Tracy2801

I am a food addict ~ it is the friend in the bad, ugly or good times who was always there.

How did I let myself lose control and let the food addict take over? I can't answer that or perhaps I didn't want to face the hard truth of why I allowed it to happen.

I am the one people say "your so funny" but never the one they say "your pretty, you look great". Yes that is me ~ the fat insecure one. I laugh to keep from crying because inside I am screaming. Oh I cry just not in front of people. Something no one would understand unless they walked in my shoes. Where did the time go and why wasn't I living?

I vowed to myslelf through all the failed diets to be fit at 50. I failed last year at being fit at 50 as I am now 10-months into 50. I am now going to be the Mother of the Groom. Woozza where did time go?

I am still the person I have always been and still screaming on the inside to get out, be the person who may be one day have a grandchild and ride a roller coaster with, dance in the rain, dance on the dance floor...to finally let me be me.

I have vowed to once again release the demons that hold me back and ride on my shoulders every day to be the one person who can stand up tall and know I did it ~ to find me!

Lord I pray everyday for this guidance to assist me in this journey called life....I hope the next chapters in my life exceed all of my expectations.....