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No judging or rude comments please:) I am 32 yrs old and have been overweight for 5 years. During this 5 years I have had fertility treatments babies and depression. I have gone from 135lbs to 170. I am 5'3. I have a BMI of 30. All my life I have struggled with weight but been able to keep it maintained within the healthy range. I decided to book a gastric sleeve surgery after hearing bad things about the lap band. My goal with to get back down and maintain 135. I am having major doubts right now. I am paid up and booked for Thursday. First off, i HATE the pre-op diet. I am dizzy and cant take care of the babies. I am STARVING too. Next is the aftermath I am having issues with. Never be able to drink and eat at the same time? No more wine and cheese? or beer and hot dogs. I understand for losing weight but 10 yrs from now? I am worried about complications, being on medication like acid reflux of something to open my value. I am worried about not being able to eat bread and Pasta. Like I said I understand for weight loss but forever? I dont think it realistic? My whole family doesnt support me so its easy to get they why I shouldnt do its..

Iggychic, I did my last ivf (3.5 and 1 FET total) last nov. We are done having babies.

My Dr approved the surgery because 50 lbs is the amount I need to lose but I feel weighing 120 is unrealistic. I am overwhelmed with the amount of love and support to a stranger. A few of these stories brought tears to my eyes. I really appreciate telling me it is ok, whatever I decide. and giving me the pro and cons. 35 lbs seems like a huge task but I think after reading the post I am going to allow myself time. It is so hard when you hate being this weight and have struggled. Long or a short time. But I have not tried other ways of losing the pounds. I was romanced by the idea of losing all my weight and keeping it off. By eating a cup of Pasta and being full. It wasnt until recently I truely understood the extreme of this. and how I may not be ready for even the simplest lifestyle changes. I do have little ones and I have been unable to do a lot of things with them because of fertility treatments already. It teared me up to think about missing out again. I know I can always come back to WLS in the future. It is extremely overwhelming to try and lose this weight and the thought of how hungry Ill be and the struggle is tough but I feel like I must give this a shot first. Thank you all. Seriously, it made me feel like I was getting advice from friends. I really appreciate the support. I just hope I can get my money back! Good luck to all of us.