blessedw2

Attached is a picture from yesterday 11/25/12 after an 8 pound loss (33 total).
 
Today I am 1 week post op and feeling blah. I want to eat things today... I'm not sure if this is because I'm starting my "time of the month" or if I'm just getting sick of stage 2 food. I'm still trying to figure out the hungry/full feeling. I'm having a hard time getting all my liquids down. I think I'm not being strict enough on myself... which is not like me. I don't know what is going on with me. I kind of forgot that I was supposed to be drinking protein shakes and stuff because I didn't feel "safe" enough to drink anything with any substance to it.
 
I weighed myself on my weekly weigh in on the WiiFit. It said I've lost 9.8 pounds since last week (before surgery obviously) I'm happy with this, but I guess discouraged that only 5 people have said anything about my weightloss or even that I am looking good.
 
I am gassy too. Burping feels weird because it's not like a burp; it's like air just kind of bubbles its way up and it hurts. When I yawn I can tell that I suck down a lot of air because it hurts like crazy in my chest area. Sneezing hurts my incisions still even though I continue to hold my stomach/incisions when I do sneeze.
 
I was prescribed a laxative, but I have not had any trouble with constipation at all. I'm sure this is because of the liquid diet though. When I use the bathroom, it is watery and embarrassingly enough a lot of gas is released at that time. I HATE it. I'm hoping that doesn't last forever. I suppose it is something I will have to get used to if it is though...
 
I am unable to pick up my children (ages 20 months and 3.5) so my parents have been helping me while my husband is at work. It is a lot to ask them, and I know that they are happy to help, but it is really hard for me to be so reliant on someone else taking care of my kids. I feel like such a burden to everyone. I'm slowly starting to be able to do more though.
 
As of right now, I am mostly wishing I didn't have the procedure done. I had a rough day with a lot of negatives in it so I'm feeling pretty negative... I had to try on 5 different shirts this morning because I haven't changed sizes at all and wanted to wear something a little different today. I thought some of my "tight-ish" shirts would fit nicely after 33 pounds lost, but nope. Discouraging... My "fat," loose shirts are definitely too big now, but that's about the only change I've seen.
 
My 2 week post-op appointment has been changed from December 5th to December 10th. I had it changed so I woudn't have to make a special trip (2 hours) just for the appointment. I needed to go on the 10th for a mandatory work meeting anyways so that works better for me. More time to shed the pounds... and be on Stage 2 foods... I will survive!

I'm feeling pretty well. I did quite a bit of walking today. I haven't taken any pain meds since last night and I didn't take very much then. I am still a little sore. I slept in the bed for the first time last night instead of the chair. It was pretty good. I used a pillow against my stomach and laid on my side and even mostly on my tummy for a little bit too. I did still have pain when I moved around some. Also, getting up and down from chairs and bending still hurts. My incisions are healing nicely. They are starting to itch. I have a pretty gigantic bruise around one of the incisions too. My daughter was horrified to see it, but she insisted... haha
 
I haven't stuck to my "not weighing myself until the 2 week appointment" thing. This morning I was down all my surgery gaining minus 4 more pounds. It is really exciting! I want to get a daily planner and start tracking how much exercise I do and also my weight. I'm questioning the weight thing though... I don't want to be soooo focused on weight that it's almost an obsession. I just want to be healthy. Maybe I will do weekly weight and measurements? I'm not sure... I for sure want to track how many minutes I'm exercising and how often though.
 
Today I've kind of had an issue with getting enough water in. I've been keeping busy so kind of let it slide. Now I'm to the point where I'm feeling thirsty... which makes me want to take big drinks of water and make the thirst go away. HA, not cool. It hurts and gurgles and bubbles on the way down. It's so strange!
 
Also, I ate two "bad" things since my surgery. Both caused me to get pretty bad diarrhea.
 
The first was a cheese soup with sour cream and Velveeta in it... which is fatty and not a good choice, but it did fit under my category so I had a few bites. It was SOOOO good too haha.
 
The second one was the Jell-O/cream cheese part off the top of a pretzel salad (last night). Jell-O is on my list so I thought it would be ok even though I knew cream cheese wasn't a good choice.
 
I don't mind that I got bad reactions to both. I have learned my lesson and that will help me from making those bad choices in the future.