My surgery date is 12/12/12. And I feel like you... a bit unsure how I'll handle it. I can say honestly I know I'm ready because 10 or even 5 years ago it would have been about "looks" now I am dedicated to be healthier and to feel better for myself, to be able to enjoy the next 30-40 years (i'll be 50 in July).... I'm creating "Pam 5.0" lol