GirlOnFire

I finally called today and signed up to go to a group meeting this week. I'm terrified. I have high anxiety already and this decision is really weighing on me (no pun intended LOL!) I just dont know if I am brave enough to pull the trigger on something like this...its such a huge huge life changing decision. I'm scared about complications and I'm scared that I'll have this massive regret after it's been done...months later...and wonder why the hell I did it.

I'm a newbie in here...Just starting to seriously consider the sleeve as an option for me...and I have a couple questions for those of you that have already had the surgery. 1.) If you could talk to yourself pre-op what would you say? What would you tell the you that was still undecided about having the surgery? 2.) Do you ever regret having the procedure? Even in tiny moments...like dinner out with friends or around the holidays? Do the regrets ever out weight the results?

Thanks for all the feedback. It is really helping me to decide what I am going to do. Like many of you have mentioned...I have major fear and anxiety over this but I also have the same fears about staying the size I am or getting bigger. I was recently diagnosed with insulin resistance and we all know it's just a short jump from that to full blown diabetes. I have a 5 year old little boy that needs me around for a long time. That is a big part of my decision...both for and against. Another thing is that I got married young and never finished college. Its something that I want to do but the idea of being the "old" and fat lady in class with a bunch of 20 year olds has prevented me from taking the steps to get back into school. I have a friend that has had this procedure and I look at how her life has changed....it's amazing. She is so much more happy now and you can see the confidence in her face. Plus of course she looks amazing. I guess what scares me the most is the actual surgery (dying on the table or having a serious complication) and what my life will be like in the long haul. The idea of a 2-5 oz stomach for the rest of my life is a daunting idea. I've never been able to stick to a diet for longer than 6 months and I worry that I wont be able to handle the change when it is forced on me by the size of the stomach. I have issues with food like many of you...I eat to heal and I hate that. I want to end this abusive relationship I have with food and I dont think I can do it on my own. I'm about 220 lbs right now...I'm 30 years old....I wonder if I'm just giving up...if I can lose the weight on my own by busting my ass. But then I remember that I've done that before and gained nearly every bit of what I lost back.

Thanks for the input. I'm still trying to figure out if this is something that I am even going to do. I'm dipping my toes in the Water.