Hi I am new after lurking for months. I have my surg scheduled on dec 3rd...I am thrilled, scared, worried... Not scared about surgery scared about life afterwards . Will I be me still? Since I can't eat will I turn into a drunk??? The thing I fear the most .... One sibling functional drunk...yeah right like any drunk can really be functional...right? Sorry not the point anyways - how have you all dealt with cross addiction? Any anyone going with Garcia in dec? I'm going alone so a little scared but not enough to stop...I am a lightweight as they call it but I certainly don't feel light- just sayin...remind me please I'm not crazy and I am just being OCD...lol. Like I said biggest fear except for dying, etc, being gambler druggie drunk crazy shopper etc... Help