Thanks Mark!!
Sometimes it is hard to see that light, I've been on the waiting list for 3 years, When I went on the waiting list I was 139kg now I'm 160kg.
And in that 3 years my marriage ended and I became a single mother, my ex husband started threatening me and I had to put a family violence order on him, which he breached countless times.
I guess I'm whinging, I just feel a bit down and a year seems so far away.
I know in reality it isn't but time seems to drag on when you are waiting impatiently as I am!!
Thank you for your answers I really appreciate it!!