IndioGirl55

Good Morning Gang..... Yes turned most of my clocks back last night before I went to bed - have 2 more to change - I love clocks I have 6... I got up at 6 - which was 5.. got house done - now just waiting for the time to leave to go pick up Phyl and go to airport to pick up Peaches @ 3 Yep Lori - your DD is the one you are suppose to protect - the MIL is a real BITCH (they don't sensor here ;0).. To bad they live in the same city as her.. Do you like you sil?? I know when my dil though cuz she has good cholestoral and DS doesn't that she was healthier than him - Told them both being over weight is unhealthy period - it's still doing damage to your body.. Skinny pple have high cholestoral .. It's about diet and your liver (dna).. Cheri - I agree we are addicts - but we do have choices - we just can't say we are addicts and give up - that's what we did before " whats the use" Once you have gotten sober - you make the choice to stay sober. We just can't say we are addict and have no hope - there is hope - there is recovery - yes we will relapse but we have to make a concinese attempt to not let those foods control us - just like an alcholic doesn't drink.. And when we are having a hard time - we can't turn to food to soothe those feeling. Yes there are chemical reaction from our drugs of choice - but it you don't start then you won't have to deal with the relapse.. I'm luckier than you I guess - I can have some now a days (starches/sugar) and not go over board - but that's cuz I use control - I know what will happen if I go back to eating those things - I have had a few major things happen in my life since recovery - and I truly have to say - I choose not to turn to food to soothe those feeling. I can't do the all or none thingie - For me that will truly put be back into my addiction Melissa Hugs & Prayers that a new job is in your future - and girl - why couldn't you get a scholarship - Postitive thinking !!!! Not negative thinking !!! I like truvia - used it last night - it's super sweet to me..

Lori - I would never be that crude - the 1st night Andrew came home from the hosptial both Joseph & I stayed up with him that night so that his mom could get rest... Gotta say my son most likely wasn't the most hands on all the time.. But he still loved his babies.. He's very hands on w/Brooke - that's his road dog (pal) .. The problem w/Andrew living w/me when he was born is that I took over - but I was 36 not 56 so if it happend now - I don't know if I would be so hands on - age ;0) I didn't mean if she did leave the baby w/the mil that it was a bad thing - I'm just old school that's all.. Kid's now a days take babies everywhere - when we were on vacation in nov/dec - there were family with 8 month old babies - Not me :0) - well at least not now LOL - I didn't have $ to go on vacation when Joseph was a baby ;0) No she didn't say - Why I googled it - got just junk - moving to Los Angeles - getting married ?? Don't know what's true - They say she got Lapband... You know she was a lot heavier 11 yrs ago - she was real bottom heavy.. Charlene - I knew Lisa left - she's married to a hunk !!!! Yep important to know the calories vs points imho - Well, got meat loaf made for tomorrow nite - salsa made then made these date/aparcot bars bakingng - who knows how they are going to come out... I use truvia instead of sugar and splenda brown sugar instead or real stuff and I didn't have stick butter so use butter spread... I got the recipe from those lite taste of home ones I got off qvc... 147 cal per bar - but since I cut the sugar I figure cal should be about 80-100 ??? Since I messed w/the recipe I hope they come out - it's dessert tomorrow nite

Phyl - you have me confused - I thought Earl was going to the lunch on Monday - I thought it was friends of your celebrating something.. That's why I said would meet you there.. If you want we will pick you up on Monday.. It's up to Candice if she want's to make a pit stop at your place after the airport - She's leaving the house like 3 a.m. - don't know how tired she will be cuz by the time she lands in PS she will have been up 12 hrs traveling.. Just need head count for dinner really -- Hell Earl loves hanging out w/chicks ;0) Candice When are you going to NO - I am so jealous I have always wanted to go there - I would love to meet Denise - I think she's the coolest... Karla - Glad you didn't lift - Dinner sounds good - I'm hungry.. I haven't eaten today (we couple bite of prime rib) but no meal - I'm headed to the kitchen now...

Good Evening Gang... Taking a break - I have been on the go all day long - gym - groomers - costco - Winco - Target - home in between to but the stuff up picked up the dogs - moppes & vacuumed ... Going to have turkey meat loaf tomorrow nite - going to get it made tonite - still gotta fix me dinner and a few more loads (2) of wash.. Great - Winco is new to the desert - it opened 2 yrs ago - the 1st in the Desert - yes it's not convenent but it's cheaper than the regular grocery store - I've gotten good at bagging my own groceries ;0) - But if I just need a few things I run to Target - Both are within 2 blocks - Stater Bros is on the other side of town - but I still have to go there from time to time since neither Target nor Winco carry some of the things I like (lite cran grape juice for one) MIL is protecting her baby... Was she wrong yes - but her son is her baby ... She was rude... SIL was insensative to your DD.. The whole baby thing - some men aren't good at it.. It's the women's job as far as they are concern especially if she nursing (another reason not to nurse imho ;0).. I don't think I would leave my week old baby with anyone... Maybe to go take a shower but not to leave the house.. As far as advice (hers) well - gotta say I'm that way too - now a days having a baby is so much diff than back when I had mine - they do things totally diff and of course if our kids came out ok - why change.. Hopefully they will bring her some dinner back - I would be pissed at my dh if he did that.. Cheri - I don't think all carbs are the devil food - it's just to learn moderation - I think you have to have a balance diet - which is going to include some carbs.. I think that's the secert learning that you can in somethings in moderation after you have the hang of it.. Carb to me Starch ;0) Hugs on DD being so sick - good that she's asking for help.. Continured Prayers Today's topic between trainer me & workout partner was about diet aka healthy eating not dieting as workout partner is trying to lose a few lbs.. We are spring in the Desert - 80 's this week - I'm glad cuz Linda is from Wisconsin and Candice Canada - they are going to really love the weather.. Well gotta go fix some dinner - glad I am on vacation next week - cuz losing an hr is hard when you have to get up 1 hr earlier and when the clock says 10 p.m. your body think it's 9 pm and it's not ready for bed Charlene - that's the only time I would ever go to Walmart - I hate our walmarts on the weekends... WTG on walking and Water :0) Oh Great - Did you know Patti Reilly??? (qvc) she left yesterday.. I liked her...

Good Morning Peeps Can't beleive I'm the 1st one to post - either Charlene or Linda are here 1st thing in the morning :0) Well I have a busy day - gym @ 8 - Dogs go to groomer @ 10:30 (you should see me with all 3 dogs - bear trying to mark everything - they get all tangled up - it's pretty funny) Need to go to Winco & costco - home put all the stuff up and chill I hope for a while..

Good Morning Peeps... Karla you are up early on a Saturday - my dogs woke me up or I would still be asleep.. You ar getting your camera today right - you are going to become a phototoghaper like Phyl :0) Phyl Ya I guess living in the RV that long that close to Earl would be hard LOL - I don't know if I could do it no matter how much I loved someone - tha't too close quarter for me .... Ya over cooked fish isn't good - I have over cooked mine sometimes - I think it's why I like the catfish from Winco instead of Coscto - it's thick and 15 minute is just about the right time to bake it.. By the time I finished making beds - wiping down light switches etc I was hungry but in no mood to cook so my dinner consisted of popcorn & ice cream (sf) calorie wise I was ok for the day but nutritionally - omg terrible and I have leg workout this morning - going to have to make myself eat some kind of protein.. Well today gym - dogs - winco - costco - home to put all the food up ;0) Phyl I will pick you up tomorrow about 2 ok.. Is Earl going to come to the house for dinner tomorrow nite - have you figured out your schedule ;0).. Well gotta go look for some protein - I am going to need it for gym this morning

Great - Hugs for all that waiting and drama OMG I would be fit to be tied.... I don't have a lot of Patience - Tell DD that it's better to get the light at home and keep DGD under it - that's better than going back to the hospital - that's what they use to do in the old days - my gf had to take her baby back to hospital for like 3 or 4 days - She's home - the light will do the trick.. Well got one bed done - one more to go - got light plates all wiped down - guest shower cleaned.. Load of towels in the wash - Hungry - going to go eat dinner

Phyl - I was so pissed off at him - I told him so too - I told him he owed me an apoligy.. I told him I didn't complain when I had to move - I didn't complain when I got his account - I told them thank you about our health insurance - I haven't bitched an moaned to them about no 401k contributions - or the furloughs - I understand times are tough and cuts have to be made - If I had been a smart ass I could understand but I wasn't - it was a simple statement no malice indented.. He did apoligize in a way.. He's heard rumbling that a couple pple don't like the new health insurance.. I was and can be a smart ass to them sometime - but truly I haven't been in a long time - and it's not really being a smart ass but pointing out the obivious - just like I am here - I am not a sugar coater - it's just not me - It's hard for me to sugar coat things - a nail is a nail - so why am I going to call it a tack... Also he said that he was spending $80K to update the computers - well the way I heard it - we were getting them cuz we changed financed companies - See this is what I mean he acts like it's him doing it and it's really not - it's an incentive from a finance company (this is what I have been told anyway).. I totally agree about having the tools to be productive - I mean right now this new computer is so much faster - I'm not sitting there waiting for screens to move.. Once we get the 2nd monitor it's really going to speed things up. It's to their benefit to have up to date equipment so that we can do more work in less time - but they don't do the work we do - they don't have to get up go scan (which is taking forever now) then go back to you desk - back and forth back and forth - waste of time - but they are stuck in the past - if it was up to me we would be paperless - but they are too old school to move in that direction.. Yep I couldn't help the Sarah Palin comment LOL - Just thought of it - I bet she take credit for Marcy's school district LOL.. All that traveling - no time for surgery - you are ready to go home?? That's unusual - you normally hate leaving the Desert.. Well got Candices sheets wash (tide ultra sensative - double rinsed) and on the bed - Linda' sheets are in the dryer.. My sheets are done and on the bed - tomorrow shopping - I got $300 rebate from American Express I gotta go to Costco tomorrow to redeem it.. That's stupid I thought they would just send me a check.. Well didn't take anything out for dinner - getting hungry - don't know what I am going to eat - Lean cuisene ??? Karla - Think you need some sunshine or anti-depressants girl.... I have been taking my vitimans since the 1st of the yr regularly and I am feeling better - a little more energy.. cbl

Good Evening Peeps... Laura - I really wish I could find that post I did ages ago about fills being more about the phyiscoligy than the physical affects - like taking a placebo.. I'm not saying that fills are necessary - but I don't think that you should rely on them to lose the weight for you - Like I said - I am at sweet spot - I had 1/2 sandwich for lunch today - this great nutty whole wheat bread 120 cal for 1 slice - 6 slice turkey -3 slices avocado and lite mayo I ate the whole thing at 11:30 and I did just fine - I am getting a little hungry but nothing that a few nuts wouldn't cure... But again I'm one of the lucky ones I think cuz I never had a problem with getting to my sweet spot - got to it in 3 fills - went 2 yr without one (from Jan 08 - got a tweak last Jan 10) and nothing since.. I sure in the heck don't need one - sometime I think I could use a little unfill ;0) especially like last night ate 3/4 of my pork chop and 2 asparagus - wanted more :0)... I have always been able to eat pizza - never tried a submarine sandwich or hoagie or even a hamburger - theses things are what got me to the place where I needed the band - so I just don't do them - I miss a submarine sandwich form Ciro's they are the BEST or should I say were :0) Lori - Carotidynia is a form of vascular neck are face pain in which the vascular change occurs in the carotid artery in the neck. The disorder is not uncommon, and most patients have a prior history of migraine. They present with pain in the neck and face, and are often thought to have a disorder such as chronic sinusitis or trigeminal neuralgia. Diagnosis can be made from the type and location of the pain and the finding of a tender and swollen carotid artery on the same side. Carotidynia responds to the prophylactic medications used for migraine, often disappearing in weeks or months. In some patients the syndrome may become recurrent or chronic, with a variable response to medication. Well don't know what to make of this - cuz you don't say that you have migraines?? Why doesn't DD buy one of those Sun lamps - that's what the hospitals use... I guess I take for granite our sun and warm weather - 88 today per my car - wonderful weather Jessica - Have fun on your cruise - glad you dh is ok - WTG on your 5k Phyl - LOL thanks for needing me ;0) Well need to go strip the beds and start the laundry - tomorrow gym @ 8 dogs to the beauty shop 10:30 - Winco Shopping - costco shopping - home but it all up and then relax till I have to leave at 1:30 on Sunday to pick up Phyl to head to the airport to pick up Peaches.. So will cbl

Good Evening Gang... Home from work - no work for a week !!!! Work wasnt bad - except I got pissed off at one of my bosses - i made a casual comment that if we had scanner at our desk - that we would be complete - he took it as i was being negative - nothing is never enough... I told him I appreciate the new computer - was just saying that after my 10th trip to the scanner that it would be nice and we would be completely up to date. He really pissed me off... I was negative - I made a simple statement that was it.. Phyl - I'll keep it (survivor) for you... How did the doctor go.. Candice are you packing :0) Karla - what are your plans this weekend Marcy - You live in Al - LOL Sarah Pailin can you see russia :0) LOL I couldn't help my self LOL

Good Morning Peeps Thanks Melissa - sometimes I feel preachy LOL - I guess it's cuz my light blub went off and IMHO its not about dieting - it's just about eating heatlhy - plan and simple and exercising too.. Well not much to report since last night - Andrew was here so I cooked for him too - didn't make one pot wonder instead just fried porkchops (in just a tad of oil) had 3/4 or pork chop and about 3 asparaguss - he had Pasta with his. So for lunch today - will have a salad.. Yep Cheri - I exercise and am thankful that I don't have any real issues that prevents me from doing it - I feel that it's important as a healthy diet and exercise go hand in hand.. I know pple lose the weight w/o exercising I know that some pple lose the weight by the band alone eating the same foods that they did before - but for me it's about health not just restriction - I like to eat and am frustrated sometimes that I can't eat more - but that's why I got the band.. Well it's time to jump in the shower... CBL TGIF

Good Morning Peeps Karla we have 2 school district who are going to lay off more teachers -it's all over.. Glad you have senoirity... Me too - it's worth something.. Only watched the end of Idol - Andrew was here watching stupid Jersey Shores -so we were visiting - I have it dvr'd but saw who got kicked off but that was it - I will watch tonite - Karla this yr Survivor is good... Gotta see if Russell went home or not - I dvr'd it too Well need to get work early - my last day Prayer for the pple in Japan and for those who might be hit by tusnami (sp)

No you didn't sound mad - You didn't miss much with the girls - Tia did good but none of the girls were outstanding.. Pia was good but I'm not a Celine fan - so didn't care for the song... I like Jacob too (the black guy) but he need to improve on his stage presents IMHO - you know I'm the simon cowell of lbt so will be on idol to LOL - I can't tell if someone is off key or out of tune unless it's real bad - like me singing LOL - I sound good in my head LOL but I am good about stage present and I do know when someone sounds good.. Asthon (diana ross jr) should have sung a song pple know - the blond Paul - he's just to werid - I like his voice but you can't understand his words ... Not sure who's going home tonite ??? I watch Housewives (beverly hills, OC, New York & miami well just started that one) so I watch mindless t.v. too :0) but not the bacholor LOL

Good Evening Gang.. Melissa - I pretty much eat like I did from the beginning (healthy and not dieting) - diff is now that I think I eat other types of meat more often than I did that 1st yr - What I remember (you know it was almost 4 yrs ago) is that I ate fish, rice, zucchini 99% of the time for dinner - bf would change a little bit - oatmeal - yogurt - fruit - eggs - 1/2 sandwich - or just deli meat. lunch was always a one pot wonder or leftover fish & veggies (never the rice) and Snacks were sf pudding & fudgesicle, popcorn for the most part I kept my calories around 150-200 for bf - same for lunch - dinner 300ish - snack 300.. 800-1200 was my average calorie intake during my weight loss phase - I still watch my starches - but am not as sensitive to them as others - I still don't eat much of them but will have some . Now to maintain - I really don't know an exact # of calories that I am eating - but about 300 for bf - maybe 300-400 for lunch - dinner 300-400 and snacks 100 -200 juice that I drink at nite - SF Ice Cream 180 cal and another 100 for popcorn - I would say my average calories are about 1600-1900 cal a day - I really don't know - but what I know is that if say on Saturday eat more than usually say I I have a quesidilla for lunch then meat veggie starch for dinner along with my normal ice cream and popcorn - On Sunday I will watch my starches - I have a loaf of this great nutty bread in fridge - I will have 1/2 piece w/ butter every couple of days - but not every day - I don't really count calories I just eat healthy - I still go out and eat occasional - then I eat what I want - but it's not something I do 7 days a week - I eat out about once every 2 weeks so those times I eat out are my treat - I gotta say for me I just am more aware or have the understanding that if I want to be a healthy weight - I gotta eat healthy and exercise.. This is why I stress so much about the whole diet mentality.. That's what you have to get rid of - OK say DS has baseball game - you don't have time to cook - so you run threw Micky d's - well you know they do have salads and lite dressings - (any chain w/over 20 restaurants now has to post their calories) you can still eat healthy even if you eat out every day.. Like one day I went to Mexican w/gf - felt like I had too many unplanned treats that week - so I had a shrimp cocktail instead of an enchilada - it's all about your choices.. I am a planner - I think you have to be.. I always plan or should I say think a head somewhat as to what my meals are going to be when I go shopping - I always buy fish cuz I still eat alot of if - but now I will have lamb - hamburger - pork chops - chicken too I ate those thing occasional before but I think today I eat them more often -I always have veggies (well 98.9% of the time) Last night - I didn't eat the pork chops that I took out - was planing to have the left overs for today's lunch - but instead last night I had tuna salad (lite mayo mustard onion lettuce) and lite pringle 17 for 140 cal - so I had nothing for lunch today - so last night was thinking what are you going to have for lunch today - last night I figured out that I would make another can of tuna and take it to work- Snacking during the day has never been a big issue for me- Even when I was 250 I didn't keep food at my desk cuz I know I would eat it and I knew I was eating too much anyway - Am I hungry between meal yes some times and especially around 11:30 - I think I can't make it till lunch.. And some days if I have had my bf (200 cal) then between bf & lunch - I might have these pt snacks I get from bariatic choice (sour cream/chive thingies like cheero's 130 cal 12 grms pt) I may eat the whole bag or just half.. or some Jerky - I do have somethings at my desk - but they are healthier choices and they don't call my name when I am not really hungry like a bag of reese Peanut Butter cups would - and we have vending machines too - but no way in God green earth am I going to go eat 400 cal for a freak snack - that's a meal too me - So that's really where I do count calories - is for junk - I look at the serving size and calories and say do I want to waste my budget for them - the answer 99.99% of the time is no. I save my snacks for nights - cuz I know I don't have the will power not to eat at night.. I haven't been doing too many starches w/my dinner - some nites its just meat/fish veggie - and the dessert a cup of sf ice cream (180 cal) and maybe popcorn. I don't feel deprived 99% of the time -there are times I wish I could pig out - I wish I would let myself buy a bag of candy and eat the whole thing - but you know what - I worked to hard to get where I am to go back to where I was.... I just won't do it.. So I do have will power - I know the extent of that will power and I work it.. I go on vacation I eat what I want and indulge in Desserts (real ones that have more that 200 calories) but when I come home - the buck stops - Just like when I go to our get together or my lucky #7 - I will indulge a little more than I do at home - but once I'm home it's back to my routine eating - so your question was - am I a routine eater - 2 hrs later yes I am.. Do I get bored with it yep sometimes - but hell when I weight 250 i got bored with what I ate then too.. I eat what taste good to me - I really do enjoy my healthy meals - just as much as I enjoyed eating high fat and high sugar.. OK Laura - Love here - but just cuz you could eat bread why did you make the choice to... I would be hungry too if I just had liquids - hopefully tomorrow you can have some healthy food.. I'm on a roll - I am sorry gang - if I am coming off too preachy - I have perfect restriction and I know that I would not be the weight that I am today without the help of my band - but I also know that even with the restriction that I have today - it I chose to eat differently - it wouldn't matter if I had the band or not - I could weight 200 lbs again.. A lot of this has to do with your food choices and exercise, yes the band helps but it doesn't do the work.. I can eat bread - but I choose not to most of the time - I think if you can sit down and eat a 8 oz steak w/no problem - then yes you need a fill. This is why my signature say - Eating Healthy + Exercise + Band = SUCCESS - I truly believe in this... It's worked for me and I am no diff that any of you... I want to enjoy the years I have left on this earth - and that wasn't happening at 250 lbs - So for me - I won't go back - if GOD forbid - I lost my band - I most likely would gain a few lbs - but I believe in my heart that I would never be obese again.. That's because I know that my old diet - high fat - high sugar and no exercise is what got me there in the first place -it wasn't just my portion sizes it also had a lot to do with the foods I ate - Would I be a 4 w/o my band maybe not - but I am sure that I wouldn't be shopping at the BBW stores anymore.. Ok enough preaching .... Beside I have to go cook my dinner - so I will have something for lunch tomorrow.. Pork chop cubed up with some onion cabbage bell peppers and soy sauce - Maybe a little rice don't kn ow yet will see how I feel when I start cooking - Food today - BF yogurt/fruit - Lunch Tuna Salad w/lettuce - snacks so far 8 peanuts Glad Julie is recovering - she will be fine... She's one of us with or without her band - no matter what size she is.. We love her no matter what

Good Evening Gang What a shock Marcy to hear from you... Sorry that you haven't been able to lose more weight - Yep IMHO it's more about our brains that our stomach - We gotta make the whole lifetime lifestyle change in our eating and exercise habits. 60 lbs is a large chunk of weight though - Good for you I forgot how tall are you for 180 to be your goal - I thought you had your TT like a year ago.. Wouldn't think you would need a whole body lift from 60 lbs weight lost - I can understand the apron part but not a whole body lift - Sounds Painful to me.. It's a good thing you got the $$$ to spend for those surgeries.. Glad you are feeling better physically - hope the mental part gets better once you get more sun.. Phyl - I can't believe you watch the Bachelor OMG but of course I will DVR it for you - You can watch it when I'm in the shower LOL I can't stand that show... Don't know why anyone is that desperate to get a husband and to embarrass themselves in front of the whole wide world - JMHO LOL Well not much to report Andrew came and cleaned today - he works tomorrow - did a so so job -but now give me more time to concentrate on the little things he never does - window sills etc ;0) CBL

Good Morning Peeps... Oh I disagree Candice - I love Scotty and I am not a big Country fan - I like it - Hell I love Trace Atkins ;0) but not my fav genre - But I love Scotty - For me last night these were my Fav - Casey (hate his look but he's goo) James (again I am not a rocker chick but I think he's very good) Scotty they were my top 3 guys who I think really did a very good job - I also love Stefanio but didn't care for his song last night and Paul - I think he could go home IMHO Girls - Well none really stuck out to me - I love Pia - but don't like Celine - it was just alright.. Lauran Country girl did awful - I think TIA has a beautiful voice I think she will stay - Don't think Ashton (diana ross) did very well and I love her too - I really don't know who's going home tonite... Scales this a.m. 135.5 !!!! Candice I shrunk a long time ago - was 5'3.5 not about 5'2 - but I claim 5.3 LOL Karla - you may have a Halloween baby ;0) Phyl - LOL you and your parties - Earl know you don't like his smoking - so that's why he doesn't do it infront of you - as long as he's not saying he quit - I wouldn't sweat it.. Well I'm at work - gotta get to it ttyl

Apples glad you has a nice lunch... If you want a TT go for it... Sandy - Can't wait to hear about yours Me I'll live w/the tummy - I would do Face 1st then Arms - but I don't like pain ;0)

Good Evening Gang Hugs & Prayers for Julie !!! One on my #7 is having her band removed too - partial erosion.. Melissa - Hugs on fight w/DH - but good that you did talk about it- I know that w/my own DH - - on needing a fill - if you eat 4 oz of hard Protein are you physically full... That's the test IMHO.. I think we all eat to a degree softer foods so that we can consume more food - not just junk but veggie too. Take tiny bites chew well and eat slowly and then sit and thing about your stomach - does your pouch feel full.. This doesn't mean you aren't still going to be hungry but your stomach is actually full.. Try it and let me know - OMG my post was really bad spelling ;0) I was too tired to spell ck LOL - I think you have to find out the reason you are killing yourself before you can get better - what's inside you making you eat things you know you shouldn't - I am praying that this shrink will be able to help you get to the bottom of your issues.. Hugs Hugs Hugs.. Cheri - Co-dependency - I truly applied it to our relationships w/an alcoholic or drug person - but I see where it can affect other areas of our lives - I can't say I am a pple pleaser - Yes I like to make pple feel good - but not to the point of putting myself 2nd.. I have taken care of so many pple in my life that IMHO it's my time.. I'm done raising kids putting myself 2nd having controlling pple in my life and boyfriends who were addicted to drugs - hell my xdh was a rescuer - but the problem was I didn't need rescuing - he might have thought I did but - I sure in the hell wasn't helpless and I think this is why the marriage didn't last Like Melissa I truly believe that my eating was my control - it's what I did for me after doing for everyone else - Only other pple who have this issue understand - I know my trainer would say - why when you know it's killing you - I think we just put our heads in the sand - and after a while it's just to hard to think about losing the weight - ie this is where the band comes in play to help - but it's not the magic cure all - it's only a tool to help us - as I alway say the real work is up to us.. Food is our drug of choice and a non food addict really just doesn't understand this.. It's what I controlled when I had no control over all that was going on in my life.. Lori - I am glad you are standing up for you... I love the pic on fb of your GM holding her GGDGD great great darling grand daughter lo)... Apples said she could see the diff in my face - I can a pit - but pictures don't really show the diff that much imho yep enabling and codependency go hand in hand.. Charlene - botox can take a week to come to it's full effect - the filler is immediate - but the swelling last for a bit too.. The only problem with doing this - is you are going to want more and after a few months - it wears off -I can even see where my filler could use a touch up - each person is diff on how their body reacts to this stuff - botox really only lasted me 3 months - I am going to call an get appointment for my eyes - they are what bug me the most - still saggy - I really can't afford a full face lift - and don't want the 2 week down time - so next month I am going to call and get price.. Well dogs want to be fed - Idol tonite :0) Thanks for the props on looking like a hottie ;0) it was nice for my handsome young boss to give me that complement and wore another dress that I got when I met Peaches in LV 3 yrs ago - got told why don't you wear that dress more often... cbl

Good Evening Gang.. Yep Karla you deserve down time with all that school work - How's your tummy?? Did you find out what date you are going to be a GM??? Candice - I know a full panel blood test is like $500 or more - just to test blood ?? I'm not a big go to the doc person - but do need a pap and blood test so will go when our new insurance kicks in.. Work was work - had yogurt for bf -lunch chicken soup - I took out pork chops but when I went to the store - tuna looked good - I think I will have tuna salad for dinner instead ;0) Oh ya Wed & Thurs are Idol night - so we will be watching that... Good thing I have dvr - cuz Thursday is Palm Springs Street Fair nite LOL - Oh ya for those who don't like Eggs - I didn't mention pt shakes - I have them too LOL

Good Morning Peeps Well Linda I am in good company - I'm not really giving up shopping for lent - I am going to watch my shopping though... When my girls are here next week - we are going to Soma's (Phyl dh never lets her shop on that street -remember I told you all it's the Rodeo Dr of the Desert - but truly I got a pair of $138 pants for $19.95 so they do have sales) I am going to get a couple more bras - but that's it.. Like I said I want 1-2 more Jam World dresses for this summer too.. But after that - I'm done ;0) Our weather is suppose to be like 82 and 86 tomorrow - our winter is over... Glad we are going to have good weather when my girls are here - they are from Canada (Peaches) and Wis - so they have snow and cold weather - they are going to love our weather 3 days to get my desk clean up - had meeting yesterday about our health insurance - we are lucky they still pay 100% of employee - changing to blue cross anthem - if I pay $24 out of my pocket my ded will be $500 vs $1500 and my max out of pocket would be $4000 instead of $5000 - the only thing is no brand names meds only generics - but I don't take any anyway (brand names)- so I think I am going for it - Great thing about Obama - now insurance companies have to pay 100% well ck's mamos paps colon flu shots etc - so that's all good it's no longer a part of your deductible - even blood test when given in conjunction w/a physical - a full blood test can be very expensive Well it's almost 6 gotta get dressed for work - oh put gotta tell you this - remember that dress I got Saturday - well I wore it yesterday and one of my bosses who's like 43 (a kid to me the same age as my nephew) said what's up w/you and Diane (she had a new dress on too - she goes to bootcamp w/m and has lost 50 lbs - cuz of me;0) you too are looking good - a couple of Hotties !!!! Well that $77 was well worth the $$$ for a 43 yrs old guy to tell a 56 yr old broad that she was a hottie ;0) Made my day !!!!

Our bands are only tools - the real work is up to you - it's all about your diet and exercise - weight loss is no diff even with the band - it's all about calories in vs calories out.. If you need help come to the I'm here to help thread - we will be glad to give you some pointers...

Good Morning Peeps Karla - it takes an act of congress to post picture here - you have you have a some kind of code - urrl code or something like that - I figure it out if you use like snapfish you have one - easier to post on fb or just email - don't know why they made it so hard.. Good Luck on camera... I didn't sleep that well last night - I can fall asleep on the couch but the minute I go to bed - i toss and turn - no 4:20 for me this morning.. I agree about the time change - we don't need it any more.. Yep 3 days to get my desk clean up - had meeting yesterday about our health insurance - we are lucky they still pay 100% of employee - changing to blue cross anthem - if I pay 24 out of my pocket my ded will be $500 vs $1500 and my max out of pocket would be $4000 instead of $5000 - the only thing is no brand names meds - but I don't take any anyway - so I think I am going for it - Great thing about Obama - now insurance companies have to pay 100% well ck's mamos paps colon flu shots etc - so that's all good it's no longer a part of your deductible - even blood test when given in conjunction w/a physical - a full blood test can be very expensive Ya the problem w/our pictures are our kids going to really care .... I think Kaitin will but that about it..

Apples http://www.soma.com/store/browse/shelf.jsp?cat=Bras+New+Vanishing+Back+Collection&subCatId=cat5969283&catId=cat40089 They are the most comfortable bras !!!!

Good Evening Gang It's already 8 and I haven't eaten and I'm Hungry - Had boot camp tonite - so this is going to be a run on and in no order post Eva LOL on the turn my closet into a bedroom LOL I would but too many clothest LOL... Yep I have never had company for a week ;0) - I made up a spreadsheet of food and what we will or might do - and they are laughing at me - Well I like to be prepared that's all - I make up spreadsheets when I am going on a trip on what to pack - or I get all confused and mixed up - so I make list ;0).. Fills - Band - Eating - IMHO I think that some pple rely too much on fills and not what they are eating - and the fact that we are only suppose to eat like 1 cup food - then we think - omg how can I survive on 1 cup food - I'm full yes - but I only ate 1 cup of food - hell normal skinny pple eat more than that.. I know I myself have a problem with that - Also finding sweet spot for some w/the band is almost impossible - that's one of the pitfalls of the band vs other WLS.. I think regardless on how tight we are or aren't we do know how to eat around it and most of us have at one time or another.. It's all about eating healthy Melissa - Glad you are going to the shrink - I think you really do need to talk to someone in person - what I am the most concerned about is your diabites and your sugar intake - not your weight issues - your medical conditions are very serious and they are going to kill you - there was an artical in the paper the other day - diabetic have 10 yrs less life span than non-diabetics.. I don't want you dieing.... Ok gang - i was going to say more - but it's now almost 8:30 - I gotta put food in my tummy haven't eaten since lunch and that was chicken soup.. Meredith good luck at the doctors tomorrow - do they know iff your band went back in place.. Hugs I bet you are starving.. Oh I know pple who arent catholic and give up stuff for lent - I thought that was funny - but I'm Catholic - and I have never followed that give up something - I am going to curb my shopping though - it's out of hand.. What is codependency? What's the definition? There are many definitions used to talk about codependency today. The original concept of codependency was developed to acknowledge the responses and behaviors people develop from living with an <A href="http://www.allaboutcounseling.com/dir/alcoholism-self-help/" target=_self>alcoholic or substance abuser. A number of attributes can be developed as a result of those conditions. However, over the years, codependency has expanded into a definition which describes a dysfunctional pattern of living and problem solving developed during childhood by family rules. One of many definitions of codependency is: a set of *maladaptive, *compulsive behaviors learned by family members in order to survive in a family which is experiencing *great emotional pain and stress. *maladaptive - inability for a person to develop behaviors which get needs met. *compulsive - psychological state where a person acts against their own will or conscious desires in which to behave. *sources of great emotional pain and stress - chemical dependency; chronic mental illness; chronic physical illness; physical abuse; sexual abuse; emotional abuse; divorce; hypercritical or non-loving environment. As adults, codependent people have a greater tendency to get involved in "toxic relationships", in other words with people who are perhaps unreliable, emotionally unavailable, or needy. And the codependent person tries to provide and control everything within the relationship without addressing their own needs or desires; setting themselves up for continued unfulfillment. Even when a codependent person encounters someone with healthy boundaries, the codependent person still operates in their own system; they're not likely to get too involved with people who have healthy boundaries. This of course creates problems that continue to recycle; if codependent people can't get involved with people who have healthy behaviors and coping skills, then the problems continue into each new relationship. back

Good Evening Gang... Had boot camp tonite - neither Diane (gf from work) or Linda my other gf went - it was me all by myself -Had a good workout... OMG Candice - Peter wanted to blame you for heater malfuctioning OMG.. At my old house I use bed hop when I couldn't sleep - I haven't ever done it here - I just woke up at 4:20 thinking it was closer to 5 but trying to go back to bed after getting up to take the dogs out - for 1/2 hr - not worth it.. Time Changes this Sat/Sunday - Spring forward... At least I will have a week to get use to it..