Hey Letty! No, I don't think you wanting to give it a try on your own once more is crazy. I think we all realize that the surgery in itself is such an extreme step, we almost try and talk ourselves out of it before going forward with it. If we could do it on our own there would be no need for the surgery. There's a reason why you've gotten this far...your doctors obviously agree that you need to have this done! Don't let the jitters scare you away from the new, healthy you. You deserve it. We all do! Good luck and keep us posted.