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thank you so much -you guys are better than my so called friends that i have near me

I want to thank you all for taking the time to reply to my problems. I have decided with a clear mind to focus on my mind, body, and soul. What shall be will be and it won't help the situation by me just sitting around stressing about it. I am on a new journey and I believe that everything happens for a reason. I sincerely hope that we can work things out but if not- we weren't meant to be. One day at a time....

i thought about doing counseling but truthfully if he claims he cannot even come in before 3 am cause of working i doubt he will have time for counseling. i will ask him about it though- what can it hurt. I never believed in divorce either which is why I am still here. I swear i wish we could work it out but i cannot be the only one in it. Father -figures- ha! Funny you should say that. Imagine Andrew Dice Clay meets Eddie Murphy (The old one not the new clean mouth one) The have a friendship and he has always pushed him to do the opposite of what a married man should do. Funny that he has a wife that he takes care of but encourages his son to do whatever he needs to do no matter what or who it affects.

thank you for the uplifting thoughts! you guys are definitely right. i know what i need to do but sometimes its hard to get things going. I guess i feel like a failure because i let myself believe in a person more than i believe in myself. i hate that i let him take so much energy. i am indeed a work in progress!

i am trying to think about me and the kids- believe me I am. I just feel so overwhelmed right now with my emotions and I kind of wish we could have divorced -worked it out or whatever before i got on this journey.

He keeps saying that he has to focus on paying his debts and that i am not being supportive to his needs. I am not sure what is going on with him but i feel that a marriage takes two and i am the one that is always alone. I thank you for wishing the best for us but everytime i talk to him about possibly coming to a common ground he seems to be ready to just jump ship. I think he wants to leave but doesn't know how.

I do believe but cant help but to wonder why. I wish i could just walk away unphased but i made a commitment by marrying him. I guess i meant mine and he didnt.

Jrzydiva i thought that he would be uncomfortable but i never thought it would be like this. I Dont have many friends to talk to and i am so confused. His mom and i get along great and she sees what i am dealing with and told me i have to focus on me too. This couldnt happen at a worst time.

Thanks ladies but i am a wreck. I have been making myself sick about it literally . I try to focus on myself but having five kids and stressed out just adds to it. I am going to try to sleep

I posted before about the status of my marriage and every since i was sleeved he has done everything to show me he doesnt love me. This couldnt have come at a worse time.

i was sleeved the same day and i cannot tolerate the protein shakes they make my stomach hurt. i tried to eat chili with no beans or meat so basically the sauce and it was good. i am trying to do better with liquids too! on another note- i made a mistake of trying to eat a quarter size piece of hamburger and i almost burst and it came right up. thats what i get !

i should get that on a t shirt- lol. thank you for the compliments

Congratulations and I see that you got a great present- your sleeve that is. Let me tell you that you are smart for walking around. I was in pain and under so much medications that I was out of it and I refused to walk like I should have. Girl listen- I ended up in so much pain from the gas that I had to stay in the hospital an extra day and when I got home I was in pain. I had to do like everyone said and to walk. Before i knew it i was fine and you will be too.

thank you fallenangel, i am a work in progress and i definitely appreciate the encouragement.