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Links are not working great on the app I can reprint it if it's ok...

Looking good girlie even though you are the headless six buttons Yep it took me about 40 or 50 pounds to start making a dent! But you are doing it, and doing it beautifully

Thank you butter..

Good stuff RJ! I just watched that. I wouldn't be me of I didn't add something about his bougie comment though. Bougies, while it's good that they now longer use ones much bigger than 40 anymore it's a balancing act really, you don't want to go small just for the sake of small, because to small can cause many problems too. From increased leaks to extreme gerd.. Ok public service announcement over

Wow talk about bed side manners!! I just did my blood tests today and go in next week for my year... Last time I saw my surgeon we did talk about stretching he wasn't able to give sizes it can get too. But has seen stretched sleeves the are caused by several things continuous over eating can cause some stretching, not all the way but enough to sabotage yourself.. Also sleeves not being formed small enough (leaving some fundus behind)

Yes update!!

Alex just sent me this, but The thing I'm stuck on is the 100 posts? What do you girls think? From Alex... "This forum is dedicated to veteran Sleevers who are six or more months post-op to discuss issues specific to those who are further along in their journey. You must have 100 posts in order to post here. Edit it and send back to me please. I'll post the new description and I'll post a sticky in the topic as well."

It's what I'm struggling with as I get further out.. The thinking obsessively about food.. Not acting as much as days before surgery but thinking more than I want too. Food is fuel only, I've not gotten there yet in my head.

Its part of what makes him unique and unstoppable.. He will accomplish big things. Shit he already has.. Lol I don't know half of what that kid is talking about most times He can get bogged down in the details sometimes and at age 11 sometimes puts to much pressure on himself to produce (produce what I do not know) and invent. I get him though, with his obsessive thought process. I sometimes feel paralyzed in my thoughts and behaviors..

You'd be surprised how prevalent it is.. We were lucky in the sense he had a very quick diagnosis. And usually comes with "co-morbids" Like OCD Or ADHD.. His neurologist told us years ago the OCD would most likely be the the thing that needs medication over the Tourette's.. He actually isn't medicated at the moment. He mostly just has complicated body movements. He has an ability to mask them a bit at school but let's them down when he comes home. For the most part that is.. He does have weeks when they are just bad. The medication changes him and he doesn't like it.. He is a awesome unique kid. Don't get me started I can wax poetic about him for days!!

I will cry with you. And we both will be ok

Medications! Yes.. I have the worst relationship with those. I take them.. And I kinda stop and or "forget" sometimes... That's a whole new thread.. My thought process about that

I said that because some days I have felt like my problems with food are not the "norm" around here. I guess I needed to step back and see the big picture here. Not everyone here has "food issues" As a matter of fact a lot of people here just plain old said to me "nope, I just ate big portions, and or bad food that's all" No underlying issues (as I assumed wrongly) We are all different people, different weights, different reasons for this surgery... For every person that is like me there are twenty that are not.. I guess I said "fucked" because I was jealous of the ones that just had bad nutrition.. I cannot claim that particular ignorance. Oh well, so much for the neat boxes..

Lol welcome to my crazy!! My son has OCD also.. And Tourette's it's actually the OCD that can be more debilitating most times for him.

Lol @skinny I'm checking my hot coco packs now!!

At least a year yes.. I have mentioned this to Alex recently. I hate to be bitchy about it but Butter mentioned that most of us girls stick to the 5:2 group these days.. And not the vets forum. But now that the flood gates have been open to anyone posting it's not the same. Lol yes I'm pmsing too But I stand by my words

My life, the one that got me here, sometimes it doesn't even seem like it could of been a reality.. The only other witness to it my brother didn't make it. But we have created a new life (you and I) complete with husbands and children! Lol if you would of told me back then this would be my future? I would of laughed in your face. In fact my brother when I was pregnant with my daughter told me we should not pass down our genes we are doomed and should let the bloodline die out. I bet your children are pretty "normal" as are mine that is our love, our ability to be vulnerable and let others in, shining through. It gives me hope.. Which I need in the dark hours that still can creep in from time to time.

"Present" Another really big word..hurdle..

"Between pain and nothing, I would choose pain." I want to have joy, even if it means some pain. It's so much better than nothing... Vulnerability.. I want to feel, I want to not just have my walls up and survive. I want to let it out, and let others in. That means being open which means a certain amount of vulnerability. Not to those that hurt me in the past, there is no bond there.. nothing to fix with that person(s).

RJ, You are a strong woman, I've always suspected that by just seeing the strength and grace you have exhibited while going through the hardships of this surgery... After reading your background I realize your strength is born from adversity and survival.. We are survivalists in the truest sense. As you said, our siblings are or were scarred in different ways yes? As my brother was.. In his death, I realized my strength, my ability to survive. I'm looking forward to the days ahead of not just surviving and being strong, but having joy. Joy and vulnerability..

Blurry vision after this surgery is not uncommon The after affects of the anesthesia, some pain meds and especially the anti nausea meds. In particular the anti nausea Patches. Let your doctor know your concerns though

Believing in myself... That's one I'm having trouble with. The vets forum.. It used to be vets.. But not anymore.

Ack I can't read this yet!! I went to bed at 7 yesterday (wasn't feeling well) I will watch tonight and come back and read and contribute damn I feel the withdraws already!

First off good luck tomorrow:) I know some may think I can bring down the fun and games somedays but the reality is that honesty helps pave the way.. For yourself and others... "Normal" funny word really what is my idea of normal? Lol it's not me (no I'm not special) I realize I'm here with a bunch of people that were just a little "obese" and don't have the issues I have.. But last night I got to thinking.. There are a LOT of people here that struggle with their food demons before this surgery. And those demons do not magically disappear after. I'm in transition. I am further out. Six months was a transition too. I thought that was the major one. But I'm realizing it's just the first one. Oh **** this this sounds so doom and gloom and it's not. It's just reality. It's my reality. I am "healthy" I am smaller.. I am a lot of things

Thinking of you this morning I hope that in the coming days we will share threads and get to know each other.