Knowing for years I was the "fat" friend everyone tries to stand in front of when pictures are taken because I have such low self esteem. Knowing that one day I want to ride the rides at Six Flags with my future grandchildren. To stand beside my daughter the day she get's married and not be embarrassed by the way I look. To walk beside my husband and make him feel proud of the person he married 28 years ago....to live again and not be embarrassed that I can't fit into airlines seats, booths, seats at sports events, movie theaters. In the end there is so much more to life to see, touch and explore in this short life that we live....I long for the day I can walk into any store without going to the plus size department pick out something cute and it actually fits...that day tears will be shed. The day people notice me instead of saying your so funny, your face is so pretty, etc.....