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I would also look at the manufacturer's website - they usually have programs where the cost of the medication can be subsidized for a time - or call them and ask if they have such a program. Can't hurt to ask!

Isn't that freaky?! What is UP with that? I am really confused by my behavior. Its like I just don't want to let it go....

This is a fantastic topic! It has been a privilege to read everyone's responses and to be permitted to read the sharing of such raw feelings - thank you! I too have given this a lot of thought, and given my relationship with my Mom lots of mental space lately. As I spend time with my siblings over recent months, it is now so apparent to me how screwed up 4 out of 5 of us are regarding our relationship to food. I was pretty unaware of how bad it was until just lately. My parents each had horrendous upbringings, and did their best to not repeat the past on their kids. For that I am grateful. But I think it is inevitable that some of that dysfunctionality will trickle down.... My Dad is all about control. He eats in a very disciplined way, and keeps his weight in check at all times. Its a bit freaky the way he never overdoes it in any way - I so did not inherit that gene! My Mom definitely had a dysfunctional relationship with food, and would hide her treats from us kids. We knew where they were hidden though, and sometimes I would sneak from her stash. It seemed natural then to me to hide snacks and to eat in private and try to hide the evidence. i could get away with this behavior metabolically until I was in college. The period of my Mom being diagnosed with cancer (I was 18) and then died (I was 21) was when things spiraled out of control and I have not been able to get back into line for any sustained period of time since then. This sleeve surgery is truly the most success I've had with weight loss my whole life. Now that I am a little over a year out and have lost much of what I wanted to lose, I'm really struggling. I am hiding food again, and will try to bury my feelings with snacking, but the problem is - its no longer working for me. It doesn't numb my feelings or give me any pleasure anymore. The thing I don't understand about myself is - I know the snacking isn't going to work, but I keep trying to make it work. And I'm afraid that eventually I will somehow figure out a way to make it help me with my feelings again. I can't seem to figure out a alternative way of dealing with my feelings. So instead I'm trying to just sit with them, feel them, and see if that works. But that is such a sucky feeling! I've got to keep working the problem, and I'm not sure how.

I like the way you describe how our bodies can change with the weight loss! I know you want to hear that it gets better, but I'd be lying if I said that. I deal with it by focusing on what I have gained as far as activity and functionality. Plus good shape wear. And trying not to look in the mirror until after I get my now smaller sized clothes on!

I haven't noticed a change in pitch when taking narcotics for pain, but I have noticed that everything sounds louder to me. It will pass!

I tried it as a sample once, and went to the bathroom about an hour after taking it. I hope it works for you!

My stats were similar to yours, and I have lost 104 pounds. I am an apple shape all the way. The truth is - the stomach ain't pretty. I have to wear compression garments for clothes to look nice. It's a downer, but I will take this over going back to my starting weight any day of the week!

I have knee replacements that are made out of plastic and titanium, and I have to be scanned or frisked every time I fly. I got used to it, and make sure I build in extra time to get through security.

There are prescription medications available for chronic constipation that you can talk with your physician about trying. One option is Linzess. It quickly pulls water into the bowel, and you can have a bowel movement in about an hour after taking. These medications are to be taken regularly, but I have tried samples from a physician friend, and they work well.

Understand that one can gain the weight back with the RNY as one can with the sleeve. So you might as well focus on your eating and exercise efforts with the sleeve as a tool - you can do this!

It may be that you have to take your PPI twice daily instead of once daily. I would discuss trying it with your surgeon. I hope you get relief quickly!

My one year was 10/31. I don't feel the way you are describing. Maybe because I'm not to goal yet? Maybe you are struggling with letting go of this monumental project, and deciding what to focus on from here? I could see myself feeling that way eventually…

Thank you Gamergirl and CowgirlJane for your feedback!

I'd like to hear some feedback, if I could…as I'm venturing back out "there", I get asked "why haven't you been scooped up yet?" Or "why haven't you ever been married". I stumble on my answers, because that really seems too personal to answer. One guy's follow up question to the never been married question was "well, have you ever been asked?" That was rediculously awkward! I think some guys mean it as a compliment, but it doesn't feel complimentary to be asked these questions! Suggestions?

I can see your bet and raise you…I have had a pannus for so long that my "ladybits" have flattened into a defacto shelf to support the pannus! Its a really attractive look! I have hopes that maybe, after plastic surgery and pannus removal the shelf will round out ::fingers crossed:::

In the beginning mine would wake me up each morning, whining like a petulant child. It never goes away, but it does get better!

Feeling especially vulnerable this morning for some reason, and this thread helps me - thank you!

Congratulations! And your husband has good taste!

I haven't figured out how I will celebrate goal get, but I did buy myself a pretty bracelet when I lost 100 pounds. I wanted to have something that I would see often, to remind me of what I had accomplished.

I just had orthopedic surgery on 10/15, but I'm further out than you. The day if surgery I ate nothing at all, I just figured one day couldn't hurt. After that, I could order my meals myself, although I had to be reminded to do so! I picked meals that had protein sources I liked. I was usually not at my protein goal by the end of the day, so I ate a protein bar I had brought with me. I think it worked out well, and I'm sure the same will happen for you. Good luck with your surgery!

I did it last year - I was 4 weeks out. Don't worry - it's not that bad! I just enjoyed sitting at the table and being part of things with my family.