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Congrats Maurice!

Guys thank you so much for the support. Ya know it's funny I always thought I should get away from hee emotonally. The sad thing is she came down with demylinating disease and now has moved in with me and I'm taking care of her. Not completely just food,shelter and etc. I know I know not smart. But she's my mother and my siblings are all too selfish with their own lives. She treats me different than she does them. She babies and cries for them as for me I'm always on my own. I dont want to bore you guys with my drama. I am definately going ahead with the surgery. I had my last class and final sign off yesterday. My calcium is a very low so they gave me a strong dose of vitamin d and calcium. I bought almost eveything I need for pre-op and lined it up in my room on the floor. I started my pre-op diet today. No I don't have a real man. More like a every now and than buddy if you know what I mean. Honestly I'd like to get rid of the two but I guess they are my safety net. I dont have time for much else with my schedule. Anyhoo I'm ready for this journey. I know everything and everyone will change. That's what I'm hoping for. Thanks for responding!

I'm having sugery in 12 days. Me and my mom had lunch today and I asked her why hasn't she said anything about my sugery. She said she doesn't approve of it so why be supportive? Than she said why are you doing this? I can't believe she asked that question. I have been heavy most of my life. I've lost weight 50 to 70 pounds 4-5 times. My first attempt was a bulemic episode at age 11. It only lasted for a week. I saw it on an afterschool special. Than at 17 I lost 66 pounds going from 189 to 123. Excercising and starving myself to death! I refused to be fat for my senior year and prom. I got pregnant at 20,married and was 172 and gained 80 pounds behind that. Birth control,three month shot bloated me right back up! Got a divorce by the way my ex hated fat women. His treament toward me is a whole different cruel story. At 23 I did advocare and went from 248 to 163 with taebo.excercise. That at age 27 I went from 252 to 196 on phentermine and excercise. Than la weightloss for 10 pounds but I was allergic to the pills. Than I went back up to 242 due to steroids for excema,asthma,and severe allergies . Than I went to 218 again back on phentermine and excercise. Now I am back to 244 and frustrated! I have been on steroids 40 percent of my life! Anyways I told her I was tired and this is my last attempt. So she's like well that's your decision but I dont have to support it. I really wanted to call her out of her name. My mother has always been jealous of me success and talent wise. When I lost those 66 pounds in highschool at a size 6 she still called me a fat bitch when she got angry. If I asked her did she cook(when I was a size 6 in highschool) she would go in the fridge and pull the food out and throw it on the floor and tell me she is not a maid get it my damn self. Honestly I think she has been part of my emotional battle with food. I dont blame her for my obesity but she is not the nicest or most supportive yet I luv her dearly. Whenever I accomplish something she praises me sometimes but is jealous secretly. Thank God for a few friends because my family is not there for me on this decision! I really need to be the person I know I can be! Sorry had to vent

I was just in ashley stewart and I tried on this dress. I'm 5ft2 244 and I looked like aunt sally's cousin sweeping floors with my dress. Just awful. I try different pants on and I have to roll up every pair of pants I get except for capris. I even put rubber bands under the bottom and fold the pants under. I got that from my 11yr old daughter and my co-workers. I'm very petite with 62 inch bow hips and a large put a drink on my ass. Lets not talk about my lower stomach that looks like a kangaroo pouch. The only thing that is little on me is my hands,arms and legs. I love my shape. Just not the fat that comes along with it! But I dont think anyone is looking for a super sized beyonce shaped woman. When I lose weight though I look fabulous! I can't wait until I am banded!

You guys have done very well for yourselves. I'm 244 and I really would like to be 180 by christmas. 160 by my bday in febuary of next year. I'm serious about this! I have surgery in 12 days! I really need advice on how to lose steadily and stay successful with the band. I start my pre-op diet tomorrow.

Thanks kay that helps. I guess I'm concerned about going through such a great measure to lose the weight I just want to be sure. I see my friend eating small meals but she indulges in sugary,fatty snacks afterwards. I think wow I hope she does not gain! I am going to try my best to get to goal in 8-9 months! I dont mind excercising when I put my minds to it. I have been walking 1-2 miles a day three to 4 days a week. I replaced my breakfast with atkins advantage chocolate shake. I know it's hard but I figure this is the last straw. It's either now or never.:ranger:

I love wine also. But I also know that is part of my problem why I'm obese in the first place. Wine at night has no way of burning off. It is full of calories and unwated sugar. If you have a glass you should have 1-2 glasses 3days aweek. Not everyday. I'm post-op and I really have to learn this. I drink a glass about 4-5 nights a week myself so I understand the desire for it.

Shelly we have the same surgery date.

This is good to know. I love water and I gulp it down always. I will be banded in 13 days. Congrats kat on the 100 pound weightloss!

I also quit with chantix. It only took me 4 days to quit. My cigs tasted terrible. It's a nasty nasty habit. As a result I have started excercising again! The air,energy are slowly replenishing. I walked almost 2 miles yesterday! It is worth it to quit!:clap2:

I've been drinking adkins advantage shakes for breakfast. I started walking yesterday. I'm going to work out today as well. I am really excited about my future banding.

I am pre-op but I have pcos as well. Losing weight is really hard. Now that you mention it everytime I consume carbs it's like I can feel the weight gain. Carbs and me don't mix all. I hope the lapband helps me.

I luv wine and I know it has major calories. After surgery I have to just say no for awhile.

Morning all I am from illinois. I am 31yrs old soon to be banded august 24th. I'm nervous and excited all at the same time.