eat in a while.. Great - Hugs - I wish I had the magic answer :0) Well gang - I need to go start dinner - last night by the time i got off the computer and whatever else I was doing - I didn't feel like cooking so just had Cereal for dinner - tonite - fish - butternut squash - rice - my ususal - but I gotta go cut the squash and get it started.. CBL

Laura First Great pictures !!! First Day of School !!!! Love it - I'm not watching video - I am still fragile and I cryed enough yesterday :0). You need to come to my house and organize my computer !!! I have all my pics on it but it's unorganized.. I pay bills online too - but don't get ebills - well for my visa I do (I pay it off every month ;0) I dvr too - in fact too much - I just deleted a whole bunch of stuff I am never going to have time to watch - I have like 6 "Lost" shows I haven't' watched.. Those I am saving cuz I do love that show.. Yes I was thinking a while back before all these little nuisance started popping up - Oh things are going so well - well I guess I jinked myself :0) - They won't last for ever and I am good most of the time about not worrying- my fav line is from Scarlett O'Hara - Well I will just worry about that tomorrow :0) - I can be a big procrastinator - I work all day then when I get home I can get sloppy with my own stuff - I do keep excel worksheets for my bills every month so I guess I could do the pie chart too :0) - but it doesn't include my discretionary spending - shopping food etc - just bills Can't wait to hear how Nelson liked his 1st day at school - he looks very grown up and handsome!!!!

Good on Calories - Ya could be the sugar withdrawls - glad you are going to the doctor...

Eva - How interesting - having bro 18 yrs older - being adopted and meeting birth mother and other sibling.. I have a gf who was adopted - but I don't think she ever met her birthmother - and she had a baby at 16 that she gave up - I don’t think they have ever been in contact.. My sis is my half sis from my mom's 1st marriage - then there were 3 of us from my parents marriage me & 2 bro's both younger - My one bro died in 99 and the baby died this past October - My Dad & step mom died in 92 with in 1 month of each other and my Mom died in 70 - My dad left a trust too like Julies' my sister wasn't included (no reason to she wasn’t my dad's child my dad made his $$ with my step mom - oh I have 1 stepbrother) - Well when Michael died she said some nasty stuff to me that he didn't like me or trust me - My bro had some mental issues from his past drug use - he thought all kinds of crazy crap - Well what it boils down to is that supposedly Michael said that he wanted her younger son to inherit his stuff - well it wasn't in a will - we found a will that he had done in 99 (when he was really heavy into his drugs/meth) - he left everything to charity - without the will his estate would have gone to me - her - and my 2 nephews from my other bro Jimmy - Well they were pissed that their kids didn't get any thing - I tried to explain the law and if sis was dead then her share would have gone to her kids. At one point she said we should have burned the will that we found - he left everything to Charity - you see he thought he was howard huges. She said things like your Dad's precious money - well ya - operative word MY Dad... Anyway point is that she's 60 and all her life pple have made excuses for her for her nastiness – she is a mean drunk and she drinks daily.. And this isn’t the 1st time I have been at the receiving end of her nastiness.. She insisted on being co administrator to my bro’s estate – she lives up north and had done nothing – I am the one here who pays the bills – see the lawyer – has the house up for sale etc.. Well, the only reason she wanted to be co-administrator is for the $$ that she will get – she doesn’t do crap and didn’t when planning the funeral and everyone was at my house – I fronted the $$ to bury my bro – I hosted everyone being at my house for 4 days – she didn’t pay for a thing – I had more support from the ladies here than I did from her. And IMHO she doesn’t have an interest nor is it any of her business about the ranches that are owned by me, Michael & stepbrother.. Then she wants copies of the Estate banking statements etc. I know this is more than you wanted to know – the others already know – but this is my family dynamics – I pretended for a minute that things were cool between us – but I can’t continue to be fake – it’s not in my personality – I am not a good actor and if I do have to act – I can’t do it for long… I resent the fact that she questions my integrity and that she will get $$ for doing nothing and that she could attack me the way she did.. I know I should let go – but I can’t – maybe when the Estate is settled I can – but right now I can’t – I have prayed on this I really have tried to let go – but I can’t. Even prior to all this when I was around her – I was always wary of her when she drank and was careful about what we talked about. Apples – I am amazed at how far you have come and how you have not let your past life ruin your current life – I think that you and I are a lot a like in that respect – pull up those boot straps and move forward – Hugs to you I really do admire you and your courage… Julie – I bet moving the furniture really didn’t help – I am glad you are going to the dr tomorrow – take it easy.. Yep – I love having all of you to talk to – I really don’t know where I would be without you all – you all give me the support I need and sometimes it just feels so go to vent to pple who UNDERSTAND !!!! Yes – you and I are in the same boat with family & trust – I am glad though that when my dad died his trustees were our accountant & lawyer – OMW had he left either of my bros as trustees – that would have been disastrous – and I sure wouldn’t want to have been – I wouldn’t wanted to deal with my bro’s. As it was I told them when we got our $$ that I didn’t have Bank of America – do you know what – that didn’t stop them from asking – and I just said no.. Linda Congrats on you 2 lbs !!! Yes I agree with you about this whole journeys – I too never believed in 100 yrs that I would get to a size 4 – that’s why I put my original goal at 170 – I never believed I could get to 138-140 (this is what my weight fluctuates at) Yes – If you eat healthy and exercise – it will come off – it’s such a rewarding feeling and unbelievable what a healthy lifestyle will give you.. Hugs on your DH’s friend – Well, I gotta get my butt in gear - TTYL

Good Morning Gang Just a quick note before my shower and work Yes today is a new day - it will be a better day - I didn't turn to any outside things (food - drugs - booze) I did go to bed early and feel better this morning - Yes this to shall pass.... Julie - you really do need to go see the doc - what's hurting - whip lash from the accident - Please take care of your self and don't ignore the pain.. Great - Hugs on your family issues - I don't have much of one anymore - just my sis and we really aren't talking - I dont feel like putting myself out there for her to say nasty things so I just don't go there and I don't feel like being fake and pretending that everything is just peachy - I have my DS & his family and gs and my freinds - thats all I need.. Eva - thanks - Yes I am better after some sleep.. Your food sounds good - I like eggplant I usually grill it or make lasagna with it - and you will find out you do have more will power than you think you do - even with good restriction this whole process take will power - before we just didn't give a hoot - now we do - that's the difference.. Laura - hope Nelson 1st day at schools is good for both of you :0) and that Dad keeps gettin better each day.. Meredith - Yes I am shocked that you aren't a cell phone person - kid's now a days have them glued to their ears or fingers texting - You will get to cut up that lane bryant card too... and no cable - well I gotta have my tv how many channels do you get on anntena ?? You are a very responsible young lady !!! WTG Well gotta jump in the shower - TTYL Hugs to all - hope you all have a better/good day !!!

Karla Have a good day today !!! This is why I get up at 5 to sit and have coffee & cig for about 45 mins before I have to jump in the shower and be out the door at 7... I went to bed like 8ish last night - woke up a few times but always went right back to sleep.. Today is a new day... Happy 1st day at school ... Hugs on you DD going off to college - that's great - they are going to college - you have been a great parent!!! I wish my kids (DS & GS) had college mentally (well gs may go once he gets his license back but it will be community college or training school) I have never had a spa day - always to fat to go get a massage... I just got an invite to go to gs's mom's bridal shower Sat - nothing like the last minute - but that's kid's for you - even though she's 35 - she still a kid to me - like my own daughter... Yep Phyl is going to be the energizer bunny once she heals from her surgery !!! I don't know if us youngins are going to be able to keep up with her... Well, gotta jump in the shower.. Oh gang - have to tell you this before I go - I got a pm from the nicest girl - she's new to the boards and she read one of my whining post about my bad days - she said the nicest things - I thought it was so sweet - So that give you hope (don't know if that's the right word) that there are really nice pple in this world. (not that you all aren't - I told her that I have a whole new family with you all).. Hugs Janet

Phyl is face booking !!!! 6 hours ago 1st post and one right now that's she's bored !!!

Look right under the 1st picture on your left under the home tab - you will see User CP - click on that... it takes a while to learn the site for us 50ers - we arent always chatting on webiste :0) I had a hard time at first too. Heck I still get lost sometimes

Great - Well back from the dealership - thankfully I got the extended warranty - Nothing major some stupid gear shifter box - but I bet it would be $400 minimum I just have to pay the $100 deductible I haven't turned to food - in fact all I have had today is 130 caloires 12 grms pt - some good sour cream/onion Snacks (looks like cheerios but taste like cheetos well sour cream green onion ones if they made them) I'm not going to drink - or anything bad - I am feeling better already - car is in the shop - should have it tomorrow.. Hugs for your issues - but put the fritos down :0)... I'm not eating so you can't !!! [ QUOTE=ifyourstomachoffendsyou;1310677]Oh man, there is no way I can respond to all your posts. However, I'm going to Fl. if I have to swim there. Summer in Co sounds good too. 2nd fill went well today and I'm definitely feeling restriction. It is such a relief. Tomorrow school starts for real and until I establish a routine I need the band to do my thinking for me. Thought you'd enjoy this: I'm slowly making a DNR pile of old clothes (Do Not Resuscitate). New Knees--been there, done that, bought the T-shirt. Most beneficial surgery next to lapband and the hysterectomy that saved my life that I've ever had. If you excercise and strengthen your knees before the surgery, rehab is easy. Cheri - glad your fill went well - it does help - just plan plan plan for what you are going to take for bf & lunch - I usually take left overs or salads for lunch... Laura - Glad Dad's getting better - My GD just started Kindergarden to - I remember my DS 1st day and my GS 1st - I think we are more excited than them - hell I remember kindergarden - but don't ask me to remember somethng tht happend 10 minutes ago.. Cheri - Love your taco/bean layered thingie.... Yep a sucky day - but it's over - I will survive - Like I said - I haven't turned to food - I'm just sorta wiped out --- I think I am going to go read for a bit.. Apples - Hugs on your issues too - I haven't really tried to eat today - but if I had - I most likely would have been too tight... We will see how dinner goes... Thanks Melissa - they say it runs in 3's so gs battery 1 - my battery 2 - now this #3 - so hopefully my stupid car problems are over :0) Hugs on the job - thats awful Congrats Great - that should be enough for you to put the fritos down :0)

Yep Karla you are so right everything falls on us - I knew you would get where I was comming from - not that the others won't - hell Phyl was a single mom cuz Earl was in the airforce - and she was left alone with the kids a times - This is why I won't move to Canada - hell no I ain't shoveling snow at this time in my life.. No I haven't called Phyl this evening - I think I will wait til tomorrow and call - she need her rest today - I did talk to her yesterday - Maybe Earl will post on FB Well, the car is in the shop - got off work at 2:30 - tow truck got here at 4 - p/u andrew then went to the dealership - and yes I did buy the extended warranty - so I will only have to pay $100 instead of who knows what - some gear shift box something.. Hopefully it will be done tomorrow - but it may mean that I don't get to my gym - I'll see if Idrise can push it back 1/2 hrs... Ok fish ;o) - Jake's Coconut Curry sauce - I picked it up a while back but havent' tried it yet - Sounded good at the time but am afraid to try it and not like my dinner - my dinner is the most important meal to me... I can have a shitty bf or lunch - but I want a good dinner.. Today's calories 130 - 12 grm pt - had these yummy sour cream & green onion snacks I got from bariatric choice - I took fish this morning - but with all that's going on I just haven't been hungry - at those around 1 p.m. Well need to put softner in the clothes... CBL

Hit post reply - then go down past manage attachements You will see thread subscription - click on drop down and click on email notification or when you sign on to lbt - got to user cp - and every thread that you have posted on will show up if someone else has posted since you have.... That's how I do it - cuz the email notifications junks up my email to much- but what ever works for you - alot of pple like to get the email notices... give it a try...

Hugs Have you had your metabolism checked - what are you eating are you keeping a food journel - what's the amount of calories you consume in a day. During my weight loss phase I kept my calories between 800-1200 varying them - I to get up at 5 work all day - Granted I don't have kids to run around - but when you are watching tv - get up and walk in place.. Thyriod ?? that's another issue.. Keeping a food journel is great - cuz we eaisly forget a bite of this or that... Foods Low fat - sugar free for the most part and limited carbs.. I am attaching a menu hopefully if I can find it :0) Tow truck should be here in a few - so am making this short I will try and ck back later... But really need to know what you are eating - Our bands are only tools - they don't make our food choices we do - oh ya btw - how's your restriction...

Yesterday my boss yelled at me well really just spoke sorta nasty to me - he told me to bind something that I hadn't worked on and I went to the girl who quoted it and asked for some help cuz I don't do much w/the company - he told me quit complaining -when I write new business - I told him I wasn't complaining but that I am coming in the middle of this and since I hadn't worked on it - I was asking Kim for help cuz she is the one who did - he just fricking pissed me off - I started to send him an email but just left it alone - but I am going to talk to him tomorrow - about his attitude - it was all him.. Today this morning Ok - here's my day so far - #1 couldn't sleep cuz of how my boss talked to me yesterday[ just kept playing and playing over in my mind - didn't get to sleep till after 11:30 - then go get in the freaking car - It won't go in to reverse !!!! Come to work and talk to one of the other owners and tell him what transpired yesterday - car issues - etc and I start crying - then go to my desk - call the dealership - gotta get the car towed but that means more time off work and I have so much too do .. Then the Office manager comes over and asks what happened yesterday - then my supervisor comes - then the girl/kim who I was asking help from - Kim tells them that Paul was out of line.. So they go have a meeting - he's going to get talked to and I can work and take off early to get my car to the dealership which is in Cat City - about 15 miles away - so going to leave early go home call the tow truck then go to the dealership and get car fix - well won't be till tomorrow - but still - hopefully it will be covered under the extended warranty I think I bought... Like I said - sometime - the fact that everything falls on my shoulder - it hard to deal with... Today – right now I am waiting for tow truck– won’t be here till 4 called at 3 – gotta go call the dealership now.. Hopefully I cbl !! Don’t know if I am going to eat myself – or drink myself to oblivion – or just take a sleeping pill and wake up tomorrow !!! Girls – I am just not having a good time at all…

Karla - fish ?? Alcohal - well it's easier cuz you cal leave it alone all together.. Candice - I'm not falling off - I didn't eat - I am just so frustrated and tired- wait til you read what happen this morning (see below) Nope no of that stuff takes the place of wanting to eat for me - yes I do alot of shopping cuz it gets me out of the house - but everytime I pass a cinnabon place or whatever - I want to eat.. Steph - exercise makes me feel good after I have done it - but again I am so tired right now - I just don't have time to get everything done - It's just me (and yes I know I profess to not wanting a dh and I reallly dont) but everything falls on me to take care of - I don't have help... Candice there is that omega stuff in liquid form - Phyl takes it - I don't know the name - but have tried it and it taste good.. Yes it's the fiber we need too - plus it can just be the way our livers are WTF - ya seems a little be weird that you would spend all that $$$ and not use it... I guess men can be compluse buyers too.. Ok - here's my day so far - #1 couldn't sleep cuz of how my boss talked to me yesterday - didn't get to sleep til after 11:30 - then go get in the freaking car - It won't go in to reverse !!!! Come to work and talk to one of the other owners and tell him what transpired yesterday - car issues - etc and I start crying - then go to my desk - call the dealership - gotta get the car towed but that means more time off work and I have so much too do .. Then the Office manager comes over and ask what happend yesterday - then my supervisor comes - then the girl/kim who I was asking help from - Kim tells them that Paul was out of line.. So they go have a meeting - he's going to get talked to and I can work and take off early to get my car to the dealership which is in Cat City - about 15 miles away - so going to leave early go home call the tow truck then go to the dealership and get car fix - well won't be til tomorrow - but still - hopefully it will be covered under the extended warrenty I think I bought... Like I said - sometime - the fact that everything falls on my shoulder - it hard to deal with... Hugs....

Gang - Phyl is having her knee surgery this morning - please keep her in your prayers for a safe surgery & speedy recovery...

Gang - Phyl is having her knee surgery this morning - please keep her in your prayers for a safe surgery & speedy recovery...

Good Morning !! Yep Steph - I get tired of this whole thing too sometime - especially when I have had bad times (nothing terrible) but a crappy day still - Yes I want to eat - I always have that has never left me... It's just that I know that I can't and it pisses me off... I want to soothe myself with food... I hate it cuz I can't - 24/7 I think about what I put in my mouth - I think I have to go to the gym and when life does get in the way and I can't - I do feel guilty.. I didn't go Saturday and now I have to take Andrew on Sat for a doc appointment - I hate that he can't drive - it screws up my whole routine... When you get old you have your routines and hate when they get messed up... Hugs again on Michael - it won't last forever and I know that doesn't help right now.. Well gang I gotta jump in the shower - last night I couldn't sleep the whole boss thing kept running around in my mind - I am having a talk with him today.... I am on my second cup of cofffee still not a wake - Will cbl - if I can - I got way too much crap to do at work like bind other accounts on my desk - things that my boss doesn't understand - I have my work too just not his... Hoping for a better day today for all of us.. Phyl had to be at the hospital at 5:30 this morning (talked to her yesterday) Everyone send prayers & good thoughts her way - I think I will try and call tonite or tomorrow to ck on her... Hugs.... Janet

Denise OMG Girl you just crack me up !!!! You just gotta come to our next yr group get together ... Candice - WTG with the calories and protein - I hear you about work - my boss yelled at me well really just spoke sorta nasty to me - he told me to bind something that I hadn't worked on and I went to the girl who quoted it and asked for some help cuz I don't do much w/the company - he told me quit complaining -when I write new business - I told him I wasn't complaining but that I am coming in the middle of this and since I hadn't worked on it - I was asking Kim for help cuz she is the one who did - he just fricking pissed me off - I started to send him an email but just left it alone - but I am going to talk to him tomorrow - about his attidute - it was all him.. Linda oh gf after my day I really really didn't want to go - I am sick and tired of never having an evening to myself - it's work gym home - animals - andrew - lbt - dinner - 1 hr of tv (maybe) and then to bed weekend gym- gotta clean wash shop etc - Yes I am whineing - cuz I don't go to the gym on Thursday or Friday or Sunday and I didn't go Saturday - but today I was just tired !!! But I did know that I would feel better after I went and I did - I felt good - came home cleaned the kitchen - balance bro's cking account (heck I don't balance my own - I hate this crap and my sister wanting copies of everything - i think I am going to box it all up and say here you take care of it) - and got dinner in the oven - and if I didn't have all this stuff to do - you know what I would be doing - I would be in the kitchen trying to eat... But sometimes - I get sick and tired of watching what I eat and worrying about my calories and exercise - it's so much easier being fat !!!! I could eat what I wanted when I wanted and didn't move except to get more food.. It's what I did for me ... And now what I do for me is not eat the stuff I want to eat and exercise !!! Fun !!! Oh can we tell that I am in a pissy mood !!! Phyl - Hugs & Love - Prayers for a safe surgery and speedy recovery - Love You !!! Karla - I have some sauce in the fridge for my fish coconut something - but I havent' tried it yet - I hate trying new stuff that I might not like and dinner is ruined.. Well, gang - I am headed for the t.v. & my book - Talk to you all in the morning - hopefully I will be in a better mood.. Thanks for letting me vent - but being healthy is hard fricking work !!!

Hey Gang - this is a late ck in for me - but went to the gym - had a crappy day at work and I'm was tired - but went to the gym - legs/trainer - he said you look tired and said ya I am - just a crappy Monday - I didn't want to go I really really didn't I am sick and tired of gym gym gym and it just doesn't seem like I have enough evenings to myself - to veg.. but I went - cuz I knew I would feel better after I did - the first few exercises were hard - but - just like I knew - by the end of the hour - well tonite was 1:15 we did some extra abs - I did feel better - came home cleaned the kitchen - that gs said he would but didn't !!! Then had to balance bro's estate cking (I don't balance my own account I just look and make sure the there aren't charges that I didn't make) and pay bills I'm in - but like I said Feb/President Weekend - 3 nights (friday/sat/sun) ck out Monday and fly home.. I don't care were - I'll leave that up to you and Apples - I love the ocean! Kittens doing fine - I ck in on them about once a day - waiting for the eyes to open.. Cheri - did it :0) Charlene - We all are food addicts and I think you are correct in not getting a fill - you just got unfilled cuz you were too tight - Restriction is what we need - but really what is most important is our food choices.. Last night I had some dry chicken - it didn't get stuck but I had no room for anything else - and omw I wanted to eat - Ususally I can wait abit and be able to eat popcorn - drink - well - last night I knew if I tried to eat - it would come back up so I just physically couldn't but oh my head wanted more food - ate 5 oz of chicken - but I wanted more food,,, Melissa - I know what you mean it's hard to catch up sometimes :0) Oh GF you love to shop - you are always shopping :0) Your trip sounds great... Charlene - I'm bad too about the vitimans - I am trying to get better - I have them on my desk at work - I eat them when I am hungry - today had my Calcium but never got around to the multi or b12 :0) Well it's 8 - I gotta go put my fish in the oven and start my dinners - Julie - How did the fill go ???

Thats werid that you get stuck on yogurt... I haven't been on my wii since end of June... I have gym tonite - but I am tired.. I will go but I am tired.. I got sleep last night - had salad and chicken for lunch - could take a nap.. back to work